- Mar 14, 2018
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- Non-Denom
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- Single
I'm praying for you hardcore tonight. I have a feeling he's got something special in store for you. He loves you like you wouldn't believe. That much I know for sure. Oh, he delights. He's delighting in you right now if you'll open your eyes and see.
Thank you so much, and thank you everyone else who has prayed. I read where God will turn your hard work into gold so I claimed it. I said, "God, you said it so I'm holding you to it." Despite the hell I've lived in most of my life, I have faith.
In 30 months, I've written 16 novels and released 13. I've sold 2,000 copies. But, with God's Gold promise, I can sell millions and be the "salt of the earth" he said we are. I told God, "I am sick of working for others and making them money. I'm 49 and have no financial security or medical. It is time I start seeing the fruits of my labor." Had a lot of dreams about "graduating from high school" (usually denotes success is coming). I don't want it for the fame. The money would be nice so I could write even more. I plan on writing the day I croak.
I am not good as subtle things because of my childhood. I was the sensitive child and all the emotional abuse that happened to me did not endear me to life. Been talking with a therapist and am seeing some benefits to not hating myself.
The good thing is I can switch things on and off with ease. I discovered God actually liked me and loved me not tolerated me being around so I'm not mad at him anymore. Was I really mad at him in the first place? No, I was mad at the one penecostals preached about. That one can stick it!
As far as church, honestly, it just doesn't appeal to me. Unless I have someone to go with, I will not set foot in another one. I simply don't want to experience that lonely feeling again. I can watch on tv or go online.
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