Biblical and other support for those Hurting badly!

[Jeshu]

The Lord calls out to all those who love Good Life to BE and Bad Life gone to Hell without us!

Isaiah 55

"Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.
Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.
Give ear and come to me;
hear me, that your soul may live.
I will make an everlasting covenant with you,
my faithful love promised to David.
See, I have made him a witness to the peoples,
a leader and commander of the peoples.


Surely you will summon nations you know not,
and nations that do not know you will hasten to you,
because of the LORD your God,
the Holy One of Israel,
for he has endowed you with splendor."

Seek the LORD while he may be found;
call on him while he is near.
Let the wicked forsake his way
and the evil man his thoughts.
Let him turn to the LORD, and he will have mercy on him,
and to our God, for he will freely pardon.


"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.

"As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,

so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.
Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree,
and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the LORD's renown,
for an everlasting sign,
which will not be destroyed."

 

[Jeshu]

To fear can be a daily for years.

Fear Holds Fast

Fear grabs hold with iron grip
the evil quick confusion sowing
birthing terrorising conditions
harvesting my faithless heart.

My doubt and unbelief peaking
hopes and dreams going up in flames
my goals a catastrophe unfolding
earthquakes shattering my defence.

Feel that loveless grip ramming
cruel enemies rejoicing victory
running through my broken gates
watching the raging fires burning.

A mess in my dwelling place
hair raising shadows casting
fears fuelling my insecurities
shamefully exposing weakness.

My Good life plundering
those torches of darkness
roasting me for dinner
serving the wicked feasting.


Psalm 27

Of David.

The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?

When the wicked advance against me
to devour me,
it is my enemies and my foes
who will stumble and fall.

Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then I will be confident.

One thing I ask from the LORD,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.

For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent
and set me high upon a rock.
Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the LORD.
Hear my voice when I call, LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.

My heart says of you,
“Seek his face!”

Your face, LORD, I will seek.

Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
God my Savior.

Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.

Teach me your way, LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
spouting malicious accusations.
I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.


Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.

 

[Jeshu]

Watching On?

“Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come. But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into.(Matt 24:42-43)


Some are enticed by the god of this world
serving a king who demands in return
Sweating for a crust - like all in Adam must!
Do this, do that, go here, go there
Rules and laws governing everything
Burning consciences demanding sacrifices
Hands in the dirt seeing weeds everywhere!
The sun scoring naked flesh full of sores
Scorpions stinging, horses trampling.
mustn't, mustn't, mustn't - yes I must!
no, no, no don't touch, don't look, don't say
Grasshoppers devouring, war, draught and famine!
What a dragon the god of works truly is.
Dust and a six foot hole to earn as reward.



Others walk a different Way than the norm.
Trusting that Christ means it when He says;
"Follow Me and be free!"
Following The Love of 't heart obediently.
Daily in His Rest - celebrating Christ's Victory.
Forgiving love bringing thankfulness alive,
Father's love teaching grace in real life.
Forgiven sinners - listening to The Word.
Always truthfully loving God, self and other.
Carefully observing The Master doing the work
Glorying in God's Victory praising with all His own.
Ruling beside Christ served by angel's delights.
While gnashing their teeth The Wicked look on.

 

[Jeshu]

To get to know Jesus in all our heart is The Job we meet down here in our sinful life.

Serving God whole heartedly.

Our being consists of more than the here and now - indeed many moments of self awareness, many different times of personalities traits, of moments in good and in bad. For both when we are awake and when we are asleep our spirit shapes and is being shaped. Though we have lived the past it is still living within us in the present and will influence the future – true image of God to be!

Truly our being is as mysterious and vast as the universe. What I mean to say with this is that our soul makes us up in its entirety, every moment of our existence both good and bad. All these times we ruled ourself with our contemporary and mood shifting sense of self – our I am, interacts with us in everyday life – even if we have forgotten the moments, for in our soul they are written as it were on a 'scroll of remembrance' – and influence our thoughts, choices and decision making processes and builds our sense of self, with shifting shades of light and darkness. We are all children of Time.

