Are you, Introvert vs extrovert qualities.

[mindfulzen]

I don't remember what test I took that gave me the percentage. It was an online test. I've taken several over the years and the results are always the same. I read a profile of my personality type, INTP, and it was scary how well they knew me. I remember one question from that test: Would you rather go to a party or stay home and read a good book. My answer was a resounding yes, I would stay home with a good book. I have a real hard time being in crowds. I just get very anxious and feel that I need to get away. I can stand it for a few hours but then I have to get going. Part of that is that I don't like to sit still for long. I've got so many things I want to do and accomplish. I hate small talk, that is true. I'm perfectly happy for days and days without other people around. I could seriously have a chance at winning that alone show where they go out into some really remote wilderness as long as I could take a few woodworking tools. I'd be so involved in building things and projects that I'd probably be annoyed when the boat came to pick me up after I won. But I'm not done with my cabin yet! Come back in a month. I'm not jesting here. But, even I, as introverted as I am, would not want to live that way permanently. I do value relationships with others. I'd be rejuvenated and recharged for a long time after that is all. Introvert vs. extrovert just means you recharge your batteries differently. My wife is about 50/50. I can tell when she needs to have social time with others. She can tell when I need to withdraw.

So I don't know how much value there is in such tests. I took one in high school that was to help you choose a career. It said that I should be an airplane mechanic. That would be one of the most horrific jobs for me. First I'm horrible at mechanical things like engines and repairing things. Second I have OCD and my main obsession is that I will hurt someone by accident. I remember once on a construction job I had to set up a huge scaffolding. I was so worried that I had forgotten a brace or a pin and the whole thing would come crashing down with people on it that I couldn't sleep and had to drive back to the job site in the middle of the night to check. Of course, as soon as I got home I had those same fears again. So you can imagine what I would be like if I was responsible for airplane engines, LOL. My symptoms have waned over the years except for one. There isn't a night that goes by that I'm not worried about my shop burning down. I wake up every night in a panic and have to check. I've learned to live with it I guess. Maybe because I work at home and so don't worry that I've left a light on or a propane heater on that will burn the Jobsite down.

Haha, regarding the planestuff and triplechecking. I was also like that before. , but not anymore. It actually went away once I became christian. Along with other stuff too, very interesting to me. Depression also went away. I was on antidepressants for like 20 years. To make me stress down, concentrate, follow through and finish stuff, make decisions, etc. Did not work, and funnily enough at my darkest hoursome years ago, I stopped taking them, and then I changed and started doing stuff, finishing, being present in my life, facing my fears, standing up for myself, did not get downhearted over negative comments, etc.So, the depressants was a wall for me, that may have been useful when I did get them to mellow out and be able to go to college, but I should have gone off them some years later. Should not be permanent.

For me, life has at least 4 phases, regarding depression or happiness. Was happy as a kid, never remember a worry or care, not a problem. Got lost on the mountain with some cousins and siblings, 4 older ones, 1 younger, and instead of being constructive and faning out and search for our parents, they paniced and ran around like headless chicken and yelled and screamed after a while, one by one. I never did, was logical instead and calm.

Then I got a bang on the head, cracked my brain, so I had surgery. Was a swelling of the brain and other stuff. So I could not go to school or play sports for a while at 9 years old I think. Since I almost died, I got treated like I was fragile after that, so of course I felt estranged from them, when they treated me differently, and I felt very much segregated out of the family and at school. And had real diagnosis of concentrationproblems, fatigueissues when reading and studying, so I got problems at school when getting back. So I got to go home when I was exhausted. Not being able to do what you previously could, does make you depressed. Failing in school, does make you depressed. Should probably have gotten it then

got it 10 years later after some failed schooling and squandering all my money. When I also got disability. And a shrink that did many cognetive tests on me, IQtest, and aptitudetests to see where my strengths were, and where my limitations were. To get approved aa schoolplan at college. So, since my IQ was above average, but my mindset was all messed up in the cognitive tests regarding selflove, confidence, making good choices, we worked some on that. For years, so I know the tests, I had the extended versions, and went through the results with my psychologist who explained it all. Got sort of a personal repore with her, met her at a party once at my house, which freaked me out. And without being totally direct, she toldme the point of tests were to get people to seek help, before they had issues, so they could deal with it preventive, nip it in the bud. But this is public healthcare, and we do preventive care mostly. Do not push pills like in the states. Pharma has no power, we are customers of the public option, they pay most of our drugbills.