Hello all,
I know I may seem childish, but at times I purposely try to irritated God, most likely out of boredom. I don't know what God must think of me, but sometimes I can be a little crazy. At times I would constantly ask God for the same thing although the answer may be no. When I pray for something that I want, I will constantly bring it up to see if I can get him to change his mind, even though I know he will always win, I see it as a challenge. It's mostly about healing so I'm not asking him for something that would cause me to sin or something that he wouldn't want me to ask for.
Another problem I have is that I want to get closer to God, but I'm struggling with some mental issues. God has taking me from some low places so I am still dealing with the aftermath of these issues. Nevertheless, I have seen a very big progress both spiritualy and physicaly and I know God is fixing me. I have been reading the scripture, but I feel like I am not going deep enough. I also try to pray for at least two hours a day, but after 45 minutes of praying I run out of things to say. I also wanted to fast, but my stomach says otherwise. Ironically, when I don't have any appetite, I don't fast. I also deal with anger issues and idleness, which I need to be delivered from.
Well, I know this topic maybe useless, but am I the only one that have purposely tried to annoy or irritate God? I don't really think I've succeded though, but can God eventually become angry or do you think he does not mind? I have to admit that I smile when I think about how annoying I can be. But I don't make a habit of it, I can also be serious and not give God the attention he deserves.
The reason I'm writing this is because I used to have this lay back attitude when it comes to seeking God. Like I had no problems with not hearing or feeling the presence of God because my faith would be strong and I always knew he was there more so when I don't have the evidence. Now, I recently felt insecure, like God has been quiet recently, although it's not the first time, I am a little worried. Sorry I type so much. Lastly, I love God and can't wait to hear from him. Sorry you had to hear my ranting, but this may be some form of therapy for me. Well I have to go and God Bless.
Jesus Christ is my Savior
I know I may seem childish, but at times I purposely try to irritated God, most likely out of boredom. I don't know what God must think of me, but sometimes I can be a little crazy. At times I would constantly ask God for the same thing although the answer may be no. When I pray for something that I want, I will constantly bring it up to see if I can get him to change his mind, even though I know he will always win, I see it as a challenge. It's mostly about healing so I'm not asking him for something that would cause me to sin or something that he wouldn't want me to ask for.
Another problem I have is that I want to get closer to God, but I'm struggling with some mental issues. God has taking me from some low places so I am still dealing with the aftermath of these issues. Nevertheless, I have seen a very big progress both spiritualy and physicaly and I know God is fixing me. I have been reading the scripture, but I feel like I am not going deep enough. I also try to pray for at least two hours a day, but after 45 minutes of praying I run out of things to say. I also wanted to fast, but my stomach says otherwise. Ironically, when I don't have any appetite, I don't fast. I also deal with anger issues and idleness, which I need to be delivered from.
Well, I know this topic maybe useless, but am I the only one that have purposely tried to annoy or irritate God? I don't really think I've succeded though, but can God eventually become angry or do you think he does not mind? I have to admit that I smile when I think about how annoying I can be. But I don't make a habit of it, I can also be serious and not give God the attention he deserves.
The reason I'm writing this is because I used to have this lay back attitude when it comes to seeking God. Like I had no problems with not hearing or feeling the presence of God because my faith would be strong and I always knew he was there more so when I don't have the evidence. Now, I recently felt insecure, like God has been quiet recently, although it's not the first time, I am a little worried. Sorry I type so much. Lastly, I love God and can't wait to hear from him. Sorry you had to hear my ranting, but this may be some form of therapy for me. Well I have to go and God Bless.
Jesus Christ is my Savior