If you are anything like me then you will cycle up and down in your faith life. In my Teenage years I was more down on faith then up. Consequently my deeds reflected my spiritual mood. Though I 'served' the Lord in some respects, in that I believed in Him, yet I had major outbursts of living it up, getting drunk, chasing the girls, wildly spending my money and experimenting with sex. Ouch that hurt! That hurt a lot, especially when the mood cycled past and I couldn't get into contact with God no more, had an empty wallet and had made people angry or disappointed with me – or at least that is how I often experienced it.

What I try to say with this is that often we are all divided up inside our heart into many different sections of self, we rule ourselves through different moods, likes and times and consequently make different choices all the time, some paradoxically opposed to the other. As it is in this world so it is often in us. Much division, conflict, wars and rumours of wars, light, darkness, good and bad! In truth we are are woven with many strains, colours and sizes of thread.

Don't you reckon...?

Then what about the times we hate, even ourself, what about those times we are angry and fill ourself up with angry thoughts even about our loved ones? What about racial hatred or social dislikes? What about our fantasies, fears and wants? What about loving loved ones? What about just decisions? Now I haven't even talked about the place the lie and dishonesty has in our life, and please consider all the junk we have stored? (Social, political and religious manipulation made sure of that! (Just think about Hollywood for example, or the forced 'education' of our young.)

As you can see we are complex individuals hopelessly segregated and sometimes completely taken up by the needs and demands of mere flesh, the world and Satan - and consequently torn apart by the forces to be, often almost unrecognisable to who we truly should be – not reflecting God's image and as we know such is called sin!

Not only dwells there all kind of potential wrong within, we also have a 'good self' - truly a whole a clan of attitudes, morals, values and beliefs influencing our decision making processes. How do we rule with our 'good self', our inner king or queen? Do we rule in loving truth? Even the times we are walking through sin? Struggle with God, self or others. Are we trying to annihilate others, denying them the right to be as they are, or deny parts of our own God given personality at such times? Perhaps we rule in the pharisee style? A life full of do and don't dos. Or maybe we don't care much about our not so nice selves and judge ourselves within - and so live fragmented lives. Some of us even turn into full-time slaves of personal desires, wants and dislikes, worldly influences and become Satan's puppet on strings, stuck with burning desires, denial of truth - spiritual genocide within!

Nevertheless we are supposed to govern life, not be a slave to it. Remember, we are allowed to rule with Christ? Mastering life has always been the offer of Christ. Jesus wants us to rule our being in the Spirit of love and truth – both our good and bad times – He wants to set us free from our struggles and stop the internal genocide, and shape our being into newness of life. He wants to do it through rebuilding us in loving truth.

Honestly true! He wants to love our sin out of us and rebuild the lies that make up our own private selves with truth! He wants to make sure that what is opposed to you will benefit you in end. He wants to save you, not bind you to religious or not so religious points of views – not even your own – but grant you true life through the Spirit of loving truth.

Christ invites us to come and bring our complete self to Him, both good and bad and let Him decide what is just, good and right for us. Oh He knows it so much better than we ever could, and patiently teaches us the way we should go. The battles we have then are our own hesitations in letting go of our lives. Indeed inner wrong will set itself up against us. Nevertheless love in/for truth wins the day (Revelation.) This is the right way to battle – to stay in Christ's love and to stay or return into His truth always, so wrongdoing dies out of us, time and again, while loving and truthfulness rebuild us into who we are of old.

For if the truth that Christ died for our sin stands central, then spiritual rest and thankfulness of heart will grow inside of us as a bulwark never shaken, no matter how good or bad our physical life is going, spiritually we shall be at peace.

Can you see that Christ wants to save us from the very forces that conquer our life time and again? Freedom is what Jesus brings and wholeness of inner being is what He teaches us all about. All we need to do is trust our Saviour and surrender our whole hearts to Him. Let His Word and Spirit dwell richly in us so they can transform us into this wonderful newness of life. A life which is learning to walk in truth and in love and so truly be in the image of our Creator, however small in the imprint.

