Back to being 14-15

[Nobility]

As a 13-15/16 year old I was depressed. This depression ranged in severity, from mild (and usually during winter) to extremely severe and thoughts of suicide at least each hour.

Now to the present... I've struggled with mild depression on and off since then and I've just some to a realization that it's gotten severe again. I don't want to go to work, don't want to get up, crying constantly, eating excessive amounts of whatever I want, feeling like I can't control myself, and so agitated and bored it's infuriating... where to go from here, I'm not sure. I got married 3 months ago, and whilst I love him heaps, i hate talking with him about it. it brings him down also, and he can't fully understand me. I'm constantly negative what's part of the reason (fact not an exaggeration).

Doctors are expensive as are the drugs for it and counselling... I will go see a doc, but only once we have the money... I'm on my way to do a nursing degree next year, and I am supposed to be finishing one final assignment on a course last year, but i just cna't do it.

Please pray for me.

 

[Jeshu]

Hi
Please keep talking with your partner. I don't know if you are going to be sick for long but it is essential that your partner learns to understand what is happening. This is the best way of finding support. If our partners don't know what is happening yet are severely effected by our downs they may let go of us in the end.

It may be very wise to go medications as soon as possible as the deeper we get into our down, the harder that it is to lift us out of it.

God's strenght with all this



Gerry

 

[Nobility]

Mmm thank you.... He is well aware of the situation, but it is talking about the specifics that is the hurtful thing for him.

I only have one worry about the meds, and that is I don't want the side effects. I've been on them before and they messed with me badly.

 

[Amin]

Mmm thank you.... He is well aware of the situation, but it is talking about the specifics that is the hurtful thing for him.

I only have one worry about the meds, and that is I don't want the side effects. I've been on them before and they messed with me badly.

Maybe they could find a different med.
They don't all react the same.
Chuck.

 

[IseekTheTruth]

I'm a nursing student too... It's... not been good for my mental health. More sensitive persons like you and I, I think, need more rest, perhaps more "recharge" time. I've not gotten it and the effects have been devastating... I haven't had a depressive episode as low or as long as this one in a long time...

God's blessed me in academics and I really wasn't challenged all through highschool. The first two semesters of college life were difficult, but for good reason... it's one of the most challenging private christian schools in the nation, and, in many classes a 95+ is an A. I still got almost all As. Now I'm in nursing school and I'm making borderline B/C's in 6.0 credit hour courses. I've never been so challenged in my life, and the depression makes it nearly impossible. No amount of genius can compensate for being depressed... It just slows everything down...

I know my other post on here is a big negativity bomb, but I feel slightly better after a 4-hour nap... Feel free to PM me or talk to me about nursing or whatever if you want. I can definitely commiserate with you on some level with the nursing and depression. I've pretty much sworn off meds as I've had some miserable experiences with them, and don't treasure the idea of my brain's structure and chemical processes being forever altered by a medication.

 

[Restoredsoul]

Hi hun,
I went through a bout of dperession a few years ago and am beginning to feel that it is coming back - i am really stressed out right now and am finding it tough to stay afloat.

A lot of it for me is to do with the winter months and stress about new jobs etc...

You have just got married - which is great - i'm fairly newly married too but it is a change and you're studying too so you are dealing with stress.

I'm sorry that your meds gave you bad side effects last time but there are a wide range out there - also sleep - are you getting enough - are you feeling refreshed? I tend to find my sleep pattern gets so irregualr that i'm exhausted which makes things more difficult.

I know that you say talking to your husband brings you down and that you find it difficult because he doesn't understand but let him try - you are a partnership and this is a big area of your life so try to let him in - i struggle with the same thing but i think that you need to let him in rather than shut him out.

All this is easy for me to say i know but i do get where you are right now.

Hugs
Rs xxx