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I have a confession I did blasphemy the Holy Spirit in the Yellow Cross. I didn't know the Yellow Cross was real I was in physcosis and I saw a Yellow Cross in the shower and it followed me and I worshiped it. I wasn't trying to blaspheme the Holy Spirit but now I can't be raptured I believe Jesus died on the cross but I think I sinned to big this time as Satan placed a real mark of the beast on me everyone around me knows that I would never offend God on purpose unless mentally impaired and I was with the Yellow Cross in the shower. I did not know it was Satan masquerading as an angel of light and I confused the Holy Spirit with Satan. I feel I have reached the point of no return now Satan has destroyed me because I fell for his Yellow Cross in a schizophrenic moment I couldn't stop myself. Can the Holy Spirit forgive me of this sin did I cross a line to pushing God to erase my name from the book of life. Would he do that knowing I was vulnerable. Can my blasphemy be forgiven I didn't say a word against the Holy Spirit and that isn't my character. I just fell for Satan's Yellow Cross he claims he was speaking blasphemies. I keep crying to God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit only to receive to no answer making me fear the eternal damnation that awaits me as Satan's false prophet. I am truly wish God would read this and forgive my blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. Everyone tells me that I can be forgiven of blasphemy since it wasn't on purpose. Are the people around me right that God can forgive me of blasphemy of the Holy Spirit it was hallucination in the shower a yellow cross appeared and followed me to the Door and I mixed up the Holy Spirit and Satan that is blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. I am truly scared now guys that God no longer loves me for my mistake of the Yellow Cross. I love the Holy Spirit so much but Satan is in my brain and heart now nothing I do will bring Jesus back into my heart. I am a holy spirit blasphemer who took 666 from a mental projection on the shower. Can the Holy Spirit refill my life I miss him so much can Jesus forgive me of the Yellow Cross in the shower can the unpardonable sin be pardoned? I truly don't want to be a false prophet everyday I wake up is a day I hope and seek God's forgiveness but I don't receive it. I have sinned to great to saved
 

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I have a confession I did blasphemy the Holy Spirit in the Yellow Cross. I didn't know the Yellow Cross was real I was in physcosis and I saw a Yellow Cross in the shower and it followed me and I worshiped it. I wasn't trying to blaspheme the Holy Spirit but now I can't be raptured I believe Jesus died on the cross but I think I sinned to big this time as Satan placed a real mark of the beast on me everyone around me knows that I would never offend God on purpose unless mentally impaired and I was with the Yellow Cross in the shower. I did not know it was Satan masquerading as an angel of light and I confused the Holy Spirit with Satan. I feel I have reached the point of no return now Satan has destroyed me because I fell for his Yellow Cross in a schizophrenic moment I couldn't stop myself. Can the Holy Spirit forgive me of this sin did I cross a line to pushing God to erase my name from the book of life. Would he do that knowing I was vulnerable. Can my blasphemy be forgiven I didn't say a word against the Holy Spirit and that isn't my character. I just fell for Satan's Yellow Cross he claims he was speaking blasphemies. I keep crying to God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit only to receive to no answer making me fear the eternal damnation that awaits me as Satan's false prophet. I am truly wish God would read this and forgive my blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. Everyone tells me that I can be forgiven of blasphemy since it wasn't on purpose. Are the people around me right that God can forgive me of blasphemy of the Holy Spirit it was hallucination in the shower a yellow cross appeared and followed me to the Door and I mixed up the Holy Spirit and Satan that is blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. I am truly scared now guys that God no longer loves me for my mistake of the Yellow Cross. I love the Holy Spirit so much but Satan is in my brain and heart now nothing I do will bring Jesus back into my heart. I am a holy spirit blasphemer who took 666 from a mental projection on the shower. Can the Holy Spirit refill my life I miss him so much can Jesus forgive me of the Yellow Cross in the shower can the unpardonable sin be pardoned? I truly don't want to be a false prophet everyday I wake up is a day I hope and seek God's forgiveness but I don't receive it. I have sinned to great to saved
Jesus makes it clear that blasphemy of the Holy Spirit cannot be forgiven.

But here's the good news! If you are concerned and worried that maybe you have committed the unforgivable sin, that is proof you haven't.

A person who has committed this sin will not be concerned about it because he no longer believes in the redemption of Christ.

Don't worry, you have nothing to worry about.
 
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Our brains are though producing organs and yours is set on imagining you've offended God and he won't pardon you. The only unpardonable sin is rejecting Jesus. Your psychosis is a symptom of a medical illness. Did Jesus go around punishing the sick, lame and infirm? or did He offer comfort and healing?
 