Becoming Christ like is what that means. Christ walked the truth to a tee and loved perfectly well the whole way through. He loved God the Father with His whole heart. He is One with God. So for us to find ourselves in a loving and living relationship with our Heavenly Father we need Jesus to lead us there. The Bible teaches that only the pure shall see God. From ourselves we cannot offer much purity, I found, for we are not like Christ and we, despite our greatest effort, are not pure. I'm assured that nobody can have Christ-likeness in self, but those who have put their faith in Jesus Christ and let themselves be let by His Spirit – the Spirit of Truth who brings us Love, as His greatest gift, or rather brings us unto the Way of Love - as that is the Truth.

 

[Jeshu]

Could I explain how The Truth of God's love lives in our hearts if we let Him grow in us? God's Kingdom is so very different than life down here has on offer - unbelievable much better.

Words fail when we speak about The Good Life our Lord brings us.


Jesus has more on offer than our illness has brought us that is for sure.

To The Speakers Of Words.

Whatever do you mean using words again?
Is vocabulary not a little plain?
Words synchronising souls as one?
Can such a feat truly be done?
For I cannot with words relay,
Why I am myself this way.

Be events either good or bad,
be our interaction sad or glad.
Consider, good times offers happy faces,
still the words spoken are just reflecting traces,
of the togetherness that's found,
for joy, cannot, by words, be bound!

Bear in mind that laughter resists spelling,
even as tears wail words of wrong telling.
Watch jealousy offer red hot treason,
just as rage defies all spoken reason.
so hateful thoughts inside our heart do burn,
while its miseries for God's goodness yearn.

Could our reality be fully articulated?
Present tense offering more than has been explicated?
Truer then the written pages used to announce?
A whole lot more than anyone could ever pronounce?
For events increase what in your heart and mind will stay,
telling so much more than you can read or I can say!

Or can your tongue genuinely translate..,
..what feelings twine through your thoughts of late?
Surely life within, words can only address?
So often creating an existential mess!
Moreover what about these spirits so sly,
evil thoughts weaving words into a lie?

Please know the heart so you can see,
that words hide much sin and misery.
Even the Bible, The Loving Word of the Lord,
requires the Spirit to cut like a flaming sword.
Albeit The Truth needs no letters to explain Himself,
nor any accusers after His mistakes to delve.

See how compassion heeds love with much regard,
understand that hope restores a faltering heart.
Observe determination reach out at a distant goal,
and experience true thankfulness gladdening your soul.
Feel the joy which lights-up a most sombre face,
and live beneath the umbrella of God's Grace.

Please know that trust has no boundaries nor fear,
even as in love many are as one so near.
So truthfulness is also a gift of yore,
our very existence has in such its core.
Oh such truth with mere words I can never explain,
as ink on a diamond will always look a stain!

So merely pen and paper paraphrasing what would be?
Words illustrating the breath of spirituality?
Or does our language hinder His salvation?
The lack of phrases chaining contemplation?
Therefore linguistics cannot always stand,
as even Scripture's words come to an end.

Rather the truth your heart accumulates,
will determine what final fate awaits.
When in word or letter you've made a stand,
The Lord will such results from you demand.
Yet if the Spirit of Loving Truth shapes your reality,
judgement day will bring joy instead of anxiety.

 

[Jeshu]

Light Travel.
Our emptiness to fill with hope and faith in God's love
for forgiving ourself is not as easy as doing it wrong
pursuing His peace so we can dwell at ease in His Rest
only ever trusting Truly Good to fix gone Badly Wrong
practising love so we will never again lack His guidance
Jesus Light dwelling where once The Darkness ruled.

 

[healingrainbow]

Isaiah 55

"Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.
Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.
Give ear and come to me;
hear me, that your soul may live.

