BPD fellowship thread

[Soulwings]

/me nibbles at some pretzels

Ive got that empty feeling tonight.
Also feeling like ... nothing matters.
Gahh.

 

[Theresasjourney]

Sorry about not being here much the last couple of days~~lots going on in life~~and I run two forums and mod another.
I got some BPD stuff going on but at the moment can't pinpoint it to process it.~~;o/
How does everyone do at socializing?

 

[goldenviolet]

socializing online is ok, but outside of church fellowship/ community out reach activities, i'm soooo incredibly shy.
*brings out party toys*

 

[AnointedPoetess]

I'm shy and withdrawn for the most part and i try to socalize but it creates more anxiety and discomfort.

 

[Soulwings]

I can fake self confidence if Im really nervous, but actually Im quite anxious in social situations. Im only outgoing if a) Im caffeinated and with friends or b) I know most of the people. Im okay generally if Im with people Ive known for awhile, or if theyre younger than I am.

/me brings in some homemade bread and jam and tea.

 

[Theresasjourney]

Sure got quiet around here~~

 

[Soulwings]

Yes, it did get quiet. *ponders*
How is everyone?

 

[Theresasjourney]

Yes, it did get quiet. *ponders*
How is everyone?

I'm doing great~`keeping busy. Spring has sprung weather wise and I love being outside!
TY for asking.

 

[AnointedPoetess]

I love the weather as well, its soooooo warm and sunny, yay!!!

 

[Soulwings]

The weather being lovely does make things much better, in my mind. It's been warm and sunny here; today it was up around 70, even though it's clouding over. I love the springyness... even though our winter has been super wimpy, I'm ready for summer.

 

[Theresasjourney]

I am having parenting issues with my 38 yr old daughter~`I get so sick of having a MI and people not getting it and wanting more from me then I can give!!
they don't seem to get it that I would if I could! its making my brain go all crazy!! and I am so tired!

 

[observingoutcast]

I can fake self confidence if Im really nervous, but actually Im quite anxious in social situations. Im only outgoing if a) Im caffeinated and with friends or b) I know most of the people. Im okay generally if Im with people Ive known for awhile, or if theyre younger than I am.

/me brings in some homemade bread and jam and tea.

socializing... i hate it... in the beginning all is ok. friendly, sociable. btu after a while all comes fallign down. people leave. or i leave them. it's like once i see peopel who i connect with better at one moment i often forget about the previous people... anyone ever feel that way?


by the way.. im new here.. so hi... how are you all?

 

[Theresasjourney]

socializing... i hate it... in the beginning all is ok. friendly, sociable. btu after a while all comes fallign down. people leave. or i leave them. it's like once i see peopel who i connect with better at one moment i often forget about the previous people... anyone ever feel that way?


by the way.. im new here.. so hi... how are you all?

Well once I feel totally comfortable with people I don't mind socializing~~
some socializing I wear the preverbial mask and leave as soon as I can.
I never connect b/c life proves people will leave you or you leave them 99.9% of the time. We are a very mobile society and a busy one.
As long as I can have a reasonable relationship with no expectations on either parties part~~then I just try and enjoy it while it lasts and if it ends~~it ends.
I have two people in life who accepts me for the real me that I can be real with~~and that is an awesome gift.

 

[Soulwings]

Greetings and welcome to observingoutcast

I agree, Theresa ... having people who accept me as ME is wonderful.

 

[Daysoni]

I don't socialize to well. And when I have to it physically and mentally wears me out. I can't think or concentrate. Then i can cry and sleep for a long time.

 

[goldenviolet]

i think you do great daysoni. for the struggles you exspress, man girl, you are brave and strong. more so than you feel.

 

[Daysoni]

i think you do great daysoni. for the struggles you exspress, man girl, you are brave and strong. more so than you feel.

Thank you to my GoldenViolet

 

[AnointedPoetess]

Hey guys, how is every1 doing with thier BPD??

 

[Theresasjourney]

Hey guys, how is every1 doing with thier BPD??

I'm feeling really disconnected and shut down from life and online things~~its the pits!!

 

[Daysoni]

I'm feeling really disconnected and shut down from life and online things~~its the pits!!

Therasasjourney, I'm feeling the same way. Sometimes it takes all I have to step out side and to go to work. I must tell you that you have a twin on the Oregon Coast. I saw your profile picture a while back and in just the last week I have seen someone that looks so much like you. Hugs and Prayers Daysoni