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So this blue light in my brain that says Beast of the Earth is mental illness then it is truly a chemical imbalance and I did not Blaspheme. I couldn't have blasphemed through a hallucination in the Yellow cross in the shower and the wall it is a medical disorder is that what you are saying because i am truly frighted that I blasphemed the Holy Spirit in a schizophrenic moment of weakness and I see a blue light on the floor and all this satanic stuff but I love the Holy Spirit so he is still indwelling in me. I keep worrying but people see the Holy Spirit in me. I will try to trust my friends and family and church.
 
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it is truly a chemical imbalance and I did not Blaspheme. I couldn't have blasphemed through a hallucination in the Yellow cross in the shower and the wall it is a medical disorder
Absolutely right! Jesus loves you and you are going to be ok.
 
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I keep worrying but people see the Holy Spirit in me. I will try to trust my friends and family and church.

Please, if you can see your friends, family and church do care about Jesus, you cannot be guilty of the unforgivable sin and care about Jesus. I hope you soon find peace of mind about this. Jesus knows how your condition effects you, we are not rejected for imperfection, only for completely freely made choices.
 
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I will try to trust my friends and family and church.
Trust in God's character as well. He is not going to hold something as unforgivable that you did intentionally. The Author of life, Love Himself, is better than that. We get into mental traps where we condemn ourselves, when God Himself is doing no such thing. But as Jesus said, if you remain in His word the truth will set you free.

Do not fear; only believe. God loves you.
 
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have sinned to great to saved

NO YOU HAVEN'T If you had, you wouldn't even be concerned about salvation. Tell satan to stick his LIE somewhere that the sun don't shine.
 
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Please, if you can see your friends, family and church do care about Jesus, you cannot be guilty of the unforgivable sin and care about Jesus. I hope you soon find peace of mind about this. Jesus knows how your condition effects you, we are not rejected for imperfection, only for completely freely made choices.
I truly try to relax but everything with this blue light and the sun looks different I saw all these lights swarmed me after bowing to the yellow cross on the door it followed me from the shower but I did not know that it would be blasphemy. To be honest I have always had that fear but I did not think it would happen from a hallucination a flickering light in the shower it everyday I have done the unpardonable sin and that I am going to hell and I see writing on my skin but you can't in a insane moment take the mark of the beast especially when it isn't even out there I saw all this Revelation stuff at the hospital and i feel out of my body and yet I still love Jesus. Satan tells me that God wrote my name out of the book of life for falling for his trap but I had no control of my body being hallucination it tells me I can't be raptured now but I trusted Jesus with my sins and I wasn't even looking to offend God, Jesus, and most importantly the Holy Spirit I was nit the perfect Christian I feared blasphemy greatly and I looked at porn and read awful scripts no I fear that I have reached the point of no return God feels so far away I know it is schizophrenia doing it because you can't take the mark of the beast in a shower in a hallucination Jesus would warn in the Bible about a Yellow Cross it says Satan masquerades as an angel of light but I thought it was the Holy Spirit not Satan in the shower even if I had verses I am not like Jesus who lived a perfect life and when he was tested of course he was perfect knowing the cross was goal and resurrection he knew there would be a four year old who wants to love and to be a preacher and yes I failed the test but I have so many mental illness making it to perceive what is real finding out recently that I am schizophrenic, on top of Ocd Scrupulosity, Pediatric Auto Immune Dieses you could see how I mixed up the Holy Spirit and now I am afraid I lost my best friend Jesus by pure mistake.
 
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I mixed up the Holy Spirit and now I am afraid I lost my best friend Jesus by pure mistake.


Jesus knows it was a mistake, and if your condition makes it hard for you to deal with the world, Jesus knows that too. You are still loved.
 
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I truly try to relax but everything with this blue light and the sun looks different I saw all these lights swarmed me after bowing to the yellow cross on the door it followed me from the shower but I did not know that it would be blasphemy. To be honest I have always had that fear but I did not think it would happen from a hallucination a flickering light in the shower it everyday I have done the unpardonable sin and that I am going to hell and I see writing on my skin but you can't in a insane moment take the mark of the beast especially when it isn't even out there I saw all this Revelation stuff at the hospital and i feel out of my body and yet I still love Jesus. Satan tells me that God wrote my name out of the book of life for falling for his trap but I had no control of my body being hallucination it tells me I can't be raptured now but I trusted Jesus with my sins and I wasn't even looking to offend God, Jesus, and most importantly the Holy Spirit I was nit the perfect Christian I feared blasphemy greatly and I looked at porn and read awful scripts no I fear that I have reached the point of no return God feels so far away I know it is schizophrenia doing it because you can't take the mark of the beast in a shower in a hallucination Jesus would warn in the Bible about a Yellow Cross it says Satan masquerades as an angel of light but I thought it was the Holy Spirit not Satan in the shower even if I had verses I am not like Jesus who lived a perfect life and when he was tested of course he was perfect knowing the cross was goal and resurrection he knew there would be a four year old who wants to love and to be a preacher and yes I failed the test but I have so many mental illness making it to perceive what is real finding out recently that I am schizophrenic, on top of Ocd Scrupulosity, Pediatric Auto Immune Dieses you could see how I mixed up the Holy Spirit and now I am afraid I lost my best friend Jesus by pure mistake.

