Can't believe this...

[Jules4JC]

Hi, I'm new to this board, but I'm needing some encouragement. I suffered from severe depression and self-injury for a 3-year period that ended with me accepting Christ. That was 2+ years ago and I have been depression-free ever since. Lately though, it has resurfaced. Haven't been able to get out of bed, etc. I'm still on meds (maybe not working anymore?)- Effexor and Lamictal.

I'm just in shock that I've relapsed. I thought I had beaten depression through meds, therapy and most of all Christ. I'm wondering why I feel so alone if Jesus is supposed to be here with me. I keep reading the encouraging verses, but they're not getting through.

Any other relapsers out there?

 

[livingword26]

He is there with you no matter what. I also have spent many years on different kinds of medication for depression. Slowly the medicines stopped working and I have come to the place where I don't really have anything to fight it with. He has lead me down paths that I didn't think I would ever be able to go down. No matter what happens, don't give up on Him. He will never leave you or forsake you. Seek Him. Ask Him to show you what is going on. Ask Him if there is something you need to do, or need to stop doing. Keep praying and waiting patiently. He is there.

2 Cor 4:7-5:1
7 But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.
8 We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;
9 Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;
10 Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body.
11 For we which live are alway delivered unto death for Jesus' sake, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our mortal flesh.
12 So then death worketh in us, but life in you.
13 We having the same spirit of faith, according as it is written, I believed, and therefore have I spoken; we also believe, and therefore speak;
14 Knowing that he which raised up the Lord Jesus shall raise up us also by Jesus, and shall present us with you.
15 For all things are for your sakes, that the abundant grace might through the thanksgiving of many redound to the glory of God.
16 For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day.
17 For our light affliction , which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory;
18 While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.
KJV

 

[4givn2giv4him]

Hmm God just really hit me with something I should tell you.

I keep reading the encouraging verses, but they're not getting through.

It is time to speak it out. When scripture is not getting in, you need to let what is already in, out. Even if you don't feel it, start saying it.

"This is NOT a relapse.
God has come into my life and He has defeated depression.
He took it on that cross. He had victory.
I am not going to relapse, I refuse to think that particular thought.
I will walk in light. I will not sink into the darkness.
I will hold onto the hope. I will not be pulled down.
I will overcome, God makes me strong.
I have a new life now, and devil you might try to make me think I have relapsed but that is a lie and I am living a new life now.
The Bible says the devil has come to kill, steal and destroy.
But I know the truth.
God is stronger, He that is in me is stronger than he that is in the world" etc etc etc.

Quote everything you know about God, everything you've heard. Just let out what is inside.

You will be surprised what God can do with your spoken word. Please trust me. This might sound like really strange advice, but I really do believe that this could help. Speak with faith!!

I'm praying for you!

 

[4givn2giv4him]

I also want to say one other thing.

You overcame depression when you gave your heart to God right? Well, do not feel like you have somehow failed now that you are feeling it again. You are not a failure. Do not lose heart. You have already overcome depression once. Which means you can do it again. Or rather, GOD can come through for you again! You have been through some hard stuff in the past, but that is a testimony for you to remember. God helped you before, and he will help you again.

Don't give up! Don't lose sight of how well you've done, how far you've come! You are a different, stronger person now, than you were a few years ago. You can get through this!! You have God now and there's nothing he can't do!

 

[Jules4JC]

Thanks for the messages and prayers. I'm still struggling but stable.

 

[ArmouredSaint]

When you say stable I worry. That can change in an instant. I am praying.