Bipolar with OCD

[dabro]

I ran out of meds for both and I know I'm going into a deep depression. I hear voices and my mood is extremely off. I have nightmares and constant fear of God's Judgment with the OCD. I feel hopeless like there is nothing anyone can do for me. Suicide seems like the only true option out there to get rid of this suffering. IDK why I keep fighting when I could just let go.

 

[SinkingShip]

I have many of the same symptoms as you. I had similar feelings a few weeks back (see my post "Whats the Point?"). Can you call your Dr and get a new perscription faxed to the local pharmacy? Its a fight, every day is a struggle, and you're wondering "Whats the point to enduing all this suffering?" What I can tell you is that the meds will help, even if they need to be changed or the dosage increased. Regardless of how you feel, just remind yourself that there are others in your life who care deeply for you and would be heart-broken if you left them.

One thing my friends (of which I have only 2) have taught me is that they don't care that I'm BP, and that I frequently need their help to get through a week - they still love me and would do anything they could to help me when I'm down. Don't be afraid to tell the people you care about exactly how you feel - you may find they care a lot more for you than you'd expect and would be willing to do whatever they can to help you as well.