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[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hi everybody, sorry I haven't been here for a while. I won't reply to everybody individually because that would just take too long.

I don't really have any news. Work is going great! I've just finished a project and I'm feeling really good that I managed to do it mostly on my own with little help from my boss. I'm now waiting for new work, I don't know when I'll get it which is fairly frustrating. I have to keep myself busy until I get given something to do. I should have something to do by Monday at the latest.
There's a new project that I will be given that I can work on when I have spare time, its not urgent. It sounds like it could develop into something quite big so I'm excited about that.

Studying is going okay, I'm struggling with one subject which is getting me down. I'm trying not to fall behind with my other subjects. So far I've been quite pleased with the marks that I've got from my assignments. No A's or B's but for me, the marks are good.

My nephew is so cute, he's now starting to eat solids and seems to be loving his food! I'll change my profile picture to a very cute one of him that I took the other day.

I've recently discovered Facebook and am finding that very addictive. If any of you are on it, let me know.

I think that's about it from me.

 

[lmarie23]

hi everyone. my paperwork/training went fine yesterday, April, thanks for asking. we filled out a lot of forms, including one where we had to say that we were not involved or giving assistance to any terrorist organization, which i found interesting. i guess anyone who works for any public job in the U.S. now has to do that. they gave us this big packet of a list of terrorist organizations. and the computer training was pretty simple, just some online courses and quizes afterwards. today i had my drug screen and tomorrow i'm going to get finger printed. there were 7 of us there yesterday, all new hires for the same position, just we'll be working in different houses and most people are just part time. i didn't know they were hiring so many people! and i got my permanent schedule. it looks good except for one thing, i'll be working every single Wednesday (which is when my Bible study is). i'm really sad about having to always miss Bible study now. i was very sad at Bible study last night, thinking about how it would be the last one maybe ever. at least i'll be able to go to church every single week, because my work doesn't start till the afternoons.

tonight i'm going to see the musical "you're a good man, Charlie Brown" at my old college. i'm excited about going to see it, it should be good. and tomorrow night i'm supposed to get together with a few friends who are visiting from Chicago. that should be great, i havent' seen them in a year. just they haven't sent me directions on how to meet them yet, so i'm hoping i get them soon!

Saturday is my last day at my retail job, which will be bittersweet. i'm going to miss my coworkers, but there will be a lot of things about the job i won't miss! hopefully this new job will work out great.

my sister's been going through a rough time lately, i'm worried about her. she's working at a day care for the summer and 3 people quit so they're understaffed, and she just doesn't have experience working with toddlers, so she's having a rough time with it.

TLB, i'm glad work is going great for you! it's nice to see you on here again. i have an account on facebook, i can send you my name if you want to add me. i just don't want to post it on here for privacy reasons.

Jeshu, nice to see you on here again. I'm sorry to hear depression is knocking on your door. I've been struggling with depression too, so I can understand somewhat.

April, I hope you stayed safe last night. <hugs> I'm sorry your nutritionist appointment was difficult. I hope that your lunch with your violin/viola teacher went well today. I'm sorry to hear that Jarrod can't come earlier as well.

Well, i'm off for now!

Lynne

 

[Jeshu]

Last night I went to a talk at Church on depression and other major mental illnesses. It was very informative. I found it somewhat frightening to hear my particular illnesses being discussed but it was good nevertheless. Just to be back with my brothers and sisters was good.
It was a very big meeting there were hundreds of people - I was very moved (surprised) that so many people would come to hear about mental illness. There was some talk about setting a support group up. I hope and pray that this is indeed so.

Anyway a good day to you all

 

[Soulwings]

Jeshu, "welcome back" to the thread!! I'm sorry to hear that depression has been acting up lately, but I am glad that so many people turned up at that meeting. Willingness to learn about mental illness, especially in a church setting, is definitely a good thing! A support group would be fantastic. I've been thinking about approaching "my" pastor (there are seven pastors at my church, all in charge of different things) and suggesting that I, or someone else, start a support group for eating disorders. Kinda tangential, but just to say that I think that support groups of any sort at churches would be a superfantabulous thing.

