well i posted last week that we had a bfp and i was spotting and having some cramping. turns out i had to have emergency surgery on tuesday night for an ectopic pregnancy. by the time they got in there, the entire right tube was severely damaged and they had to remove a significant amount of scar tissue from the right side of my uterus along with the tube. i have a 4 1/2 inch incision across my abdomen and feel yucky still! i was in the hospital for 2 days and have been ordered bedrest for 2 weeks. i just cannot believe we lost another baby. i have 2 fantastic sons (15 & 4) and we have lost 7 others. i believe with all my heart that God's plan is perfect, but this is all just too much. i am so sad. i know i should just let it go and be happy with my boys, i just long to hold another baby in my arms. this is enough though....i am praying for contentment and peace in this storm


