Does anyone remembers the day he accepted Jesus? Because I don't. I know I was 13. I know why I approached God. I was lonely and sad because I wasn't popular enough and my friends were avoiding me for no apparent reason. I gave my life to Jesus but as I abandoned myself to Jesus and felt joy right after I couldn't help myself but to feel sorrow for those that will go to hell and my immediate concern for other people's souls kinda overshadowed my joy of being saved. I lost my way like one year after. I wasn't a good student, a good athlete and a good christian. That joy has unfortunately needed several reboots along the years. I believe God renews our joy when we let Him, and accepting Jesus won't erase pain, nor guarantee a constant state of euphorical joy. I also don't believe that once saved always saved is accurate. I have been getting in trouble with people and with my own family that is also christian. I've made them sad for the most part. I've made massive tantrums and under my flesh I have disrespected my mother , father and brother after being saved. To realize that makes me extremely uncomfortable with myself. My brother acts as a stumbling block but I've been a stumbling stone too to my mother and father. I've hit my brother, i've pushed physically my dad and mother in my anger outbursts. In the meantime, I don't have the same concern for people's souls as I once had. Which is what I'm striving to get back even if it can make me lose sleep. Even tho, I did so much wrong I feel sorrow for it and I know it's not what I'm called to do.
To be honest. I think that once you have been touched by God's spirit and you accept Jesus into your heart you won't be able to see things on another perspective even if you run away, even if you sin, even if you get angry His grace always brings you back. There is a concern , something worrying you deep inside. I understand my sinful nature now more than ever. I was 13 but I didn't totally understood how bad I was back then. I've been to extreme pentecostal events and I feel that I belong to Him even if I know I don't deserve that level of love.
Someone that once "accepted Jesus" and goes back to the world and never feels a deep sorrow for his/her actions was never saved in my opinion.
Can salvation be lost? ITS DEBATE TIME!!!
To be honest. I think that once you have been touched by God's spirit and you accept Jesus into your heart you won't be able to see things on another perspective even if you run away, even if you sin, even if you get angry His grace always brings you back. There is a concern , something worrying you deep inside. I understand my sinful nature now more than ever. I was 13 but I didn't totally understood how bad I was back then. I've been to extreme pentecostal events and I feel that I belong to Him even if I know I don't deserve that level of love.
Someone that once "accepted Jesus" and goes back to the world and never feels a deep sorrow for his/her actions was never saved in my opinion.
Can salvation be lost? ITS DEBATE TIME!!!