I hope most of you know the biblical story of Job. Job was a very rich man, he had a good family, loved God, and had the world at his fingertips. However, one day, satan was talking to God, and God told satan that he would let him screw with Job, just play with his mind a little. So satan takes away everything that Job loved. Job was left with nothing, his wealth was stolen, his servants were killed, every last one of his children were killed, and Job himself was diseased. In the end, God replaces all of Job's wealth because Job never cursed God.
However, I want to talk about this just for a second. God was testing Job to see if he could take it, and He wanted to show satan that he is still very much in control. This makes a little sense, but not really. Here is an example, What if there was a all knowing head scientist leading a project and he let some stupid moron come in and play with his experiment. Let's say that the emperiment has to do with rats. The head scientist says, sure you can poison my rats, you can take away their food, and kill their family, just don't kill them. This is the way that I feel when I read Job, like some play thing. The head scientist has complete power, yet he doesn't stop the bad.
Yet another point is that material things are not that important, and this part of the story doesn't bother me. However, the death of Job's children makes me sick. What did they do? Was it their purpose just to die in some experiment? Were they just play things? Some of them must have known God. But yet he didn't even speak about letting satan kill every last one of them. Then it angers me that God just replaced the children at the end of the story, like the second batch was better.
I am not trying to get anyone to second guess their beliefs. Still seek after God, and have a relationship with him, because He loves you. But I am severely depressed. Would God just let me die? Would he not even weep over my demise? I know that I am no better than Job's kids. Is it my purpose in life to just worry, fear, cry out, have trouble sleeping, sin, lust, curse, hope, dream, fall short, die? To tell you all the true, I wish I would have died at birth, just like Job wished.
However, I want to talk about this just for a second. God was testing Job to see if he could take it, and He wanted to show satan that he is still very much in control. This makes a little sense, but not really. Here is an example, What if there was a all knowing head scientist leading a project and he let some stupid moron come in and play with his experiment. Let's say that the emperiment has to do with rats. The head scientist says, sure you can poison my rats, you can take away their food, and kill their family, just don't kill them. This is the way that I feel when I read Job, like some play thing. The head scientist has complete power, yet he doesn't stop the bad.
Yet another point is that material things are not that important, and this part of the story doesn't bother me. However, the death of Job's children makes me sick. What did they do? Was it their purpose just to die in some experiment? Were they just play things? Some of them must have known God. But yet he didn't even speak about letting satan kill every last one of them. Then it angers me that God just replaced the children at the end of the story, like the second batch was better.
I am not trying to get anyone to second guess their beliefs. Still seek after God, and have a relationship with him, because He loves you. But I am severely depressed. Would God just let me die? Would he not even weep over my demise? I know that I am no better than Job's kids. Is it my purpose in life to just worry, fear, cry out, have trouble sleeping, sin, lust, curse, hope, dream, fall short, die? To tell you all the true, I wish I would have died at birth, just like Job wished.