Come on in, the coffee's hot

[Ramona]

Thanks. Did you manage to get any decent sleep?

Nope! But I have today off, so hopefully I can later.

 

[frenzy]

I feel incredibly depressed. It has been getting gradually worse again this past week and I hurt so much I just want to die. I can't handle life anymore. It's too hard. I need help.

 

[Ramona]

I feel incredibly depressed. It has been getting gradually worse again this past week and I hurt so much I just want to die. I can't handle life anymore. It's too hard. I need help.

((((((Frenzy))))))

Do you have a counselor? I think you should call him/her as soon as you can. S/he'll be better equipped to help you, but if you need a little extra support, PM me.

That goes for anyone.

Hallie

 

[Judy02]

Bump?? :-(

Nothing new here april, just feeling crap, lol.

 

[Mask]

Hello to all you new names....nice to meet you all ! I'm so sorry that a lot of you are feeling crappy...that sucks! Frenzy, did you get to see a counselor yet? Please don't leave things if you are feeling that bad...go to someone who can help and support you . That really sucks, that you guys aren't sleeping well, hope you all get some rest soon.

APRIL, I'm so glad to see you back here ! I was getting worried about you! I'm glad to hear that you are alright and that things are going well for you. That's awesome that you've gotten off some of your meds! So Jarrod is finally home with you...woo hoo! That must be soooooo nice for you both. When did you say that you guys are getting married? I'm sure having him around for support certainly helps you mentally and emotionally! Is this your last year in uni? It's really great to hear from you again.

Lynne...Did your friend get a job yet? I'm glad that you still have her to hang out with. That's to bad you can't attend the bible study any more, hopefully you can find a new one during the day.

As for me, I'm doing o.k. I was feeling a bit of the yuck coming on, but I'm holding my own. I just wish I could figure out why I have this sadness inside of me? Even when everything is good, I still have to fight this loneliness or sadness. I just don't get it!!! If I'm really busy and stuff, I don't notice that it's there but as soon as I quiet down...there it is ! I keep asking God what it is but I don't get any answers...very frustrating! If you knew what you were battling, then it would be easier to deal with it...well I think it would anyway .

Things are pretty quiet around here, nothing new or exciting for me. My daughter wrote her test for her driver's and passed...we have to go on monday to get her picture card so she can start driving ...yikes!! She in driver's ed, so that's good.

Well gotta go, take care all and have a great weekend!

Oh yah, could you all say a prayer for me, I have a horrible stiff neck and pain in the back of my head (I've had this a couple of times over the years)! Thanks.

 

[4Everloved]

((((((Frenzy))))))

Do you have a counselor? I think you should call him/her as soon as you can. S/he'll be better equipped to help you, but if you need a little extra support, PM me.

That goes for anyone.

Hallie

Frenzy, I agree, counselors can be very helpful. More than you think.

I go to counselors from time to time. It's gets me through the hard stuff. Jesus is the best counselor, but He designed us so that we need other people, too.

We really do love you...and you can pm me also, if you would like to.

It's a new day. Hope your weekend is better and that things improve in your life.

 

[ArmouredSaint]

Returning after months of therapy.Wishing you all healthy minds.

 

[Mask]

Hello all!

Boy it sure is quiet around here! Geez, nobody's posted for almost a month. Hopefully you are all doing good? I'm o.k, could be a lot worst but things could always be better! Having some stressful relationships to deal with...UGH! I've given up some comittements that were causing me to much stress...we will see if that helps any...hopefully so!

Have a good day !

 

[frenzy]

I've started to see a counselor. I haven't made any improvement yet but I'm still hoping...

 

[Mask]

Wow, it's your 21 birthday today...HAPPY BIRTHDAY frenzy !!!! Are you doing anything fun to celebrate?

I hope you have success with the counselor. It is very frustrating when you don't feel like you are seeing much improvements . Sometimes there are improvements but they are small but eventually they all add up and then suddenly one day you will be shocked at how far you've come! How long have you been seeing him/her?

I am kinda bored today ! Not much going on here....just stupid housework !

 

[frenzy]

Wow, it's your 21 birthday today...HAPPY BIRTHDAY frenzy !!!! Are you doing anything fun to celebrate?

I hope you have success with the counselor. It is very frustrating when you don't feel like you are seeing much improvements . Sometimes there are improvements but they are small but eventually they all add up and then suddenly one day you will be shocked at how far you've come! How long have you been seeing him/her?