That's very good advice. I kinda live like that sometimes to escape from the gloomy feeling. It's like find that peace like spiritual frequency don't rely on what you see with your eyes to feel what you feel. You can be happy even in a ugly junk yard.

 

[Jeshu]

You know friends I found that The Word spoken in love for God, self and other brought me the ability to survive my depressive illness.

Good Music has been my main aid to keep The Word speaking.

When I'm deeply depressed or when I go psychotic I turn up my stereo and let The Word ground me -


The Sons of Korah have been my very best musicians singing straight out of The Word and with zeal for God and His service they have blessed me like no other musicians ever have.

A few of their songs


YouTube - Psalm 91 Sons of Korah


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pbILLkOmLdc


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t96-VOR5PTs


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DkHqaBxPoAM


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cx9-LkuVWt4

 

[Jeshu]

We all know The Accuser well don't we, depression made sure of that, yet what else do we know about getting free?

(Rev 17-20)

To Hear The Trumpet blow

To Hear The Trumpet blow

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the Dragon is back!

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ten bad kings ruling

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ten hours bad rule for sin!

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guilty conscience

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burning harlot

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devouring bad life!

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This calls for Christ as King!

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destroying mind control

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liberating God's chosen

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wiping out the numbered

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God's Own Ruling

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True Freedom to K(k)now

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B(b)e T(t)rue M(n)an Again!

 

[Jeshu]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zrcpOncueZI&NR=1


Darkness Reigning

When The hour of darkness reigns.
“Where is your God”, they sneer.
Casting their nets of doubt and fear.
Isolation is their jail of presence within.
Happily trading your weakness and your sin.
Oh how they enjoy your every fall or slip.
As your fallen reality is their strongest grip.
Building in your heart their own life form.
So depravity of being is your daily norm.
Now see them fight to retain their place.
Trying to keep away God’s loving grace.
By showing you their godless hold inside.
You in their slimly pits to smite.
Influenced by their dark and godless thrash.
Your light of day took quite a crash.
But remember wicked rule is a very short reign.
For you Christ’s light will surely shine again.

Fighting sin has been the biggest liberation with Jesus guys!

No fighting, apart of those fighting you not fighting it!

We fight The Accuser and let Jesus deal with our sin, until the son of lawlessness is revealed whom Jesus kills in His love over us setting us free from our Big I controlling time and again and teaching us to be faithful to His Truth and serve Dad instead of sin in that part of our life.

Jesus burned up so much sin with His love - setting me free - and seeded the good seed instead - what an awesome Saviour we have!


My Vineyard.

My soul is a vineyard of the Lord.
He choose the site carefully
and dug my hardened soil deep.

He removed all rocks and stones
and built me a wall with them,
a defence so very strong.

He planted the choicest of vines,
in fertile ground He planted them
and watered them deeply.

He cares for the plants very well,
pruning them each season,
strong stock to propagate.

Also a watchtower did He make,
placing guards in it,
a watching eye on things.

A wine press He built as well,
for when my vines yield,
pressing the best of fruit.

The wine of Joy is what I get,
jubilant my maidens dance,
gladness running over.

 

[Jeshu]

As a matter of fact the biggest contribution to my healing is my freedom to be who I am, whatever mood I'm in, or whatever part of myself is ruling, both in good and in bad life, I may love the Lord with all my heart - and that is the only way to stay free after falling guys!.

I'm in bad life right now, depressed, angry, hateful, easily smitten by guilt and shame for who I have always been in sin, yet my joy is complete, For Jesus loves me.

Such is God's Liberation!

(He is Alive and Real, not just some religious icon as He used to be in the past in my life.)


Admitting Mental Illness,

Do you admit to me your presence,
that cruel and uncaring form of self-hood,
acknowledging your involuntariness,
in dealing with my life on occasions
which matter so much to me,
and the detestable act of having
love faith and hope,
completely undiscerning,
in a fantasy world,
ignoring my hellish agony?

