Can someone help?

[tyield1102]

Hello,

First off I would like to say that I accepted Jesus into my life in 2007 and it was a true conversion. I started changing from the inside out by the power of the Holy Spirit working in my life. Now I do have OCD, depression, and anxiety and that has caused me a great deal of trouble in the past. The thing is though I started kinda slipping away from God. I stopped going to church as much and didn't even realize what I was doing at the time. For the past few months I have been going through something and have no idea what is going on. My mind is filled with nothing but confusion it seems. I have been having horrible thoughts against God and sometimes it drives me into constant anxiety. My husband has been prompted to pray for me on two occasions in which immediately afterwards I was calmed down. I feel that I am so far away from God and that my attitude and life are quickly slipping into one of whom is not saved. All day today I have been going through periods of intense longing for God. Wanting to be with Him and worship Him and serve Him for the rest of my life and it is my desire and I like that desire very much. I want that desire, but then I will have thoughts of disrespecting God and not caring about Him whatsoever and not caring about judgement from Him and it seems like I like having those thoughts and feelings, but they do not bring me joy or real happiness like the longing for God does. I just don't know what is from me. Where is my heart really? Is it turned from God? I fear that I am someone who is on the path to hell and not even realizing it and having a false hope and peace. I just need help. I need prayers especially if this is from my heart can you please help to pray that God will change my heart back to Him and restore me? I am really at a loss here. Sorry that this is so long I just need insight. Thank you

 

[aflower4God]

((((((((((((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))))))))))))))) sweet loving sister. BEEN THERE. I will openly say this that back in the spring of 2008 I lusted badly over a married man and the cloud between me and God was HORRIBLE and like you have said IT HURT DEEPLY and made me anxious as well, it felt as I was missing a vital organ in my body or something. KEEP ON PRAYING I KNOW God is calling your heart. TRUST ME, I heard God calling my heart, it took a while but I got back on track, I KNOW that you will keep on reaching for him, HE IS THERE! I promise my dear sweet loving sister.
GOD BLESS YOU AND KNOW that I am praying for you ((((((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))))))

 

[Winter]

The problem with us humans is that we are sinful by nature and we will stumble, fall, and sin. Until the day we die this will be a reality. The fact that you care about your attitude towards God means that the Holy Spirit lives within you. The Holy Spirit will not cure us, but it will guide us. And yes, we will fall. But we will also excel. You have also forgotten that the Lord forgives us when we fall. The important thing is that we get right back up - no matter how many times - and start all over again. Each day is an opportunity for us to grow in the Lord. And sometimes - our world needs to fall apart a little bit before we can rebuild again.

I hope that helps. Do not be afraid because fear will only cause you to pull away from the Lord without even realizing it. Be conscientous, be repentant, but don't be afraid. The devil wants people to give up. Instead - never give up. Get right back up on your feet and start again - no matter how many times it happens.

God bless. Praying for you ....

 

[Criada]

Sweetie, if you were lost you wouldn't have those times of longing for God - that is the Holy Spirit drawing your spirit to Him.
Can I suggest theat you read Romans chapter 7 from verse 14 onward, and then all of chapter 8. Paul is saying very similar things to you in chapter 7, but chapter 8 gives the answers, and the certainty of God's love, and power.

Praying for you, sweetie

 

[LifebyChrist]

Matthew 6:27 "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."

"My mind is filled with nothing but confusion it seems. I have been having horrible thoughts against God and sometimes it drives me into constant anxiety."

1 Corinthians 14:33 "for God is not a God of confusion but of peace, as in all the churches of the saints."

Also it can be very hard but keep trying to go to Church and reading the Bible daily this can help with slipping and try to get one verse and learn from it. This really helps me.