I am kinda bored today ! Not much going on here....just stupid housework !

Thanks! Tonight my parents are coming over for dinner. Thats about all I'm doing today. I will probably go out this weekend. I've only seen my counselor about three times so far, so it isn't a surprise I don't see any improvement yet.

 

[Mask]

Hi everyone

How was the birthday dinner frenzy? Get any cool presents? Don't give up on the counselor, it can't hurt, that's for sure!

It's so cold here lately. We have a tiny bit of snow on the ground too ! My life is quite boring so I don't very much to talk about today. I just wanted to check in and say hi.

 

[frenzy]

The birthday dinner was fun. We had Chinese food. They gave me money for my present, which of course I appreciate, being a poor college kid and all. As for the counselor, I'm going to put effort into seeing him next week.

 

[frenzy]

Update: today is a horrible day. My car is missing and I had to file a police report. Right now I'm just sitting at home waiting for the officers to come and talk to me...

 

[frenzy]

Things continue to get worse... Right now I hurt so much emotionally that it literally hurts to breathe.

 

[HolyOne87]

this is the first time I've been in this thread.But I just needed to vent somewhere...figured this would be the best place.

My ex boyfriend sent me an email with a song in it, a poem he wrote, and a message to me. My ex and i haven't talked in a year. The message basically said in quicker terms, "i miss you so much. I've changed. I want you back"

Now, of course acting on impulse, I said(in a nicer way), "There is no chance I will get back with you. I don't feel anything toward you.".
He didn't email me back, then I emailed him yesterday saying how I appreciate what he wrote to me. Then today, I emailed him my number incase he wanted to talk about things.

I am not sure what I am feeling that I am acting on these impulses of wanting to talk with him. Ever since i got that email, I have not been able to eat too much since my stomach is feeling all weird (knotty, butterfly like).


And the past 2 1/2 days I've been playing nothing but, "Angel" by Judas Priest(the song he put in the email for me) on my IPOD.

I don't get it..I really hated my ex boyfriend..why am I feeling like this??I do have feelings for a guy..and have had feelings for the past few months..then my ex suddenly pops in and I feel weird inside.

I don't get it..I wish my ex would message me for some reason.....why is this.....why... :-/
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The Lyrics To "Angel" by Judas Priest (he said this whole song describes how he has been feeling)
Angel - put sad wings around me now
Protect me from this world of sin
So that we can rise again

Oh angel - we can find our way somehow
Escaping from the world we're in
To a place where we began

And I know we'll find
A better place and peace of mind
Just tell me that it's all you want - for you and me
Angel won't you set me free

Angel remember how we'd chase the sun
Then reaching for the stars at night
As our lives had just begun

When I close my eyes I hear your velvet wings and cry
I'm waiting here with open arms - oh can't you see
Angel shine your light on me

Oh angel we'll meet once more - I'll pray
When all my sins are washed away
Hold me inside your wings and stay
Oh! angel take me far away

Put sad wings around me now
Angel take me far away
Put sad wings around me now
So that we can rise again
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sorry long post...

 

[Mask]

Hi,

Frenzy, that sucks about your car! Did the police find it? I'm so sorry that happened to you and that now you are hurting ! I know what you mean, when I get to stressed, my chest gets so heavy, it hurts to breath too...not fun! Why are you so emotionally sick? I hope you are feeling better now.

HolyOne, it sounds like you are very confused lately. You really need to sit down, get quiet and look at both relationships honestly. Look at the pros and cons of being with each guy. If things were bad with your ex, why would you want to start that up again? If your present guy is good to you, why would you want to risk losing that? Sometimes it's just the idea of thinking someone wants us, that makes us think we have feeling for them. It just some excitement. Know what I mean? Just don't make any quick, rash decisions that you might regret later. I hope things work out for the best for you !

I'm doing o.k, I guess. I've had to make some hard decisions and step down from some responsibilities I've had. I didn't really want to, but I needed a break! I'm sad about it though, because it was such a big part of my life, I feel kinda lost now, I don't know what I'm supposed to do now?! Life sucks sometimes! I get so sick of myself sometimes ! I wish I could be somebody else! Someone who has self-confidence, who is brave, who is happy inside, who is smart, who isn't afraid of getting out into the world, who doesn't feel like a big ball of stress, who can lose weight, who can stick to exercising, who can be a nice person, mother & wife, who can manage their finances well....just someone other than me ! I'm tired of being me!!!!!!!! My life is wasting away and I'm doing nothing! Just sitting here in this house, day in, day out! Wasting space! I suck!