Do you admit to me,
the one in authority,
that you have absconded
your responsibilities continually,
and that you have not relented from your ways,
even when I pressed you for co-operation,
in dealing with urgently
yes, imperative matters
timely and maturely,
yet never respecting,
my feelings or point of view,
even during extremely
turbulent and dangerous times?

Do you admit
that your unwillingness and stubbornness
has caused me much grief,
and that willingly surrendering yourself,
at a much earlier date,
could have moulded you into something
more pliable than is presently the case,
toughening yourself against my attempts
to achieve some kind of empiric unity?

Do you therefore admit
that your position makes my life precariously unstable,
detonating,
exploding,
mushrooming clouds,
laying waste,
yes vaporising,
everything
that has been worked so awfully hard for,
me,
putting so much energy
and time into building my reality,
without you giving a hoot about any of this
never - ever - at all?

Well?


"I admit."


Good then we are finally getting somewhere!

 

[Jeshu]

An interesting thing that I found to be helpful in dealing with my depression was the split that I found alive in myself with regards to my depression.

I who suffered my Depression in desolation!
I who raged my depression in miseries agony!

The Word showed my how life in anti-Christ spirit hurts a lot that is for sure!

The Truth showed me incredible truths though once I let Him into my inner world of darkness.

For the one in me who suffered desolation Heavenly bliss opened up when I died to the lie which gave me existence - for God doesn't love me, nobody loves me - is not true in His truth, and that is for sure an aye opener.

and so life in my suffering took a turn for good and in dignity ruling beside Christ arrived to take misery's desolation's place!

For the one in me raging my misery an incredible mission opened up for me when I died to the lie of my existence - for God is punishing me for my sins, it is all my own fault - has no place in His truth!

Jesus taught me to rage at the devil -- instead of God, myself or my neighbour. Such incredible bliss to see the smoke of Wicked's torment going up! (Rev 14)


Hell for The Wicked is no skin of my back, and shouldn't be for any one who has faith in God.


Watch out danger ahead.

Beware great danger ahead dear friend!
Please beware of making promises!
Promises that you will change yourself,
that you will be better than before,
that you will not be a sinner any more,
that you will be a good person always!

Be real, sinners cannot change themselves!
Washed by the blood of Christ will do fine!
This is what being steadfast is all about!
Stubbornly believing in Father's grace
no matter what Dragon spits at you
even if lightning strikes you down!

God's loving truth will bring you inner light!
when you see your salvation dawning,
it will be Jesus on the clouds of Heaven,
He will greet you with your new life,
not your own efforts at doing good works,
but an I am prepared for you by from of old.

 

[Jeshu]

Today Jesus has been helping me through a rough spot in my life! A loveless place created by the failure of those responsible to ever show pity or mercy on me.

A place where wanting to to be death ruled my misery at its worst. My latest psychosis saw me fall once more but The Lord is getting me up quicker than ever.

Almost all my other psychosis took me years to get my life back after the lie been through like that, but now I seem to be recovering much more quickly. I have learned to understand falling means that weaknesses must often be overcome once more, for the wicked got me back, like with self hate that is such a sore spot in my life i keep falling for that.

This morning Suicide loomed but with Jesus I feel safe no matter how my depression rages.


I Hate Evil Good!

Hateful feelings burning my life to waste.
Pronouncing evil judgements with deadly haste.
Fuelling fires lighting heart and mind a blaze.
Wrongful words incinerating my every gaze.

Disrespectfully tearing all God's good down.
Evil robbing through my flesh my golden crown.
Burning hate ravening all my Good Life within.
Very happily befriending those doers of sin.

Obliterating all Goodness such a deadly deed.
Strangling forces from my lifeblood will feed.
Only seeking my demise so death me will win!
Burning those whom I love the most within.

I will not always suffer evil and their crime.
hate and evil can also have a hell of a time.
evil hating a Lake Of Fire sautéing obediently.
The Wicked ones frying their own evil iniquity!

 

[Jeshu]

Oh Lamb of God!

I know for sure that Your Voice is You!
For The Living Word within is true
Right within my soul Your Spirit dwells
About God's Kingdom Your love tells.

