blessedmomof5 said:
Angelwind,
funny, they tell you that you could die any time of a heart attack because of the damage you ahve done, but yet cannot stop yourself from going to the gym everyday and clinmbing the revoving stairs anywhere from 2 1/2 to 4 hrs a day 7 days a week you know it is time to get help, you know when you you weigh below 100 and want to get below 90 you need help and the thing is one day i was in the bathroom crying we will not go into detail, but i looked in the mirror and i was praying and crying and not sure if i would survive, but i had no choice in my anoerxic miind, and i looked in the mirror, and for a second a saw the real me, and the looked again and then i was gone........it was God wanting me to see waht i looked like at 94 lbs and then it was gone.....it was that quick....i d not see that anymore. now in my mind that not thin enough, but why do i need to be thin enough? will i make thing enough? will my children have there mother at thin enough, and most important, God does not want thin enough, he just want enough of me.....
sorry for the ramble......
Oh dear, this is so very sad.
GOD made you beautiful sister. Perfect. From the beginning. This involves ALOT more than just outward standard beauty as we commonly know it. As for perfection, man is not worthy to set the bar for "perfection".
Most people dont realize the great extremes GOD has gone to for you to just know him. Now. Here. In this time.
YOU are made in the image of the creator! Genesis 1:27: "So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them." Every little detail of yourself GOD created works perfectly without you even realizing it. How vastly complex and perfect your entire inner organ system is for example. For you! So you can live as a human made in his image with the amazing brain you have that contains more neuron connections than every network and computer together on the planet earth to create and wonder and ponder all there is in God's creation. Just take this organ system, and think about a couple of the perfect things GOD gave you. Like the liver. The liver, YOUR liver was created perfect! It filters out the bad and unwanted things that you dont even realize you have, (imagine if yur mind ha to do this on its own? You would be pretty busy!) and stores sugar and vitamins so your body can use them when ever it needs to do so. All of this goes on without your conscience mind even realizing it! We could go on and on about your beautiful hands and thumb so unlike antything or creature there has ever been, or your eyes that contain over 125 million rods and cones, lenses and millions of perfect neurons... its more complex than the most advanced camera lens created by man! Perfect! You can use these amazing perfectly created devices perfectly! without realizing it! The human ear is another marvel among the thousands on or in your body, your ears are created with the ability for you to detect presure variations of less than one-billionth in atmospheric pressure. The ear adjust to air vibratons you cant see or even realize are there, This incredible sensitivity is enhanced by pefect amplification of the sound signal being recieved by the outer and middle ear structures that are made perfect, on you and your children and everyone else that GOD made in his image. When you eat any kind of the millions of variations of fruits, and veggies and meats and all the other great things GOD also made just for you, your body does more than you can even imagine without you even realizing it, regardless if you realize it! Or even can, PERFECTLY!!!
In genesis 2:7 "And the LORD God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul." In the ground you walk on everyday, in the dirt in your back yard, there contains all the vitamins and minerals you are and that makes you literally YOU! Then to make it so amazing, (if thats nor amazing enough in itself) is that you BECAME a living soul! Because of his love. In this digital self-producing perfect thing GOD created called DNA, you are made perfect!!! Its what you and your children and your mother and father and friends and everyone are. We are made up of 46 chromosomes, 23 from your father, and 23 from your mother. This was no accident! Its from GODS Love! Perfect..and all we have to do with our sinful and selfish conscious mind is to love him back! ..and try to learn to honor that image, that we so conviently unknowingly bare every second of this physical life, whenever we can.
This world we live in today is evil and confusing. Unlike GOD. GOD gave us the ability to choose base on environmental influinces that make up our conscious personalities. This reason and choosing is not perfect unike our phyisial selves. Man does not set the "standdard" for physical perfectness. GOD did that when he created Adma and Eve! Regardless of the past and how someone was, he also gave us the complete ability to GROW from it in whatever way we will be stronger for him, closer to him, mentally , physically, or both! You have the ability inside of you, from the digital code that makes you! Which means GOD won if YOU choose to use these things! Not the evils of the world. You and GOD will win if you choose to make it happen. If you use the gifts he gave you in your life. This means ALL kinds of gifts. Physically, mentally, and situations.
If one can come into this world perfectly created, in todays unbelievably evil chaotic environment, and can be corrupted and influenced by all there is to darken your very spirit, and still THROUGH HIS GRACE come out on top, well then thats a pretty remarkable thing AMEN?
This world is MADE for you to fail. To fall on your face thinking selfishly that all there is to life is what you see through sinful eyes. The TRUE world is hidden in the heavens, and science that is your very essence! Its hiden in GODS love and grace. But through him and his amazingly complex and PERFECT plan, you too can see this. Can know this.Only GODs WAYS and judgments are perfect. Your ways are not. Just look to his word and the things he has blessed you with in your life and you will come out of the world victorious, otherwise, just another lost empty CONFUSED SOUL that got tossed aside in this evil corrupted world.
I feel for you my sisters in Christ so very much. I really care for each and everyone of you. Allthough I cant even begin to imagine what you are all going through, I wish I could take all the pain and confusion and worries of your everyday lives and bury them myself. but I cant, this is your paths GOD put you on. and through the faith in the Lord, that strength through Jesus, with love and understanding, support from friends and family, knowledge and understanding, you will come out on top!
GOD made it that way! PERFECTLY!!!
GOD bless you ALL!!!
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Hey there Savedsis!