Tracey, I'm glad that things are going well! Sounds like you've been madly busy though, but I guess that happens with jobs. I'm glad that you're excited about the new assignment, and having it turn into something big definitely sounds exciting!! And I'm glad that studying is okay, and that you're satisfied with your marks. Good job with keeping up with assignments AND with a job, kudos to you! Oh, and PM me your name and I'll add you on Facebook - I've found that it's rather addictive but a very good way of staying in touch with old friends (and new ones!).

Lynne, I'm glad to hear that the training and all went well. That's really interesting about being asked about belonging to terrorist associations; I never knew that jobs had to ask that, although I guess it makes sense. (Although why would anyone admit to being in one?? ) How was the musical?? And I hope that your last day at your retail job tomorrow goes well, and that it isn't too sad or anything. Oh, and PM me your name as well, if you'd like, and I'll add you on FB too.


I'm doing okay - I stayed safe the night before last, and the lunch was fantastic for the most part. We got caught up on old times, are planning to stay in touch and do stuff together (like learn a violin/viola concerto!!), and I might be dog-sitting for her, either staying at her place or having her dog come here. The only bad part about seeing her was that she told me that I should wait to get married until I'm 25. That would make Jarrod 31.......... I am not going to do that. We know that we are right for each other and that isn't going to change in 6 years, and I think that that is the main reason why she said that (although I don't know for sure). It upset me, though, hehe. She's known me for 9 years, so I think she still has the image of me being 10 stuck in her mind, instead of 19 and a junior in college (who has no idea when she's graduating) and engaged, etc., etc., etc. And I think that having mental problems and being through what I've been through since 2004 has matured me more than she realises (or does that not make any sense to any of you??). Oh well, whatever.

The night before I had lunch with her, I forgot to take my nighttime pills, and woke up at 2am and stayed awake til morning. They aren't sleeping pills but I guess they have a really good sedative effect. So silly me... yesterday was a tired day and I slept a good 13 hours since then!!

Anyway, 'nuff said about me.


Do y'all have any plans for the weekend??

 

[dnihila]

How are you all?
I really miss talking to you
but I am trying to find an answer to the meaning
of depression?

 

[Soulwings]

What do you mean, an answer to the meaning of depression? Perhaps why it comes to some people and not others? In any case, I hope that you discover the answer to what you are searching for... and let us know what you come up with. Other than that, how are you?


Today I'm doing alright, I guess. Not much new, really. I'm planning on going for a walk this afternoon - it's lovely weather, in the high 70s and sunny and clear - and then spending some time reading and relaxing. I'm in the middle of so many good books; The Pilgrim's Progress is so close to being finished!!, just three chapters left. I'll see if I can plow through that today. Since it's part of the challenge that I'm doing, it will be nice to get it out of the way! even though it is somewhat enjoyable. I'm reading the original, so the language is sort of like the KJV - nearly 400 pages of it. Oh well, I'm getting adept at reading/understanding it. Took a bit, though. I'm also reading a Jodi Picoult book, The Tenth Circle, which I quite enjoy. Her books are rather depressing, as they deal with tough issues (this one is rape/SI, others have been suicide, physical abuse, and dealing with a sibling with cancer), but they are very interesting and the ending is usually (mostly) satisfactory.

Anyway, that's enough rambling on my part. Tracey, Lynne, Dnihila, Mask, Jeshu, Hannah..... how are all of you??

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hi everybody, how is everybody doing? I'm not doing that great although I hate admitting it. I'm struggling with one subject and getting very frustrated with it. sorry I don't have more to say but my life is pretty boring.

 

[lmarie23]

hi everyone.

Tracey, i'm sorry to hear you're not doing that well. I hope things start going better with the subject you are struggling with.

April, the weather is really nice here too, also sunny in the 70s. i spent most of the day working so I wasn't able to enjoy it, but now i'm off work, so C'est la vie! or however you say that! lol. I'm glad you're reading some books you enjoy. I've just been reading a lot of humorous things lately, like newspaper comic collections (does that count as reading? lol) and this humor writer's book called "How to Remodel a Man" which is very funny.

Dnhila, I hope you find an answer to what you are looking for .

Jeshu, I hope your church sets up that support group. That would be great!

Mask, Hannah, Judy, and everyone else, how are you doing?