Forgiving love is wonderful within
For it surely does away with sin.
Bringing thankfulness alive
Bringing an end to all my inner strife.

Keep teaching me The Way to go
Living Waters through me to flow.
A heart praising God each Day anew
His loving Word that ugly Dragon slew.

Slowly day after day You take me in
Onhigh with You and all God's kin
Praising Father for only He is good.
His loving Truth my constant food.

More and more The TRUTH reveals
As The Lamb of God opens all the seals
Angels beside themselves with glee
God's amazing Salvation I may see!

Oh Lamb of God - You alone I praise!
Oh Your loving truth bringing Grace!
Without Your Word I could not have known
What Your love in me has sown!


The biggest thing with our God is faith!

I think it is for many reasons why faith is a big hit with Him.

First of all faith Comes from Him and needs to be asked for!
Faith is trialled down here to see if it is genuine!
So Faith in us is from God and works through His Loving Truth - and as such The Living Word in our hearts to be!

Doubt and unbelief however are opposed to faith, any doubt or unbelief in our faith and out faith is not pure no more!

A lot of confusion rests around this issue!

It is best we understand that God gives nothing to someone with a double mind - so our faith is trialled down here to see if we are genuine influenced by God's Spirit to live godly lives, free from fear, safe and joyful in Him, or if we are over-run by our adversity who tries to make us look at ourselves or others for answers and has no faith in God but hates and fears Him, such a spirit in us is no much help battling depression that is for sure.:o:o:o

Unbelief.

Your voice turned me utterly insane,
believing your suggestions
thinking there is no God.
For you betrayed my Good Life,
pushing me into that bottomless pit,
into fiery Hell for years on end.

Flying right through my reality,
your miserable voice dividing
myself against myself,
your taunts attacking faithful self,
hopelessness cutting me up,
your lies barring access to true Life!

No faith feeding my starving soul,
instead doubt, confusion and terror,
false evidence locking my hopes away,
devoid from true self or any good thing,
torturing me in those dark dungeons,
you only ever set out to murder me!

 

[Jeshu]

One of our biggest enemies, especially when we are depressed or have been manic and up to no good is the accuser of the brethren.

The voice burning our guilty conscious - that is who The Accuser is!

He tries and makes us feel bad for the bad we have done so more bad can happen next time around or stop us from feeling bad whatsoever about what is bad - if we pay his price that is - a horrible game he plays that nasty devil - we better be well aware before we court-up with him firing us!!!

Matt 12:50

For whoever does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother.”

It is not until The Word is born within us, that The Accuser of The Brethren is overcome in our hearts The Word teaches, for then from Heaven He will rule us, but down in our worldly being - outside of the faith in us - we will be going through a bit of a desolation during this period!

Rev 12:10-17

Then I heard a loud voice in heaven say:

“Now have come the salvation and the power
and the kingdom of our God,
and the authority of his Messiah.
For the accuser of our brothers and sisters,
who accuses them before our God day and night,
has been hurled down.
They triumphed over him
by the blood of the Lamb
and by the word of their testimony;
they did not love their lives so much
as to shrink from death.
Therefore rejoice, you heavens
and you who dwell in them!
But woe to the earth and the sea,
because the devil has gone down to you!
He is filled with fury,
because he knows that his time is short.” :o





When the dragon saw that he had been hurled to the earth, he pursued the woman who had given birth to the male child. The woman was given the two wings of a great eagle, so that she might fly to the place prepared for her in the wilderness, where she would be taken care of for a time, times and half a time, out of the serpent’s reach.



Then from his mouth the serpent spewed water like a river, to overtake the woman and sweep her away with the torrent. But the earth helped the woman by opening its mouth and swallowing the river that the dragon had spewed out of his mouth. Then the dragon was enraged at the woman and went off to wage war against the rest of her offspring—those who keep God’s commands and hold fast their testimony about Jesus.




The outcome is a spiritual life alive in our hearts a bit like this!




My Lord, My Husband.

