confused and lost

[dovespirit]

im married for 35 yrs I want out of the marriage ; im mentally abused ,my husband was an alcoholic when were married he beat me , now he still drinks but not as much ; I was married at 16 and here I am 54 and I feel like I missed a lot in my life my teen years n etc ive been looking for love in all the wrong places ;this might sound like an excuse , but ive been feeling unloved and I never really felt love , I love my husband but not in the way a husband n wife should feel , my dad raped n beat me 12 to 15 im being treated for ptsd depression etc ive been talking with other guys but all they want is sex ; don't know what to do please pray for me ive lost all touch with god too

 

[dayhiker]

Hi dove ... so hard to find a way when one is as hurt as you are. I have not had hurt like you have. So all I can say is I hear the hurt in your post. I'd support you in what ever you need to do to heal.

 

[Observer]

That is terrible Dove, I am really sorry for everything that's happened to you. I pray that you will find peace and find a better life for yourself xx

 

[Autumnleaf]

Have you told your husband how you feel? He might feel the same way or he might have something to say worth hearing about it.

 

[dovespirit]

I have explained to him how I feel ;and he said we should stay separated so does my counselor because of the mental abuse I went through with him too ,

 

[LoveConquers]

Just want you to know that I am praying for you and that you find peace in the midst of your trials. I'll be the first to tell you that its not easy, but continue to pray for faith and patience as God leads you to the right path.

 

[dovespirit]

thank you so much for your prayers love n kindness ,it means so much to me ,and im glad you understand where im coming from MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS huggggs