The musical "You're a good man, Charlie Brown" was excellent Thursday night. I really enjoyed it. It was very cute. My whole family liked it. And last night I drove to a city an hour away to get together with some old college friends I hadn't seen in ages. (From my previous college, not the school I transferred to.) I was nervous about the driving - I have a slight driving phobia, well just driving on highways and in cities, but I think I did really well with it, and I hardly was scared at all. One of my friends got lost on the way there and called, practically in tears, to ask for directions, but she eventually got there. And my two friends who were coming from Chicago, they got there 5 hours later than they were supposed to! They ended up leaving late, and then they stopped to pick out wedding rings on the way, and then they got caught in traffic.... just one thing after another. But oh well, the three of us there still had fun, we went to see that adorable new movie, Ratatouille, and had dinner at this great Asian restaurant, and shopped at Macy's, and talked a lot. And then our other friends finally came, but I had to leave half an hour after they got there because I decided 10:30 was late enough for driving home.

Today was my last day at my old retail job. It was bittersweet. I'm going to miss everyone, but I won't miss some of the things about the job... well I hope my new job works out great! My department was really nice and went together to get me a card and buy me a gas card.

Well bye for now!

Lynne

 

[Mask]

Hello everyone .

I've just been reading through all your posts. I'm not going to reply to everything or else I'd be here quite a while.

I'm glad to hear that you got the new job Lynne! When do you actually start?

How are you doing April? Are you still struggling with SI? I hope not!

Don't let what your old teacher said upset you either. Some people marry young and things work out great! My hubby and I have been together since we were 17 years old! We didn't get married til we were 22 & 23 but things worked out great for us! My neice got married a couple years ago and she was only 19 and they are very happily married with a beautiful baby boy too! If you guys love each other and are sure that you've discussed any issues you might have and are sure you are ready to get married, then don't worry about it! Hang in there...it won't be long and he'll be home with you!

We've been busy for the last few day. The worship thingy on Friday went well. I hated how their sound system made us sound ...but all went well. Some people definitely got a touch from God that night so I was very happy about that. Saturday, my sons had his best friend over to celebrate his 13th birthday (which is only on July 6th but he wanted to do it early). They played video games all afternoon and evening. We had pizza and DQ blizzard cake. He had fun!! Sunday was church and worship in the morning. My hubby's sister and family are home from Ontario for a few days so we took off after church and went to my Mother-in-laws to visit them. We left there in the evening in time to get back home to catch the Canada Day fireworks. Very busy day ! Anyway I'm going fine. Yesterday was an extremely boring day !!!! I had to get out of the house today, before I went stir crazy. I had a few errands to run and went to have coffee with my friend. Well I don't have much else to report...life's not that interesting.

Hope you are all feeling good! Blessing to you all !

 

[Soulwings]

Sorry I've not been around for a bit, no excuse really, just feeling avoidant and antisocial. :o

Tracey, sorry to hear that things aren't going great. Is there anything that we can do to help? And don't feel ashamed/embarrassed for admitting that you're having a rough time - that is easier said than done, I know, but everyone has rough times, and can empathise, and that usually helps.

Lynne, sounds like you did have a lovely time, both with the musical and with the time spent with friends! It's always nice to catch up with what goes on with your friends, especially after not having seen them for a long time. And I'm hearing really good reviews of Ratatouille, so I guess I'm going to have to see it sometime, prolly when it gets out of theatres. Funny, CF is the only place I've heard about it (of course, I don't really talk with anyone else, so.......:o).

Mask, I'm so glad to hear that the worship thingy went well! And even if you didn't sound as nice as you'd have hoped over the sound system, the worship service did lead people to Christ, and that is always something about which to celebrate!!

I hope that you had a lovely time having coffee with your friend - I love doing that; there's something so relaxing about chatting over a cuppa whatever, be it tea or coffee or chai.

And it's really cool to hear about you and your hubby - I've known Jarrod since I was 16, and he was my only boyfriend - an answer to prayer, since, when I was 14, I prayed that my first boyfriend would become my husband. So it looks like that's just another big little hint of God's that we're really meant to be together. I think we've got a lot of things worked out as far as marriage goes (including wedding plans, bwahaha... I am such a control freak regarding them!!). More will be worked on later on, once he lives here, and also when we get married, of course.