My Lord with bowed head I stand before you,
I'm not worthy to be called your wife.
For I have been very unfaithful
and deserted you for many years.

I'm so sorry Lord that I've been untrue
been unkind, rebellious and temperamental
In The End betraying You for the other one
that cruel liar and deceiver, that Beast.

Yet You rescued me from that tyrant
Hid me in the desert until I grew free
Taught me tenderly what true love was
and gave me back my dignity.

I wanted to thank you dear husband
form the bottom of my heart
for accepted my other children
those not conceived from your seed.

I'm so grateful You sorted them out for me
for a rebellious kindred they've surely been
Yet Your awesome love won them all
freeing me from having to control them.

And now my Lord, my husband so dear.
I feel almost embarrassed asking you this
My Lord, if..if I have found favour in Your sight,
then please, please let me know You...

...Oh Jesus, a wonderful husband you will always be,
please let me be Your ever faithfully loving wife,
the seeds of your Love fill me, time and again
your offspring making me enlarge my tent.

 

[Jeshu]

Psalm 34

Of David. When he pretended to be insane before Abimelek, who drove him away, and he left.

I will extol the LORD at all times;
his praise will always be on my lips.
I will glory in the LORD;
let the afflicted hear and rejoice.
Glorify the LORD with me;
let us exalt his name together.

I sought the LORD, and he answered me;
he delivered me from all my fears.
Those who look to him are radiant;
their faces are never covered with shame.
This poor man called, and the LORD heard him;
he saved him out of all his troubles.


The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him,
and he delivers them.

Taste and see that the LORD is good;
blessed is the one who takes refuge in him.
Fear the LORD, you his holy people,
for those who fear him lack nothing.


The lions may grow weak and hungry,
but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.


Come, my children, listen to me;
I will teach you the fear of the LORD.
Whoever of you loves life
and desires to see many good days,
keep your tongue from evil
and your lips from telling lies.
Turn from evil and do good;
seek peace and pursue it.

The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous,
and his ears are attentive to their cry;
but the face of the LORD is against those who do evil,
to blot out their name from the earth.
The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them;
he delivers them from all their troubles.

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

The righteous person may have many troubles,
but the LORD delivers him from them all;


he protects all his bones,
not one of them will be broken.

Evil will slay the wicked;
the foes of the righteous will be condemned.

The LORD will rescue his servants;
no one who takes refuge in him will be condemned.

 

[Jeshu]

Psalm 62

For the director of music. For Jeduthun. A psalm of David.
Truly my soul finds rest in God;
my salvation comes from him.
Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.

How long will you assault me?
Would all of you throw me down—
this leaning wall, this tottering fence?
Surely they intend to topple me
from my lofty place;
they take delight in lies.
With their mouths they bless,
but in their hearts they curse.

Yes, my soul, find rest in God;
my hope comes from him.
Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
My salvation and my honor depend on God;
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.


Trust in him at all times, you people;
pour out your hearts to him,
for God is our refuge.

Surely the lowborn are but a breath,
the highborn are but a lie.
If weighed on a balance, they are nothing;
together they are only a breath.
Do not trust in extortion
or put vain hope in stolen goods;
though your riches increase,
do not set your heart on them.
One thing God has spoken,
two things I have heard:
“Power belongs to you, God,
and with you, Lord, is unfailing love”;
and, “You reward everyone
according to what they have done.”

 

[Jeshu]

What Can I Say About Suffering

What can I say, about what have I learned from our Heavenly Father? I can see now that evil lies cause pain to be alive within human existence. I have watched how isolation, forces lies down into suffering souls - as The Wicked cut all ties with truthful love and our crushing depression generate its own misery in our agonising hell down there. I know that in the Pit all lies end up - dragging us down living dead. Yet why would I continue to let bad life be dominant in my inner world of awareness and not God's loving truth to rule my every moment?

