Asking for prayers

[DeerGlow]

I am very afraid right now. I am afraid I have committed the unforgivable sin or apostasized, or am not really a believer and not really saved. Let me begin by saying I was raised in church and baptised around six years old (I think). I wasn't just going to church because my parents did although I didn't read the bible too regularly. I felt close to God and had supernatural experiences and visions. In junior year of high school I was so depressed. I started an optimism tumblr blog and found many uplifting Buddhist quotes. I felt like I'm old enough, I can be whatever I want. I drifted away into atheism and Taoism. I even got into tarot cards telling myself I had this ability to tell the future. This is the fear of apostasy and blaspheming the HS by saying I could do this. The blasphemy also comes from finding the unpardonable sin passages when trying to find commentaries on apostasy if I was forgivable. I got that into my head and couldn't get it out I had blasphemous thoughts and eventually I was so sick on multiple levels. I was kept up all the time and waking up and knocking myself out and making myself sick with anxiety. I finally said something evil about the HS out loud I think to make it all stop. I fear this was willingly speaking against the HS and the blasphemy of the HS or the unforgivable sin. I am so scared right now. Please pray to God for mercy.

“You brood of vipers! How can you speak good, when you are evil? For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. The good person out of his good treasure brings forth good, and the evil person out of his evil treasure brings forth evil. I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak, for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned."”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭12:34-37‬ ‭ESV‬‬

This makes me so afraid. I don't think I can survive an account for every word. Especially the do not judge or condemn and you will not be judged or condemned verses.... I have gotten very angry at someone and muttered "go to hell" and I'm scared.

 

[Winken]

I am very afraid right now. I am afraid I have committed the unforgivable sin or apostasized, or am not really a believer and not really saved. Let me begin by saying I was raised in church and baptised around six years old (I think). I wasn't just going to church because my parents did although I didn't read the bible too regularly. I felt close to God and had supernatural experiences and visions. In junior year of high school I was so depressed. I started an optimism tumblr blog and found many uplifting Buddhist quotes. I felt like I'm old enough, I can be whatever I want. I drifted away into atheism and Taoism. I even got into tarot cards telling myself I had this ability to tell the future. This is the fear of apostasy and blaspheming the HS by saying I could do this. The blasphemy also comes from finding the unpardonable sin passages when trying to find commentaries on apostasy if I was forgivable. I got that into my head and couldn't get it out I had blasphemous thoughts and eventually I was so sick on multiple levels. I was kept up all the time and waking up and knocking myself out and making myself sick with anxiety. I finally said something evil about the HS out loud I think to make it all stop. I fear this was willingly speaking against the HS and the blasphemy of the HS or the unforgivable sin. I am so scared right now. Please pray to God for mercy.

“You brood of vipers! How can you speak good, when you are evil? For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. The good person out of his good treasure brings forth good, and the evil person out of his evil treasure brings forth evil. I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak, for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned."”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭12:34-37‬ ‭ESV‬‬

This makes me so afraid. I don't think I can survive an account for every word. Especially the do not judge or condemn and you will not be judged or condemned verses.... I have gotten very angry at someone and muttered "go to hell" and I'm scared.

We've discussed this before, DeerGlow, I think several times. Once you confess Jesus as Savior you are Spiritually birthed. Nothing, no one, can take that Spiritual birth away from you. Got that? Nothing, no one. You are in my prayers. Hold on fast to your confession. He will never leave you or forsake you.

 

[Tomm]

I am very afraid right now. I am afraid I have committed the unforgivable sin or apostasized, or am not really a believer and not really saved. Let me begin by saying I was raised in church and baptised around six years old (I think). I wasn't just going to church because my parents did although I didn't read the bible too regularly. I felt close to God and had supernatural experiences and visions. In junior year of high school I was so depressed. I started an optimism tumblr blog and found many uplifting Buddhist quotes. I felt like I'm old enough, I can be whatever I want. I drifted away into atheism and Taoism. I even got into tarot cards telling myself I had this ability to tell the future. This is the fear of apostasy and blaspheming the HS by saying I could do this. The blasphemy also comes from finding the unpardonable sin passages when trying to find commentaries on apostasy if I was forgivable. I got that into my head and couldn't get it out I had blasphemous thoughts and eventually I was so sick on multiple levels. I was kept up all the time and waking up and knocking myself out and making myself sick with anxiety. I finally said something evil about the HS out loud I think to make it all stop. I fear this was willingly speaking against the HS and the blasphemy of the HS or the unforgivable sin. I am so scared right now. Please pray to God for mercy.