As for me... well, right now I'm [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ed off/worried about the fact that my hands won't stop trembling. Nothing really bad, but annoying and worrisome. Tremors are a side effect of lithium, but I'd prefer to not have that side effect!

Other than that, the past few days have been okay. I did really well with fluid intake yesterday - which is something I really, really struggle with - you wouldn't think that reaching 8 cups/day would be so damn hard!! Today was pleasant - we went for a hike in the morning, our only celebration of the 4th of July - we're not a terribly patriotic family, really. I don't know why/why not. Just the way we were all brought up, I guess, parents included. I don't have a nutritionist appointment this week, so that's a bit of a worry (but a relief too)..... but I hate not knowing my weight and what my body comp shows (% fat, % lean, whether I'm [de]hydrated). Ackkkk...

But other than that, not a lot going on. I started my summer job - tutoring on campus - on Monday. Monday, I've got a 3 hr. stint, same on Tuesday, and Thursdays I've got 2 hrs. Not too bad, but a long time just sitting and waiting for people to come. Oh well - I look at it as getting paid for reading and journalling.

Oh, and Mask, I'm still struggling with SI... but on 19th July, I will have reached a year without cutting! *happy*


Hope y'all are okay. *snuggles*

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hi everybody, sorry I've been away, I've been quite busy at work.

I should have some news I guess but my life is pretty boring.

Work is going great. I know this won't mean anything to anyone but I'm learning how to implement Javascript functions in my code which is a big thing for me to learn. I'm just really excited about it.

My assignment that I was struggling with is going okay. I'm still on the first question so I really need to make a move on it. I'm now getting behind with all my other subjects so I'm going to have to work really hard to catch up.

My nephew is doing very well, he has a bit of a cold but his teeth are coming through, he has his two bottom front teeth already.

I'm loving Facebook, I've got in touch with so many people that I went to primary school (Grade 1 - 7)with and its so nice to find out what they're doing now.

I hope everybody is doing okay.

 

[Mask]

Good day !

April congrats on making it to a year without cutting !!! That is a great victory!!

I'm feeling a bit bleck today! Started with a headache..which seems pretty good now...not a great way to start your day. I'm feeling anxious about a situation with my Pastor. As most of you know, I lead the worship. Well for the last, almost year, I have been doing it pretty much non stop because the other leader quit. The last month or so, another member has stepped up a bit and has lead a few services. It's not totally back to a bi-weekly thing for me yet but it's getting there. I lead on sunday so the other person was supposed to lead this week, but they can't so I (as usual) agreed to ask my team member is they would pull yet another double shift, they agreed because Pastor said that there wouldn't be a service in the evening, so we would only have to do the morning service. Well I got an e-mail from his this morning saying that plans had changed and now there was an evening service. AHHHHH ! I'm getting really tired and could use a break from leading but I've held on to help out everyone else but I'm getting close to my limit here!!! I wrote back and told him that because he had already told me there wasn't a evening service, that my team agreed. I said that I did not want to call them all back and tell them now there was a one! I said that they probably already made plans. I did speak with 3 of them and yes, they have plans! I e-mailed him again and told him that we would not be leading because people already made plans and also because I was getting a bit overwhelmed with doing so much. I don't want to lead in the evening...I'm tired! Plus with not have very much family time with kids, I and hubby together, we value our sunday evenings (when we don't lead worship...hubby sings with me). I hate having to say no and usually don't but sometimes it hard not to feel taken advantage of. It's like a full time job sometimes! I just feel really crappy to not sing for the Pastor. I don't like it if I feel he is upset or disappointed with me but I can only do so much. Last year, I pushed myself to far and fell into a pit of depression and wasn't any good to anyone and had to take a break. I don't want that again for sure! It's hard whenever there aren't enough people to do the job so one person gets it all dumped on their shoulders! Sorry this is so long.....I'm just feeling kinda sick waiting to hear back his response.

 

[gracechick]

Hi all...

