Little back story , was born in a hindu family, currently an atheist, i am 20 yr old and feel like an old man with nothing to show for in life, now i wish that if only the internet hadnt filled my brain with a million ideas there still would have been a way for me to believe in god, finally have came to an understanding that lifes pretty empty without a bigger reason to live than myself, wish there was way for me to redpillmy brain into believing in god, but again i feel like its too late for me. I have no idea where to go from here.
In my own theological tradition, Lutheranism, we admit that faith isn't something we can attain on our own, no amount of reason can bridge that gap. Instead we speak of faith using the Latin expression "
extra nos", literally, "from outside of ourselves". Because to faith means to see and know God in and through Jesus, who Jesus is and what Jesus did, especially in His suffering and death on the cross. Such things run counter-intuitive to the usual ways we tend to conceptualize "divinity" as an idea. It is not particularly difficult to speak of God as radically other, mysterious and transcendent. But to speak of Divinity as that which is radically near, that is found not in "glory", but rather in the weakness, fragility, and suffering of a lowly carpenter from Nazareth--that isn't something any amount of philosophical rationalizing can get us to. It is, in a sense, total nonsense, as even St. Paul the Apostle writes in the New Testament, that to the philosopher and students of reason the Christian faith and Christian message and Christian claim is completely and entirely foolish--it's nonsense. That is what he means when he says "we preach Christ crucified, [which is ... ] foolishness to the Greeks" (1 Corinthians 1:23).
Which would all naturally beg the question, "How, then, does one have faith?". Lutherans find our answer in the Bible, where we read that faith is a gift from God, which God gives through the hearing of Christ's word; that could be described another way: an encounter with grace in the Gospel.
What is the Gospel? The word English word "gospel" is the modern form of the older English word "godspel", a combination of two English words "good" and "spell", with the word "spell" used in its much older sense of "to tell" or "to speak". Literally, "good news", a translation of the Greek word used in the New Testament, euaggelion, which likewise quite literally means "good news" or "good message". In the ancient Roman world when the Roman armies at the frontier of the Roman Republic (and later Roman Empire) were winning their victories, a person was commissioned to go from the front lines and go back to Rome to announce the news of what was going on, they were giving good news. This language is, in a sense, adopted in Christianity: the victory of God and His kingdom, right here in our midst, through Jesus the Messiah, not against another nation of men, but against sin and death. And so Jesus, we believe, in calling together a new kind of community and people associated with Himself--that is, His Church--He called this people to have this good news of Himself, of who He is and what He's done, of God's reign as King and God's victory through the Messiah to be announced everywhere, because through the announcing of this good news means the forgiveness of sin, of reconciliation of men to God through Jesus, and to create a people of faith, hope, and love.
To encounter grace, to encounter God's radical kindness, in the this good news actually--we Lutherans believe--actually does something to us. We can, of course, choose to brush it off, ignore it, etc. But it actually works something in us, gives us something new that wasn't there before, it creates something: faith. And that faith makes us new people, as though we have been born again, born not in the natural way as children of our parents, but born anew of God and have come into a radically new way of relating to God: to see God as Father because in Jesus, His Son, God is revealed as loving, kind, merciful, and unconditionally good Father.
Now, we say "hear" because that is the word Paul uses in Romans 10:17; but I have chosen to also use the word "encounter", because there can be many ways to hear this word of good news. The most obvious would be when it is preached and someone literally hears it; but it can also be read, most importantly in the collection of books which we call the Christian Bible. It is also "heard" in connection with water in the Sacrament of Baptism; and also in connection with bread and wine in the Sacrament of Christ's Supper. We speak of all these things together as "Word and Sacrament", and that they are God's "Means of Grace", as we see them as God's way of communicating to us and working to create and sustain and strengthen faith in us.
Because of this, while Lutherans do engage in evangelism and missionary work all around the world, we don't believe that one comes to the Christian faith by coercion or can be argued into believing. Rather, Lutherans commonly quote Jesus when people came to Him to ask if He was the real deal or not, He said, "Come and see." That is, Jesus invited them to come and see if He was the real deal, and so we believe that if we, as Christ's people, are speaking the Gospel, if that is what is truly happening in our midst, then God's word is truly being preached. Not as "Turn or burn" or "You need to get right with God" or anything like that: but instead we believe Jesus is here and is giving Himself away to everyone who hears, and God will work and create faith to believe through Word and Sacrament. Therefore, we say, "Come and see". We can't convince you, or make you believe; but we believe that God really will seed and water the hearts of those who hear, and bring to fruition what He plants and waters--faith.
-CryptoLutheran