I was baptised and brought up as a Catholic, but by the time I reached 13ish i started to have serious doubts about christianity and have been an athiest (or at least i think i have, not that sure of the terminology, maybe more agnostic?) ever since.
But recently (now i'm 15), unexpectedly I've been questioning my beliefs again. I can't say i had any particular experience of being "called" on by God or anything like that, I've just been thinking about it alot lately. I do believe there is someone up there, i don't know if its the christian God, or what, but i find myself thanking someone for watching over me if i have a near escape or something. And my gran who i was very close to died a few months ago, i'd like to think she's not just going to rot away in the ground like I always believed.
Iagree with most of the christian values of loving your neighbour etc but I have some problems with the catholic/christian church, and find it to be awfully judgemental and old fashioned on certain subjects like homosexuality etc. abortion was one of them until 4 months or so ago.
This isn't very relevant, but my close 15 yearold friend, very tragically, fell pregnant about 5 months ago. At first I was trying to convince her to get an abortion, she's a very bright girl with a good life and i didn't want to see her throw it all away. But as the weeks went by, being around her and knowing there was life growing there, i couldn't believe i'd asked her to kill it. which must mean life has some sort of value to me - why? i don't know, i never thought life was sacred or anything like that. i'm not so sure now, to me, that little fetus in there has some sort of importance.
I don't know what to believe, i really don't.
I am not having a very nice time of it lately, home is hard, school is harder, maybe i'm just looking for some source of hope or something.
my mother has told me about this thing she experienced, she heard a heavenly voice from the sky when she was my age, and i won't tell the whole story, but it ended up possibley saving the life of her younger sister, my aunt. And i know she's not the sort to lie about that sort of thing.
also, i think i should also mention that i think i lead a fairly good life, i'm kind and compassionate and i always respect other people's beliefs.
advice/ your thoughts on this (without outright trying to convert me) would be much appreciated
also, i have a few questions i'd be grateful if you could answer for me
-why would a perfect god create beings with the ability to sin? i know they had free will, but why would he give them free will if it meant they could sin? some sort of an experiment?
-why would god create homosexuals if its such a sin?
-if god is all forgiving, why is there a hell?
-please tell me more about how evoloution/dinosaurs fit into christianity
-do you believe that non christians, who havent been saved, will not go to heaven, no matter how good a life they lived? is it fair that a very good person who just happened to be born into a family/place where christianity isn't taught, shouldn't go to heaven? based on circumstances alone
thankyou
and i'm sorry if this post is cringingly unintelligent/unsophisticated/misinformed or unclear and it probably is, but i don't know how to put it any better.
But recently (now i'm 15), unexpectedly I've been questioning my beliefs again. I can't say i had any particular experience of being "called" on by God or anything like that, I've just been thinking about it alot lately. I do believe there is someone up there, i don't know if its the christian God, or what, but i find myself thanking someone for watching over me if i have a near escape or something. And my gran who i was very close to died a few months ago, i'd like to think she's not just going to rot away in the ground like I always believed.
Iagree with most of the christian values of loving your neighbour etc but I have some problems with the catholic/christian church, and find it to be awfully judgemental and old fashioned on certain subjects like homosexuality etc. abortion was one of them until 4 months or so ago.
This isn't very relevant, but my close 15 yearold friend, very tragically, fell pregnant about 5 months ago. At first I was trying to convince her to get an abortion, she's a very bright girl with a good life and i didn't want to see her throw it all away. But as the weeks went by, being around her and knowing there was life growing there, i couldn't believe i'd asked her to kill it. which must mean life has some sort of value to me - why? i don't know, i never thought life was sacred or anything like that. i'm not so sure now, to me, that little fetus in there has some sort of importance.
I don't know what to believe, i really don't.
I am not having a very nice time of it lately, home is hard, school is harder, maybe i'm just looking for some source of hope or something.
my mother has told me about this thing she experienced, she heard a heavenly voice from the sky when she was my age, and i won't tell the whole story, but it ended up possibley saving the life of her younger sister, my aunt. And i know she's not the sort to lie about that sort of thing.
also, i think i should also mention that i think i lead a fairly good life, i'm kind and compassionate and i always respect other people's beliefs.
advice/ your thoughts on this (without outright trying to convert me) would be much appreciated
also, i have a few questions i'd be grateful if you could answer for me
-why would a perfect god create beings with the ability to sin? i know they had free will, but why would he give them free will if it meant they could sin? some sort of an experiment?
-why would god create homosexuals if its such a sin?
-if god is all forgiving, why is there a hell?
-please tell me more about how evoloution/dinosaurs fit into christianity
-do you believe that non christians, who havent been saved, will not go to heaven, no matter how good a life they lived? is it fair that a very good person who just happened to be born into a family/place where christianity isn't taught, shouldn't go to heaven? based on circumstances alone
thankyou
and i'm sorry if this post is cringingly unintelligent/unsophisticated/misinformed or unclear and it probably is, but i don't know how to put it any better.