One of the reasons why I was called to be a heroic peacemaker is because I have felt as though I have hardly been heard, and I've seen it happening in other people who eventually accept not worthy of being heard as true. As I take steps towards becomming a counselor, I have learned more about ow essential effective listening skills are. I still struggle to listen to.:o Even at 38, I still feel as though I am worthy of being heard, though I am discouraged about the lack of those being uninterested in my plight. I feel as though those things that are important to me in line with God's will are not important enough to others. This is but a part of how I am struggling to function in society. I've finally figured out why that is. I have Pervasive Developmental Disorder(PDD NOS), which I did not know I had until two years ago. I thought perhaps that my PDD NOS played a small role in my lifelong struggles, and that my emoitonal problems and bad attitude were more major factors. No so. I can see all the more clearly how PDD NOS has been the primary major reason why I struggle to get along in society. I feel as though I hardly have anyone who is rooting for me. Now I am stuck in a place that I cannot get out of and therefore cannot move on because I inadvertanely put myself in a precarious position. I have done lot's of things by a wing and a prayer, and God has come through. Hallelujah!
I believed that my goals were reasonable and attainable (e.g. having a child) even though I had a hunch about the possibility of things not working out as we planned or hoped. I therefore struggle with being confused about whether or not I have made the right choices, especially since the circumstances are not lining up or being condusive to the quality of life I need to be a healthy servant for God in my family or ministry. I believe God grants miracles to people in precarious positions. I mean a person in a car that ran off and enbankment and is sinking in a river is also a precarious position that God rescues people from. I prayed for to give me a miracle so that I can work miracles in the lives of so many others who might not otherwise get such help. I believe God gives extra grace to his children on the autism spectrum like myself. It's only by His grace that I have made it as far as I have. We see things so differently and operate according to a different set of principles than neurotypical people do. I need people to rally up and support my cause and my dream to be in full time ministry as a motivational speaker/author/counselor/Animal Assisted Therapist/Anti-Bullying Advocate. I need to be able to help so many other people on the spectrum like myself who are suffering silently because they can't figure out why they can't move up in society. I mean so many of these people don't even know they are on the spectrum. This is a sad phenomenon, since I didn't even know for the longest time why I could not find connections. I can see this clearly as something that needs to be done, and all it takes is a full people who will pray with me in agreement, support me ally with me and cooperate with me to enable auspies to make great contributions to science, arts and humanity. 
This is a kingdom goal, not a worldly goal. God called me to be like a Moses to set other Auspies free. I know that God will bless his Auspie children if they will just believe. Will you join forces with me? Of course any prayers you can offer and words of encouragement would be exptremely helpful. Thanks for listening.
I believed that my goals were reasonable and attainable (e.g. having a child) even though I had a hunch about the possibility of things not working out as we planned or hoped. I therefore struggle with being confused about whether or not I have made the right choices, especially since the circumstances are not lining up or being condusive to the quality of life I need to be a healthy servant for God in my family or ministry. I believe God grants miracles to people in precarious positions. I mean a person in a car that ran off and enbankment and is sinking in a river is also a precarious position that God rescues people from. I prayed for to give me a miracle so that I can work miracles in the lives of so many others who might not otherwise get such help. I believe God gives extra grace to his children on the autism spectrum like myself. It's only by His grace that I have made it as far as I have. We see things so differently and operate according to a different set of principles than neurotypical people do. I need people to rally up and support my cause and my dream to be in full time ministry as a motivational speaker/author/counselor/Animal Assisted Therapist/Anti-Bullying Advocate. I need to be able to help so many other people on the spectrum like myself who are suffering silently because they can't figure out why they can't move up in society. I mean so many of these people don't even know they are on the spectrum. This is a sad phenomenon, since I didn't even know for the longest time why I could not find connections. I can see this clearly as something that needs to be done, and all it takes is a full people who will pray with me in agreement, support me ally with me and cooperate with me to enable auspies to make great contributions to science, arts and humanity. This is a kingdom goal, not a worldly goal. God called me to be like a Moses to set other Auspies free. I know that God will bless his Auspie children if they will just believe. Will you join forces with me? Of course any prayers you can offer and words of encouragement would be exptremely helpful. Thanks for listening.
