changes in life

[looksgood]

Well here I sit listening to music and thinking about all I have behind me. I have seen many hard times, few good, and pleanty of struggles. Tonight though I feel as though there is something new in front of me and nothing binds me. What I mean is that for the first time in my life I see that I am free to lead my own life. It seems a little strange and scary.

In the past I have been bound to my family. I served them all these years and kept them safe. That was really my whole life. Just to support them. So I haven't a clue what I should do. I see a chance now to build my own life in whatever way I see fit.

You see now my brother is working and supporting my family. I have supported him along with them for a good long time. So finaly I am going to step back and let him take the load up that he actualy built for himeslf. Much of the debt we have been in is due to his actions.

I have payed for everyones mistakes. I payed over $2,000 on him in just legal fees....but thats enough about that.

The point of this is that I am now free. And I dont know what to do. Nothing is tieing me down. It feels strange. I dont know what kinda future to make.

 

[ydouxist]

Hi Bud. Remember me?

I would highly recommend take a few days off,
check into a hotel somewhere and go on a fast.
No food, TV, no phone. Just focus on the Lord.
Maybe a weekend? I know God will give you direction.
At first you may think nothing is happenning but it is.
You'll look back on that time and give a testimony
on it.

 

[IKTCA]

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[Pastor_Benjamin]

When you are tired God gives you rest. You have been a crutch that holds up the family now you have been relieve continue to put God first and he will guide you.