- Aug 2, 2022
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Recently I experienced a period of great consolation. After having considered my experience objectively (and under the guidance of my spiritual director), I have valid reason to believe that this was the work of the Holy Spirit, although I am not sure what to call it if that makes sense? Anointing? Baptism of the Holy Spirit? The fact that this was consolation was also confirmed by members of this forum. At a particular moment during this time of consolation, I experienced a vision that I believe was from the Holy Spirit. Since this occurrence happens very seldom to me, I have no reason to believe that I am schizophrenic or hallucinating, etc. I would prefer to keep the particular content of the vision to myself, but I believe it might or might not be a private revelation of the future. However, I am not 100% sure. I think that it would perhaps be very beneficial for me, if someone could interpret the vision for me (e.g. like Joseph did for pharaoh in Genesis). I have prayed for wisdom but I am none the wiser in this matter. Who should I turn to for interpretation of (what I believe to be) personal private revelation? A priest told me about the Carmelites for these sort of experiences? Truth be told, even though this vision filled me with awe and joy, I am slightly concerned (I will explain why here). After I had this vision, things sort of went back to normal in my life. Since I was filled with expectation about this experience being the precedent to a great personal breakthrough, I was disappointed when I saw that nothing had changed in my life. As such, to express my disappointment, I relapsed into old patterns of sin and sensuality. Now I am worried that the anointing over my life has been taken away from me, because of the fact that I chose to indulge in sensuality and sin after having an experience like this, if you know what I mean? Do I have reason to be worried? Or should I just carry on as usual? Have a blessed day and thank you for reading this far.