“You brood of vipers! How can you speak good, when you are evil? For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. The good person out of his good treasure brings forth good, and the evil person out of his evil treasure brings forth evil. I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak, for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned."”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭12:34-37‬ ‭ESV‬‬

This makes me so afraid. I don't think I can survive an account for every word. Especially the do not judge or condemn and you will not be judged or condemned verses.... I have gotten very angry at someone and muttered "go to hell" and I'm scared.

Blasphemy against the Holy Spirit is not what you have done, actually it's "despairing".
According to Church teachings, all sins can be forgiven, if you sincerely repent.

 

[redleghunter]

I am very afraid right now. I am afraid I have committed the unforgivable sin or apostasized, or am not really a believer and not really saved. Let me begin by saying I was raised in church and baptised around six years old (I think). I wasn't just going to church because my parents did although I didn't read the bible too regularly. I felt close to God and had supernatural experiences and visions. In junior year of high school I was so depressed. I started an optimism tumblr blog and found many uplifting Buddhist quotes. I felt like I'm old enough, I can be whatever I want. I drifted away into atheism and Taoism. I even got into tarot cards telling myself I had this ability to tell the future. This is the fear of apostasy and blaspheming the HS by saying I could do this. The blasphemy also comes from finding the unpardonable sin passages when trying to find commentaries on apostasy if I was forgivable. I got that into my head and couldn't get it out I had blasphemous thoughts and eventually I was so sick on multiple levels. I was kept up all the time and waking up and knocking myself out and making myself sick with anxiety. I finally said something evil about the HS out loud I think to make it all stop. I fear this was willingly speaking against the HS and the blasphemy of the HS or the unforgivable sin. I am so scared right now. Please pray to God for mercy.

“You brood of vipers! How can you speak good, when you are evil? For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. The good person out of his good treasure brings forth good, and the evil person out of his evil treasure brings forth evil. I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak, for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned."”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭12:34-37‬ ‭ESV‬‬

This makes me so afraid. I don't think I can survive an account for every word. Especially the do not judge or condemn and you will not be judged or condemned verses.... I have gotten very angry at someone and muttered "go to hell" and I'm scared.

Praying . Seriously recommend you sit down with your pastor. There are great Chaplains here at CF just a few keystrokes away as well.

 

[DeerGlow]

Praying . Seriously recommend you sit down with your pastor. There are great Chaplains here at CF just a few keystrokes away as well.

I can't. I'm going out of country soon and my parents say we're too busy. I'm scared still.

 

[JesusLovesOurLady]

The unforgivable sin, is a refusal to believe in God's mercy and repent. It's a bit more complex than this but, you commit the unpardonable sin either, by assuming God is all-merciful and forgiving and forgive all your sins, even the one's you are about to do. Or, by believing that your sins are so great, that God couldn't possibly forgive them.

Just turn to God, and cry out to Him! Listen to God, and let Him tell you where you need to go!

I will pray for you.

 

[DeerGlow]

The unforgivable sin, is a refusal to believe in God's mercy and repent. It's a bit more complex than this but, you commit the unpardonable sin either, by assuming God is all-merciful and forgiving and forgive all your sins, even the one's you are about to do. Or, by believing that your sins are so great, that God couldn't possibly forgive them.

Just turn to God, and cry out to Him! Listen to God, and let Him tell you where you need to go!

I will pray for you.

So when I have committed sins like I can be forgiven later that's unforgivable? And being afraid I'm not forgiven?

 

[JesusLovesOurLady]

So when I have committed sins like I can be forgiven later that's unforgivable? And being afraid I'm not forgiven?

Yeah, it's basically refusing to repent. If you are about to do something you know is sinful, and you do it anyways, and after that, you refuse to repent, assuming God's already forgiven you for it, that's the unpardonable sin.

Likewise, if you truly believe that God will never forgive you for your sins, and refuse to repent, because you believe God will say "no," that's the unpardonable sin.

However, if in both these cases, you turn to God with perfect contrition, and beg for His forgiveness, you are forgiven.

Now, this is an overly simple explanation of the unpardonable sin, but you get the picture, as long you turn to God and believe in His mercy, you will be fine.

 

[DeerGlow]

Yeah, it's basically refusing to repent. If you are about to do something you know is sinful, and you do it anyways, and after that, you refuse to repent, assuming God's already forgiven you for it, that's the unpardonable sin.

Likewise, if you truly believe that God will never forgive you for your sins, and refuse to repent, because you believe God will say "no," that's the unpardonable sin.

