Celibacy & Fear

[Antari]

I don't want to go into much detail, which is unusual for me, but I'm hurting very badly at this time...

After being rejected many times, insulted, shunned (Such as having a girl say "we need one more guy over here" while I'm standing right there...), and patronized by girls (not to mention guys) all my life, and being put into deep depression due to this, God spoke to me at camp. He pretty much forbid me to date or get married unless I were to overcome this "need" for a girl, this false need and my depression due to it. I struggled for a week with following Him since all I ever wanted to do in this life, no money, no big house, no possessions, nothing, all I wanted to do was get married... so my permanent/temporary celibacy was decided on at the end of that week. I was doing great for two weeks, but then on Sunday, I grew jealous because of all the attention a friend of mine got, and that night while the guys and I stayed over at the youth pastor's house, I stayed out in the laundry room and talked with God. He told me the same things again, but added this time that if I have such strong desire for a wife, how will I know if it is He who speaks, or my desire, when the one He has chosen comes?

I need prayer, badly. I'm afraid my old depression will come back and I'll be unable to live happily. Please pray that I completely understand that the love of a woman is not a requirement to live, nor is it needed to be happy. Let me see that living this life devoted to Him brings more comfort than any woman could, and please pray that I don't get depressed and withdrawn because of recent events, please... I just want to give up this last earthly desire and instead accept what He blesses me with, and know that what He doesn't bless me with, I don't need, even if it is a wife. I know what is right, and what is a lie, but I need that other half of me to die again so I can believe the truth instead of the lie... I need the weight put on the other side of the scale so that I may rise again.

 

[Truth and Reconciliation]

Father, bless my brother Antari so that he may see your will more clearly. I pray that your will for his life will be manifested in time. I lift him up to you, Father. Bless him and hold him. Amen.

 

[G-Skillet]

Lord God, I pray for peace in Antari's life. I pray that he would have the strength to walk this earth with You and continue to seek Your will through prayer. I pray that You would hear his words and comfort Him in ways which are only known to you Lord. I pray Lord that you would be a source overwhelming joy, not the temporary happiness this earth can provide, so that Antari would feel your prescence always, in good times and in bad, through Christ our Lord, Amen

 

[tapero]

Dear Father In Heaven,

I pray for Antari also that he would know your will for his life. Please lift his spirits and give him good friends that love and support him in his walk with you and in his life. He has chosen the narrow path that leads to life and I pray your blessings on him Lord. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

 

[Linus]

Dear Father, strengthened our brother in the name of Jesus Christ.

 

[Snow Angel]

For you:In Jesus Name:

 

[silentpoet]

You don't have to be happy in life. You just have to follow God's will. Think of Jerimiah, he was known as the weeping prophet. Not to say you should be unhappy, just pointing out a third option. I do pray you can know some measure of hapiness my friend. I would not wish a sad path on any one, but God's will is not always easy. And sometimes it does hurts more than we can bare. But God will see you through, even if you don't think so.

 

[lady_of_god]

Hello Antari,

I think that one of the most valuable things to learn is accept God's Will and remember that in doing so you will not be unhappy.

The Lord has the best plans for your life (even when we don't think so), He is not going to see His child moping and sad. His plans for your life will have you living it to the fullest potential, and I can guarentee you that when its God plans for us, we are truly blessed & joyful.

Your very young, so at the moment the Lord just may want for you to focus on a trusting and faithful relationship with Him, and not the girls from your school and/or church. Later on down the road (seeing as the Lord already knows the desires of your heart), by obeying what the Spirit has told you to do, He may bless you with a woman who is to be your wife and true soulmate.

Don't fear, but rather have faith that in obeying you will come blessed more than ever imagine.

I am praying for you

 

[angelwind]

I don't want to go into much detail, which is unusual for me, but I'm hurting very badly at this time...

After being rejected many times, insulted, shunned (Such as having a girl say "we need one more guy over here" while I'm standing right there...), and patronized by girls (not to mention guys) all my life, and being put into deep depression due to this, God spoke to me at camp. He pretty much forbid me to date or get married unless I were to overcome this "need" for a girl, this false need and my depression due to it. I struggled for a week with following Him since all I ever wanted to do in this life, no money, no big house, no possessions, nothing, all I wanted to do was get married... so my permanent/temporary celibacy was decided on at the end of that week. I was doing great for two weeks, but then on Sunday, I grew jealous because of all the attention a friend of mine got, and that night while the guys and I stayed over at the youth pastor's house, I stayed out in the laundry room and talked with God. He told me the same things again, but added this time that if I have such strong desire for a wife, how will I know if it is He who speaks, or my desire, when the one He has chosen comes?

I need prayer, badly. I'm afraid my old depression will come back and I'll be unable to live happily. Please pray that I completely understand that the love of a woman is not a requirement to live, nor is it needed to be happy. Let me see that living this life devoted to Him brings more comfort than any woman could, and please pray that I don't get depressed and withdrawn because of recent events, please... I just want to give up this last earthly desire and instead accept what He blesses me with, and know that what He doesn't bless me with, I don't need, even if it is a wife. I know what is right, and what is a lie, but I need that other half of me to die again so I can believe the truth instead of the lie... I need the weight put on the other side of the scale so that I may rise again.

I think you have an amazing relationship with the Lord already. You are going to Him in prayer and you are hearing Him speak to you. I have had to wait a life time to know and enjoy Him like that.

There is so much time to wait since you are young...and our culture pushes the young too much...into relationships they are not ready for.

I pray that you will not be depressed, but that you will continue to find the word of the Lord and eat it and it will become the joy and rejoicing of your heart.

I pray that the Lord will provide a helpmeet for you at the right time...one who will walk alonside you in the will of the Lord.

I pray, now that He will provide a support to you and your faith and gifts in His calling on your life...so you will become firly establishe in His love and truth.

 

[Faithful Servant]

Wow! you really spoke from your heart. I believe that God has heard you cry out to him. He loves you and has good plans for your life. Psalms 139:17 - How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Please keep me posted on how God is going to complete the good work he began in you! barbara

 

[devoted daughter]

May the Lord be with you and give you protection from harsh words; may you be lifted from the pain of insensitive words, and have continued patience and strength; may you be guided by the Lord, and know His path for you; may you be lifted from depression and know that the Lord has a plan for you; may people be guided to your path for support and kind and rewarding fellowship; as you await His answers, may you find joy in some solitude, and take this opportunity to grow, come to know yourself better, and receive empowerment in your individuality as a “whole’ person, and know that your efforts will prepare you to be a better partner to another one day. INJC