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I've had to deal with it since I was in high school. Arguably, middle school, but it hadn't gotten bad enough yet to become noticeable then.
In my case it's a slow, simmering anxiety. And after months of this, and in the presence of certain triggers, it would spark severe panic attacks and emotional breakdowns. The difference being that the panic attacks were more severe, causing paralysis and loss of facial control (which resulted in multiple occasions of the school calling paramedics), whereas the breakdowns were less severe instances where I still could move, but I'd become hysterical (one instance was so bad that the sound I was making was not so much crying as it was some kind of wailing). In both cases, it resulted in being drained and feeling numb or mentally hazy and tired.
The stress caused me to lose weight - I dropped to 115lbs. during sophomore year, when the situation was at its worst. I was put on paroxetine (Paxil) for all of 2002, the earliest part of that with a dosage that was too high and caused extreme drowsiness (which in turn caused me to fall asleep in class, and my grades to bottom out, leading to being ejected from the academic program I was in, which is still causing ripple effects). I was sent to three different psychologists in four years. I developed an aversion to being around sharp objects.
After high school, the constant, daily stresses went away, so the attacks mostly disappeared. About a year ago the specific triggers from high school got plucked again and I spent several days teetering right on the edge of having an attack, followed by weeks and months of residual anxiety and depression arising from it.
The most obvious coping mechanism I'd use in those times is to get out of the house, since the scenery and trying to control my breathing can help to calm me down. I also throw myself into hobbies more intensely during those times since that helps me focus on something else (in high school this is how I discovered I liked video editing, and having a creative outlet is therapeutic in its own right).
In my case it's a slow, simmering anxiety. And after months of this, and in the presence of certain triggers, it would spark severe panic attacks and emotional breakdowns. The difference being that the panic attacks were more severe, causing paralysis and loss of facial control (which resulted in multiple occasions of the school calling paramedics), whereas the breakdowns were less severe instances where I still could move, but I'd become hysterical (one instance was so bad that the sound I was making was not so much crying as it was some kind of wailing). In both cases, it resulted in being drained and feeling numb or mentally hazy and tired.
The stress caused me to lose weight - I dropped to 115lbs. during sophomore year, when the situation was at its worst. I was put on paroxetine (Paxil) for all of 2002, the earliest part of that with a dosage that was too high and caused extreme drowsiness (which in turn caused me to fall asleep in class, and my grades to bottom out, leading to being ejected from the academic program I was in, which is still causing ripple effects). I was sent to three different psychologists in four years. I developed an aversion to being around sharp objects.
After high school, the constant, daily stresses went away, so the attacks mostly disappeared. About a year ago the specific triggers from high school got plucked again and I spent several days teetering right on the edge of having an attack, followed by weeks and months of residual anxiety and depression arising from it.
The most obvious coping mechanism I'd use in those times is to get out of the house, since the scenery and trying to control my breathing can help to calm me down. I also throw myself into hobbies more intensely during those times since that helps me focus on something else (in high school this is how I discovered I liked video editing, and having a creative outlet is therapeutic in its own right).
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was diagnosed about a year ago.