However, if in both these cases, you turn to God with perfect contrition, and beg for His forgiveness, you are forgiven.

Now, this is an overly simple explanation of the unpardonable sin, but you get the picture, as long you turn to God and believe in His mercy, you will be fine.

I just stepped in an ant mound trying to read cf. I just feel like crying. I have such hopeless anxiety and then people say despair is the unpardonable sin and straight from the scriptures.... speaking against.... I'm scared and just feel like everything is wrong.

 

[JesusLovesOurLady]

Yeah, it's basically refusing to repent. If you are about to do something you know is sinful, and you do it anyways, and after that, you refuse to repent, assuming God's already forgiven you for it, that's the unpardonable sin.

Likewise, if you truly believe that God will never forgive you for your sins, and refuse to repent, because you believe God will say "no," that's the unpardonable sin.

However, if in both these cases, you turn to God with perfect contrition, and beg for His forgiveness, you are forgiven.

Now, this is an overly simple explanation of the unpardonable sin, but you get the picture, as long you turn to God and believe in His mercy, you will be fine.

I just looked up the six forms of the unforgivable sin, and I forgot one additional aspect of the unforgivable sin, spiritual envy, wishing ill on someone for having more grace, we see that with the Pharisees. Now again, this doesn't mean that, if you do that, or have that, you cannot be forgiven, it just means that doing that will lead towards a place, where you will not repent.

 

[JesusLovesOurLady]

I just stepped in an ant mound trying to read cf. I just feel like crying. I have such hopeless anxiety and then people say despair is the unpardonable sin and straight from the scriptures.... speaking against.... I'm scared and just feel like everything is wrong.

It's only unforgivable, if you stay in that state, and don't turn to God.

 

[DeerGlow]

It's only unforgivable, if you stay in that state, and don't turn to God.

But where do you get that when it says speaks against?

 

[Winken]

So when I have committed sins like I can be forgiven later that's unforgivable? And being afraid I'm not forgiven?

DeerGlow ........ The unpardonable sin is to reject Jesus as your Savior. You simply never become a Christian. If you never become a Christian, the price Jesus paid at the Cross doesn't work for you. YOU, however, are a Christian. You have nothing to fear. Nothing. Your mind, will and emotions are playing tricks on you. Your Spiritual Nature, empowered by the Holy Spirit, you received when you became a Christian. Nothing, no one, no misguided post in these forums, can take your salvation away from you. Not now, not ever. You travel with your parents rejoicing in this Truth. It is all of God's Amazing Grace. Be blessed in Him.

 

[SpiritofaDove]

Deerglow, to me, if you are here still scared and seeking, it means you still have God. If you had lost God and the Holy Spirit within you, you wouldn't be scared, or feel the need to even come here and ask for prayers. You are okay. I'm going to continue to pray for you. Don't worry. I pray the Lord calms those racing negative thoughts. He really is a God of love. He's a good Father and he doesn't want you to fear. Praying for you. ((hugs))

 

[JesusLovesOurLady]

But where do you get that when it says speaks against?

Give me a moment, to look this up, I'll explain.

I assume it has more to do with the attitude of the Pharisees, not the act itself

 

[DeerGlow]

Give me a moment, to look this up, I'll explain.

I assume it has more to do with the attitude of the Pharisees, not the act itself

I have heard protestants explain it as the Pharisees were hard hearted, God appeared in the flesh before them and they refused him and cared more about men's opinions and their standings.

 

[DeerGlow]

DeerGlow ........ The unpardonable sin is to reject Jesus as your Savior. You simply never become a Christian. If you never become a Christian, the price Jesus paid at the Cross doesn't work for you. YOU, however, are a Christian. You have nothing to fear. Nothing. Your mind, will and emotions are playing tricks on you. Your Spiritual Nature, empowered by the Holy Spirit, you received when you became a Christian. Nothing, no one, no misguided post in these forums, can take your salvation away from you. Not now, not ever. You travel with your parents rejoicing in this Truth. It is all of God's Amazing Grace. Be blessed in Him.

It's like someone hit a reset button and I'm just as scared as I was months ago when I was new here.

 

[Pilgrim]

Psalms 32

 

[Winken]

It's like someone hit a reset button and I'm just as scared as I was months ago when I was new here.

Well, reset that erroneous button. 1 John 1:9. You don't recite 1 John 1:9 out of fear you have apostasized or have committed the unpardonable sin. 1 John 1:9 is there to clear your mind of doubt and fear while establishing that you are saved and secure.

 

[Winken]

Psalms 32

Thank You, Mr. O. Timely and on target. Blessings!