 

[HolyOne87]

Hi,

Frenzy, that sucks about your car! Did the police find it? I'm so sorry that happened to you and that now you are hurting ! I know what you mean, when I get to stressed, my chest gets so heavy, it hurts to breath too...not fun! Why are you so emotionally sick? I hope you are feeling better now.

HolyOne, it sounds like you are very confused lately. You really need to sit down, get quiet and look at both relationships honestly. Look at the pros and cons of being with each guy. If things were bad with your ex, why would you want to start that up again? If your present guy is good to you, why would you want to risk losing that? Sometimes it's just the idea of thinking someone wants us, that makes us think we have feeling for them. It just some excitement. Know what I mean? Just don't make any quick, rash decisions that you might regret later. I hope things work out for the best for you !

I'm doing o.k, I guess. I've had to make some hard decisions and step down from some responsibilities I've had. I didn't really want to, but I needed a break! I'm sad about it though, because it was such a big part of my life, I feel kinda lost now, I don't know what I'm supposed to do now?! Life sucks sometimes! I get so sick of myself sometimes ! I wish I could be somebody else! Someone who has self-confidence, who is brave, who is happy inside, who is smart, who isn't afraid of getting out into the world, who doesn't feel like a big ball of stress, who can lose weight, who can stick to exercising, who can be a nice person, mother & wife, who can manage their finances well....just someone other than me ! I'm tired of being me!!!!!!!! My life is wasting away and I'm doing nothing! Just sitting here in this house, day in, day out! Wasting space! I suck!

Thanks for your advice.
As far as for you, that step down from some responsibilities might be the key for you to start balancing lots of stuff..Once you start getting life in check, you can maybe add each responsibility back one at a time, gradually over time.
Start off small, with something you want to do with yourself..like exercising, then work from there. Give it a while so it actually becomes more of a routine,rather then a chore. Then add something else you'd like to do in the mix..Its all about taking small steps, rather then clumping everything together and getting stressed out.

 

[frenzy]

Hi,

Frenzy, that sucks about your car! Did the police find it? I'm so sorry that happened to you and that now you are hurting ! I know what you mean, when I get to stressed, my chest gets so heavy, it hurts to breath too...not fun! Why are you so emotionally sick? I hope you are feeling better now.

I'm doing o.k, I guess. I've had to make some hard decisions and step down from some responsibilities I've had. I didn't really want to, but I needed a break! I'm sad about it though, because it was such a big part of my life, I feel kinda lost now, I don't know what I'm supposed to do now?! Life sucks sometimes! I get so sick of myself sometimes ! I wish I could be somebody else! Someone who has self-confidence, who is brave, who is happy inside, who is smart, who isn't afraid of getting out into the world, who doesn't feel like a big ball of stress, who can lose weight, who can stick to exercising, who can be a nice person, mother & wife, who can manage their finances well....just someone other than me ! I'm tired of being me!!!!!!!! My life is wasting away and I'm doing nothing! Just sitting here in this house, day in, day out! Wasting space! I suck!

Well, the car was found missing its computer so I'm waiting to get it fixed, but I'm just glad its found. I am just hurting so much because I'm in a downslope with my depression and my anxiety isn't getting any better either.

I'm sorry that you aren't feeling well either. Sometimes it's hard to see the good in ourselves when we are feeling so crappy.

 

[Mask]

Thanks for your advice.
As far as for you, that step down from some responsibilities might be the key for you to start balancing lots of stuff..Once you start getting life in check, you can maybe add each responsibility back one at a time, gradually over time.
Start off small, with something you want to do with yourself..like exercising, then work from there. Give it a while so it actually becomes more of a routine,rather then a chore. Then add something else you'd like to do in the mix..Its all about taking small steps, rather then clumping everything together and getting stressed out.

Thanks HolyOne! Yah, I think I just needed to dump some stressful situations right now. As hard as it seems to me right now, not to be doing those jobs, I believe I'm doing what God wanted me to do. I just need to step back, clear my head and see where I'm to go next. It's hard to find balance sometimes....balance between taking care of yourself and being selfish and self-centered. I just want a change in my life right now!