- Oct 9, 2019
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I think the important thing is not to overwhelm yourself. The memory is fading for me, but I remember being 'new' and having so many questions and feeling I needed to cover so much, and it all seemed equally urgent. And when I eventually got myself into a church, there were so many people giving friendly help, offering me books to read and suggesting what I might find useful - I know it was all sincere, but often I'd barely started on one thing before the next advice came along and I started down another path. And that's all ok really.
So I can't tell you what you need to do, but I can tell you a little about how it went for me. I started with reading scripture. Sometimes a lot, sometimes only a few lines. I didn't follow a plan, but often went to what was familiar, re-reading stories I'd heard when I was younger, or follow up on what I heard someone talk about. Eventually I settled down to more focussed reading, but it took time to get there. I don't remember actually praying the first time, but I felt unworthy too, and self-conscious. It took a while for me to realise I didn't need to wait to be worthy or have perfect words, I could simply talk with God, even when I didn't know what to pray for. Now prayer is probably the most important thing to me. Asking someone to pray for you was a great move. You can also ask them to pray while you are with them.
But already I think I'm getting past the place I think you're at just now. I guess what I'd have wanted someone to tell me is that slow and steady does get there. Not to be looking at where I 'should' be, but to address each day looking for where I could get to. You will go faster when you're ready. Questions about baptism or how to deal with others, and so on, can take a lot of time and work. Just letting your mind adjust to your new-found faith, and the effects that has on day-to-day life, may be enough to focus on just now.
May God bless you
So I can't tell you what you need to do, but I can tell you a little about how it went for me. I started with reading scripture. Sometimes a lot, sometimes only a few lines. I didn't follow a plan, but often went to what was familiar, re-reading stories I'd heard when I was younger, or follow up on what I heard someone talk about. Eventually I settled down to more focussed reading, but it took time to get there. I don't remember actually praying the first time, but I felt unworthy too, and self-conscious. It took a while for me to realise I didn't need to wait to be worthy or have perfect words, I could simply talk with God, even when I didn't know what to pray for. Now prayer is probably the most important thing to me. Asking someone to pray for you was a great move. You can also ask them to pray while you are with them.
But already I think I'm getting past the place I think you're at just now. I guess what I'd have wanted someone to tell me is that slow and steady does get there. Not to be looking at where I 'should' be, but to address each day looking for where I could get to. You will go faster when you're ready. Questions about baptism or how to deal with others, and so on, can take a lot of time and work. Just letting your mind adjust to your new-found faith, and the effects that has on day-to-day life, may be enough to focus on just now.
May God bless you
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