Are these even obsessions anymore?

[tripletiger1200]

Lately my obsessive thoughts have taken on a darker tone. By darker I mean that before I could tell when the thoughts were intrusive and get to the point that I could kind of relax because I knew that I didn't really believe them, but now it's like I'm actually welcoming the thoughts, and they've intertwined themselves with my logic. If i try to reason myself out of them I end up at another blasphemous conclusion, so I have to abandon any sort of logical thought to ensure that I don't think the thoughts. This is a problem, because before I had relatively simple triggers where as now everything triggers things. It's only by God's grace that I'm even able to write this.
Has anyone else had this problem? Where intrusive thoughts start to feel like they're purposeful thoughts and that they're so ingrained in your head that you can't seperate fact from fiction?

 

[babegirl111]

Honey, I know exactly what you mean, but you must remember: ITS ALL OCD!!! I mean you have literally had these thoughts day by day for a very long time, how could they not seem like there on purpose?? It's an illness and its not your fault. Trying to reason with yourself only makes them worse and it does nothing but bring on more bad thoughts. You have to ignore them no matter how hard it is and believe me I know its hard. I have been blessed to have overcome my illness and with a great doctor I have been able to understand what my illness truly is. You will overcome it. God will never leave you honey

 

[OCD=Owie]

I agree with babiegirl111. Your OCD changes, and if you've beaten it in one area of life, it can manifest itself in another and completely throw you off. In this case, it's trying to make you think that, because you are now ignoring the thoughts, that you are now actually accepting those horrible thoughts.

In the words of Admiral Ackbar, "IT'S A TRAP!" Don't fall for it!