AnomalousSilence said:
For him in a way that is more pleasing to us.... though I guess that isn't entirely what God would want... but it's hard for me to stay awake in "formal" and "boring" sermons and song. I don't feel the spirit unless I sing vibrantly and clap, etc. with a shouting preacher.
Please understand that what I am about to share, I learned the hard way . . . as I said above, been there, done that . . .
The Holy Spirit is GOD Himself. One does not muster up God. He is not at our beck and call . . .
We do not sing or clap or shout until we "feel" the spirit . . that is not God's way.
I am going to be very honest with you . . I want you to resist the urge to toss aside what I am about to say . . for it is, indeed, the truth.
What you are doing when you spend so much time in singing, clapping, shouting, and especially when the singing involves repetitive choruses, over and over and over again, is simply this . .
You are inducing an altered state of consciousness. Nothing more.
This altered state of conscousness makes one highly suggestable and what messages are given go deep into your subconcious with great force, so you are probably feeling a great deal of resistance to my words right now.
That is not the Holy Spirit putting up red flags . . that is what was introduced into your subconscious under such highly suggestable states.
My sister tried to tell me this years ago . . I didn't believe her either . . it wasn't until God brought me out of a congregation which employed music like this, and on my journey into the Catholic Church (which lasted 3 years) I discovered the truth of this. Did they do this understanding what they were doing? Absolutely not. I knew the pastor and his family well. They were the most wonderful people. But this was happening none-the-less.
In such a highly suggestable state, one 'feels' the spirit. But this simply confuses things, and it can become impossible to distinguish between the real and the manipulated expereinces.
That feeling you are wanting, is not what God wants you to be seeking. He wants you to grow in spiritual maturity, and to do this there is only one way .. to deny self, take up one's cross, and follow Him.
Holding onto, and desiring such emotional experiences will only hold us back in our growth into spritual maturity.
Feelings, and desiring experiences of the spirit, are never supposed to be our guide in the Christian life . . . in fact, the great saints of old learned to greatly distrust the seeking and desiring of such experiences.
I hope that what I shared above will be helpful to you.
Peace