Good morning everyone.

How are you all??
Mask, I know what you mean about being controlling! I don't have kids, but I am a control freak nonetheless. I don't try to control other people, but when I feel like other people are controlling my life and I can't do anything about it, I end up doing the whole eating disordered freakout thing and go back to restricting. It's a vicious cycle, and very frustrating.
My nutritionist appointment went okay. I retained half a litre of fluid, which wouldn't surprise me too much if it were that "time of month" (TOM) ..... but it's not. And I've only retained fluid once before, in November. It scares me. And Bruce (nutritionist) told me that the only way to get rid of it is to drink. I usually drink 2 - 3 cups of fluids a day (minus anything with caffeine - that's usually neutral), and I've been going more with two or two and a half cups lately. Yesterday was one and a half. It's
so hard for me to trust him. I've been under his guidance for 9 months now, and still it's so hard to believe what he says. (Yep, I know I've got trust issues.... that's been figured out long before this.)
So I don't know. Things are frustrating. And I'm tired, having gotten a little over 6 hours of sleep, along with some very vivid dreams (how I hate those!!).
Today is going to be madly busy. I'm starting an ED support group, and today is the day that we've got to hang all the flyers for it. It's going to be hard to get all 15 buildings...... lots and lots of flyers to print!! But I've got three other people helping me, so it shouldn't be
terrible. However, I've also got to meet with the Women's Center coordinator, type up rules and guidelines, and make sure that everything is ready for Monday's meeting. I'm excited, but I'm also scared that this is just going to push me back down into being angry with myself for not looking like I had an ED, when things got bad in fall 2005. I just looked thinner. Looked better. More acceptable. Now I just look....... huge. Ugh.
So we'll see how that goes. Plus, I've got schoolwork to do - an exam to study for, a term paper to write, another part of a paper to write (which will be the longest and most complicated), a quiz to start studying for ..... this weekend is going to be hell. I've a psych appointment (and I'm getting my hamster!

), but other than that, it's going to be work work work. Even on Easter, which is pretty bad. I'm not even looking forward to going to church. I'd rather stay home and get stuff done.
Sorry for dumping like that. :o
/me snuggles up in a corner, wrapped in a comforter, with
Biting the Hand that Starves You to read, and a mug of coffee to get herself prepped for the day.