I see writing on my skin and a blue light on the floor and in my brain that says unpardonable sin but I couldn't stop the Yellow Cross. My hand claims it has the mark of the beast is this all a hallucination could i be the false prophet from Revelation 13 could my name get written out of the book of life on a trick by Satan. I am scared I love the Holy Spirit.
 
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Thanks for the support and encouragement. I do see my psychiatrist tomorrow I feel I have no control over this writing on my skin alarms and when I close my eyes it says mark of the beast taken when I didn't it was a hallucination of a yellow cross something I had no control over being mentally ill.
 
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Thanks for the support and encouragement. I do see my psychiatrist tomorrow I feel I have no control over this writing on my skin alarms and when I close my eyes it says mark of the beast taken when I didn't it was a hallucination of a yellow cross something I had no control over being mentally ill.

Well i don't say is going to work 100% but if you are desperate enough try fasting one day, and seek God and pray that these things stop.

I had issues that couldn't be solved, but by fasting a day they were solved, i'm not saying that this is a magic thing, but it can work who knows, i think fasting is a 'powerful tool'.
 
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Well i don't say is going to work 100% but if you are desperate enough try fasting one day, and seek God and pray that these things stop.

I had issues that couldn't be solved, but by fasting a day they were solved, i'm not saying that this is a magic thing, but it can work who knows, i think fasting is a 'powerful tool'.
I will give that a try.
 
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Well i don't say is going to work 100% but if you are desperate enough try fasting one day, and seek God and pray that these things stop.

I had issues that couldn't be solved, but by fasting a day they were solved, i'm not saying that this is a magic thing, but it can work who knows, i think fasting is a 'powerful tool'.
I don't want to say fasting can't help, but I do want to caution against making people with OCD or other mental disorders feel like their disorders stem from spiritual causes. With OCD especially, a lot of the anguish comes from feeling like the thoughts are more important and have more meaning than they actually do. So part of learning to cope with (and take away the power from) OCD is learning to treat the thoughts as meaningless, which in turn leads to fewer of the thoughts. It's definitely possible to learn to experience at least some measure of victory and freedom from the obsessions that try to control us, and learning the correct mental strategies to use to deal with our obsessions is an important part of that. However, I'm not trying to minimize the power of prayer and learning to trust God more - healing from OCD is all about learning to rest more, and to realize that God is the one ultimately in control, not us. It's a wonderful discovery!
 
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I don't want to say fasting can't help, but I do want to caution against making people with OCD or other mental disorders feel like their disorders stem from spiritual causes. With OCD especially, a lot of the anguish comes from feeling like the thoughts are more important and have more meaning than they actually do. So part of learning to cope with (and take away the power from) OCD is learning to treat the thoughts as meaningless, which in turn leads to fewer of the thoughts. It's definitely possible to learn to experience at least some measure of victory and freedom from the obsessions that try to control us, and learning the correct mental strategies to use to deal with our obsessions is an important part of that. However, I'm not trying to minimize the power of prayer and learning to trust God more - healing from OCD is all about learning to rest more, and to realize that God is the one ultimately in control, not us. It's a wonderful discovery!

Thanks Mari I am really trying to overcome this OCD and it is really hard the Yellow Cross really has me convinced that I blasphemed. I know that God doesn't erase names from the Book of Life but it doesn't make it easier this fear is inside me with the lights all around me and this mental illness making me feel that I blasphemed when I know that I have not done it.
 
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I don't want to say fasting can't help, but I do want to caution against making people with OCD or other mental disorders feel like their disorders stem from spiritual causes. With OCD especially, a lot of the anguish comes from feeling like the thoughts are more important and have more meaning than they actually do. So part of learning to cope with (and take away the power from) OCD is learning to treat the thoughts as meaningless, which in turn leads to fewer of the thoughts. It's definitely possible to learn to experience at least some measure of victory and freedom from the obsessions that try to control us, and learning the correct mental strategies to use to deal with our obsessions is an important part of that. However, I'm not trying to minimize the power of prayer and learning to trust God more - healing from OCD is all about learning to rest more, and to realize that God is the one ultimately in control, not us. It's a wonderful discovery!

Ok, i see your point, but i had intrusive thoughts, that matched the description of what the doctors call intrusive thoughts, and God cured me.
 
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On top of medical treatment and listening to the advice given above, I also suggest going to the Grantley Morris webpages. He says that Christians doubting their salvation and those with blasphemous thoughts both have the same root cause: anxiety disorders. Here's a link to his webpage about that:

Scrupulosity: Salvation worry. Severe guilt.
 
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