Looks like everyone's been busy. My mother had relatives drop by that hadn't visited for years so they had supper with us over the 4rth. That was nice although the weather was very windy & overcast. My baby girl loved the fireworks. She sat on pap's lap the whole time staring at them.
*However Im embarassed to admit I was dragged there & sat in the car with my grandmother till they started the fireworks. Then I was worried my baby would be scared so I jumped out & ran where the rest of the family was seated to find she was fine. Sometimes it is a relief to have others there to help when it seems so hard sometimes to get passed these nutty symptoms.

Havn't been by recently, but it's always interesting to see what everyone is up too.

Mask that must be rather stressful. I hope you are taking care of yourself.
Hope Lynn the job is going well for you.
April I see what you post here & the other forum. How much more school do you have? When you get married what are you two planning to do? Continue school, missions or move to another country? Wow possibilities.




Jeshu I think that would be a good thing to have knowledgable information given by the church on depression & other illnesses. I've had so many people tell me the recipee for receiving healing from Panic disorder is this that or the other. They don't seem to realise that these type of diagnosed disorders are more serious then what other people usually experience.sigh.

Im a SAHM, but I would probably try to work part time if I didn't have so much panic & anxiety. I'm pretty much a socialphobe at this time in my life. Im praying, bcause I've got a family I'm responsible for, but sometimes I just want to pull the covers over my head when I wake up. Sorry ladies...just a little down today.

I think I need a strong cup about now.

 

[Soulwings]

/me makes much coffee and tea for everyone.
I think that everyone could use a strong cuppa, now and again.

Tracey, I'm glad that the assignment you were struggling with is going on a bit better now. Hopefully you've mastered it now - that must be frustrating! I hate struggling with things that have got to be done.

Hehe, I've been enjoying Facebook quite a lot too - been getting in touch with penpals that I had when I was 7-10 years old, also from high school (which I attended for 2 years only, haha). It's quite nice. I like it much better than Myspace.

Mask, please do take care of yourself!! It sounds like you have been extremely busy with leading worship services, and while that's really great that you're so involved with the church, I think I would be afraid of losing sight of the purpose of the worship part of the services. It's hard to keep your eyes on God and what He's done for you, when you're in charge of helping everyone else focus on that. Does that make any sense, or am I just being incoherent?? In any case, know your limits - and I'm sure that your pastor will understand why you can't/couldn't do that - he knows about last year's burnout, right?

How's your family doing? and how was your 4th? (Isn't that Canada Day or something? ) (Or I might be wrong again, who knows )

Gracechick, sounds like you had an okay time out at the fireworks - at least, I hope so!! Anxiety is always hard to contend with, and having to go out in public is hard, especially as a SAHM, I would think, since you wouldn't always be immersed in people. How are you doing today? and how old is your little girl, and what's her name?


I have another 3 years left of college - I'll be a junior this fall, but I switched majors last fall, so I'm basically starting off as a freshman again, but with junior status because of my credit amount. So confusing, hehe. I would love to be out sooner than that and get a start on grad school - which is 4-5 years for my PhD (it's actually called something else for psych but I forget what) - but what will most likely happen is that I'll get married before I graduate from uni, and then go parttime until I do graduate. So potentially it will be more than 3 years left. Oh well.

I guess that kind of answers the question as far as what Jarrod and I will do after getting married. I'll be staying in school most likely, until I'm through with grad school (although I may take a break between college and grad school - depends on funds and all). Then I'll be looking for a job, probably at a college, to be a counselor. Ideally I'd want to have my own practice as a specialist for college age and up for EDs, but that'll come later, perhaps. And perhaps not. Being with a uni has its advantages, that's for sure.

But yes, much to still think about, and most likely much time in which to plan. However, that hasn't stopped me from making wedding plans. ;-) I've currently got more planned out than my friend does - and she's getting married next June. Who knows, I might be as well, but most likely it will be in 2009. We shall see.

Otherwise, things are going okay here. Nothing really exciting. We - parents and I - went for a hike on the 4th at a state park near us. It was cloudy and a bit humid (and buggy!), but the hike was beautiful. I didn't bring my camera though, so missed the pictures of the "hemlock tunnel" and the little narrow path winding away among ferns. Very pretty.

