cant stop thinking about it!!!!

[evenangelsfall]

I was getting soo much better and have been going 2 to 3 weeks and even a month between cutting but recently its all i can think about i just want to die
and dont see any reason not to do die when i get in those states,
iv had one massive panic attack and 2 breakdowns recently but am realy trying to not harm because there are good stuff happening atm
as wel as bad so trying to focus on that but all i can think about is cutting and my thoughts are getting much more irational and as i hurt myself last night all i wanna do is grab a razer and do it againand again i dont think il be able to stop myself this time please help me i dont know what to do

 

[ReversedFailure]

I was getting soo much better and have been going 2 to 3 weeks and even a month between cutting but recently its all i can think about i just want to die
and dont see any reason not to do die when i get in those states,
iv had one massive panic attack and 2 breakdowns recently but am realy trying to not harm because there are good stuff happening atm
as wel as bad so trying to focus on that but all i can think about is cutting and my thoughts are getting much more irational and as i hurt myself last night all i wanna do is grab a razer and do it againand again i dont think il be able to stop myself this time please help me i dont know what to do

next time you feel like cutting, ask for help first, call a friend or go visit some one, you don't have to get through this on your own. also try going on a run instead of cutting, sounds werid, but you get the same endorfyns ( lol, I know I can't spell) from running that you do for cutting

I'm praying for you

 

[flying_kiwifruit]

hang in there the fact that you have told us that you can make it a month without cutting proves your strong already. And you know you can make it through this too. You've just got believe you can, once you believe that things will be easier, to handle. Is there anyone in real life that you could talk to about this.
If you ever want to talk my PM is open, you can make it through this.