I woke up this-morning, bleary-eyed and yawning like Muffin the Mule
> I caught a glimpse in the bathroom mirror over the cheek & with one eye open <
I felt like I hadnt had quite long enough, but anyway, I am awake
and am not going back > pants on shirt on slippers on <
Mary is downstairs cleaning the tops
and then mopped the floors... saying good-morning to one another
as I strolled in and put the kettle on to boil
for a cuppa tea for Mary and a coffee for myself
All this
instead of, heading directly to the back door
with cigarette-papers and my baccy in hand
This morning, it is different,
today, the coffee
and my Adalat 20mg
and Aspirin 75mg, they will come first
and then I will try
to think of other things, like folks here and 'Piper'
a seven years old lady collie
that is coming to stay with us for a week or two
Her owners are going south on holiday
where dogs are not allowed
and for-whom, kennel-costs are prohibitive
and not, like
leaving your pet with someone you know does love them
So every moment I dont spend THINKING
about that USA PRODUCT from 'Virginia'
is how much closer I come > to leaving it alone
I have, cut back to 15 each day [thereabouts]
My 'confidence' though shaky
comes from knowing I have some here
for, whenever I might start feeling queer
and /or,
shakes and trembles start a-happening
but that will be for the best I fear
if, I do not feed this hunger
I can pick up my prescription for Nicotine Patches
in a couple of hours
and they will be of help
and the FREE Nicotinell Chewing Gum will doubtless be a boon
and help to tide me over, so I can give up soon
Good morning all
Here I go again.... and ALWAYS seriously
but this time there will be no going back
I would like very much to quit...
but as I type this,
the skin on my face is already beginning to thrill
Mary is making me a boiled egg sandwich
'something different' for breakfast
We had homemade Apple Crumble last night [takes bow]
with Vanilla Icecream over it MMMMMMMMMMMhhhhh!!
and before that, we had Beef Risotto, for lunch
which was my very first attempt
to make and eat that meal, > it was very tasty
I want my body, to experience 'different things'
to try to camouflage
it's removal from something that is BAD for it
dave