Alright, time for me to be off... I want to get some reading done before it's time to go to my psych appointment this afternoon.

 

[Soulwings]

**bump**

Ba dum chinggg....

 

[Jeshu]

Thanks for the cuppa

It was great catching up with you again!

Bye

 

[Mask]

Hi all!

Well I'm still alive. I still haven't hear a word from the Pastor about the worship thing . I don't understand when people don't at least respond to your e-mail, even to just let you know they received it! Anyway the girl that used to lead worship, did it for the sunday night...so that was good.

My life is extremely boring right now . There's nothing to do here! I need more friends or more money to go out and do things! It's hard to find friends who have kids, your kids' ages so it can be a family thing. I am so totally bored . I can't wait til the 25th, when we go camping!!!

April... we had Canada Day on the 1st. We had church that day and then had to drive up to my mother-in-laws to visit my sister-in-law and her family who were home on vacation. We left in time to get back home to watch the fireworks.

Doesn't sound like people have much to say these days either.

Sorry I missed your birthday Tracey! Happy belated birthday!! Did you do anything fun to celebrate?

Well gotta go now...it's 12:30 and I'm still in my p.j.s !! I guess I should get showered and go to town to get some groceries...woo hoo...oh the excitement of it all .

 

[nvrbnunloved]

Hi all Mind if I come on in here? Been struggling a bit recently, and pretty down today, so thought I'd finally bite the bullet and have a mosey on down to this forum. Don't know what else to say now....LOL. Looking forward to getting to know you all

God bless

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hi everyone,

Welcome Nvrbnunloved, I hope we can give you the support that you need. Its always nice to see a new face.

Gracechick - are you getting any help for your anxiety?

April - thanks for the coffee, I definitely need some.
How are the wedding plans going? Will you show us a picture of your dress that you want if you've found something? How is the summer going?

Jeshu - hi, how are you doing?

Mask - I hope you find some things to do that will make your life more interesting. Are there any things that you can do that don't cost money and where you can meet people like volunteering at a charity shop or going on walks around nature parks? You haven't missed my birthday, its tomorrw, thanks for the wishes.

I'm doing well, I have to go to the doctor later to get a new prescription for my medication, its working fine for the depression but not so well for the anxiety so I'm interested to see if he will change my meds or the dosage. Its a different doctor to the one who gave me the prescription originally so I'll see what he says. I think I may have a stomach ulcer so I'll see what he says on that too.
Other then that, studying's going okay. I've got a couple of overdue assignments that I have to get done over the weekend so I won't be resting over the weekend.

I think that's all my news, I hope everybody is doing well.

 

[Soulwings]

Hello everyone!

/me makes much coffee and ginger tea.

Mask, sounds like Canada Day was enjoyable, even though I got the date wrong. Fireworks are always lovely, although my parents and I didn't go see them this year as it was rather damp and miserable outside. I hope the weather was more cooperative for you!

It's hard finding things to do when there aren't many people around to do stuff with. What about reading? I remember you saying something before about you not having read a fun book in quite awhile - why not take advantage of the extra time that you have to catch up on your reading list? ;-) (Sorry, I love reading and I can't help but promote it... ) And Tracey had a good idea about volunteering; there's always places that could use volunteers.

Just curious, how far is it from where you live to the bridge to N.B.?

Tracey, happy birthday! I hope that you have a wonderful one. Any particular plans for it?? And what meds are you on? It's hard to get a cocktail of them that work for all the symptoms that you've got; hopefully the dr. will be helpful.

Nvrbnunloved, welcome to the forum and to this thread! I'm April.


I'm doing alright I suppose. Not much new really. Wedding plans haven't gone on much further - they can't really until I've got a date for the wedding. Oh well. And yep, I have picked out a dress that I love, and will post the link once I get home (I have it stored in my favorites there, and am too lazy to dig it up out of the site right now, hehe).

I got to chat with Jarrod last night - that was tres nice. I miss him. Two more months, though... just two. Seems like ages but it's really not, I guess - although it IS hard to believe that classes start back up in a month and a half!!

Tutoring on campus has been quiet. In fact, very quiet - no one has come yet. Oh well. I get to enjoy the time by reading and journaling - but mostly reading.


*snuggles for all*