I have learned that creeds, values and morals are rules upon rules ruling. Still wicked lies spread like maggots through my flesh, killing all goodness within me, because I'm imperfect! To just let it be and move on is best I learned about that. And so The Word of God spoken in love for God, self and neighbour, is The Voice to heed at all times.

I have experienced that time brings good and bad, up and down, far and wide for everyone. Yet the power of God's love, as even bad sin and great failings ruled me, couldn't subdue Jesus grace over me as His loving truth set me free to be myself - time and again.

I understand that anguish speaks to those experiencing life truly untrue and lovelessly - and that our Heavenly Father never wanted this to rule His kids. Indeed I know that my wretchedness longs for the demise of all my agony. So that misery may never rule my life again, no more Bad Life overshadowing my here and now, instead freedom for me. For in God's loving truth, even through much hurt, I can finally stay on top of things, my loveless lies to hand to Christ as God's Good Life grows within in Return.

I know now that loving truth is the only useful weapon against the forces of evil. Complete freedom for me if I heed God's love in truth to rule my daily life. So why would I foolishly keep letting malefic lies decide my future. Why not forgive, why leave truthful love? While I know that only God's good makes my life a worthwhile experience?

I have seen that life is genuinely worth living in honest loving togetherness. Where everyone who exists is esteemed because they are specially made. For our real value lays not in how much gain we can yield for others. But simply because all existence speaks of life's importance to be loved. The communion of Saints - true love loving people doing the loving - is very important therefore.

So I choose loving truthfulness to steer me through those terrible storms down here. For even through extraordinary agony and times of incredible much suffering. God's truth preserves my life. His loving goodness keeping me from falling. As I found that warm-heartedness is truly effective against the deadly chill of devil's breath.

 

[Jeshu]

Seven years of depression, 15 months suicidally, still had me pen this poem after I met Jesus at the bottom of it all.

Armageddon.

In my inner world life died everywhere,
famine taking what sword had left behind.
Brim and hailstones flattening what stood up,
no escape from the carnage I could find.

Awed I saw Jesus the evil fight,
turning my world into a battleground.
I saw billows of smoke rising up high,
rolling thunder through my world rebound.

I watched as scorpions paraded my soul,
stinging those godless in their lust.
Massive grasshoppers devouring all my good,
fierce horses trampling me to dust.

I saw much of my greenery burn-up,
fleets of cargo ships sadly perish.
Daily trade coming to an abrupt hold,
ungodly rulers wrong to cherish.

I saw the Dragon reigning his subjects,
watched the numbered die like flies.
I heard the false prophet's constant lying,
demons smearing God's love with lies.

It was the blood drinking prostitute,
which flabbergasted me the most.
Unfaithfulness killing God's chosen,
with fiery death she was deposed.

I saw my world's kingdom going down,
ruling Babylon fall in one day.
With two thirds of my world wiped out,
I watched true Peace coming to stay.

And so watching God's own safely at home,
I finally let my tears run dry.
Seeing Jesus arising on the clouds,
I joined the Hallelujah cry.

 

[Jeshu]

Also our Salvation and good life is assured in God's Word, it is because of this that we may rejoicingly look forward to His Salvation in our lives.

Is 25:4-9

You have been a refuge for the poor,
a refuge for the needy in their distress,
a shelter from the storm
and a shade from the heat.
For the breath of the ruthless
is like a storm driving against a wall
and like the heat of the desert.
You silence the uproar of foreigners;
as heat is reduced by the shadow of a cloud,
so the song of the ruthless is stilled.
On this mountain the LORD Almighty will prepare
a feast of rich food for all peoples,
a banquet of aged wine—
the best of meats and the finest of wines.

On this mountain he will destroy
the shroud that enfolds all peoples,
the sheet that covers all nations;

he will swallow up death forever.



The Sovereign LORD will wipe away the tears
from all faces;
he will remove his people’s disgrace
from all the earth.


The LORD has spoken.

In that day they will say,
“Surely this is our God;
we trusted in him, and he saved us.
This is the LORD, we trusted in him;
let us rejoice and be glad in his salvation.”