Hey all, i used to be really chubby in middle school and was made fun of a LOT because of it.. But when I got into HS I joined cross-country and may as well have stopped eating...I ate as little as I could, just enough not to look suspicious or anything and now I'm a senior this year 17 years old, 5' 11", and only weight 110 pounds....which is SUPER underweight for my hight and age.. Yet I still feel I'm fat so I eat very little, and if I eat over a certain amount I can't keep it down.. I need help and I know it... /:
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So then thats the 1st step! Knowing and reaching out! Which means you want help! But it is scary! I know have been still am but have gained some! But i am older and know what it can do to your health at any age!
Can i ask you a question or 2?
Arent ur parents family, concerned? I know i would be with those numbers!
Who can you reach out to? School? Youth pastor? Friend? Parent? Relative? Someone?
I will come back to see if you have responded!
Can i ask you a question or 2?
Arent ur parents family, concerned? I know i would be with those numbers!
Who can you reach out to? School? Youth pastor? Friend? Parent? Relative? Someone?
I will come back to see if you have responded!
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Think as food as a "must have" you really have to eat and drink properly everyday of your life. Do you like any foods??
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Hi there MinisterChristian 
Welcome to CF
The thing is with Anorexia, Is when you say think of of as a must have or you really need to "eat" """"everyday""" thats like saying to me or her,,,, you just have gained agazilllliioooonnnnnn lbbbsss .....
thats unfortunatley who it so messes with your mind. one word like food turns that little paragraph into that whole twisted thing! Yet you meant so well.... sad huh?
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The thing is with Anorexia, Is when you say think of of as a must have or you really need to "eat" """"everyday""" thats like saying to me or her,,,, you just have gained agazilllliioooonnnnnn lbbbsss .....
thats unfortunatley who it so messes with your mind. one word like food turns that little paragraph into that whole twisted thing! Yet you meant so well.... sad huh?
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Hey!
I'm Rebekah, and I used to have a real issue with food...I used to be anorexic even. Even when I was TINY, almost to the point of death, I used to see myself as fat.
I understand exactly what you're feeling. And I know it doesn't feel fun. I want you to have peace in your soul and an abundant life.
Even little things that people say can turn your world upside down, even when they mean the best. But what's most important is God's truth. Ignore what the world says, we're all just human beings after all.
I have a blog which I write specifically for people with an eating disorder, and if you have the time, take a look at my very first post.
The blog is: fearfullyandwonderfullymade.co.uk/
I'm not good with words, but I hope it will bring you some encouragement.
With love,
Rebekah.
I'm Rebekah, and I used to have a real issue with food...I used to be anorexic even. Even when I was TINY, almost to the point of death, I used to see myself as fat.
I understand exactly what you're feeling. And I know it doesn't feel fun. I want you to have peace in your soul and an abundant life.
Even little things that people say can turn your world upside down, even when they mean the best. But what's most important is God's truth. Ignore what the world says, we're all just human beings after all.
I have a blog which I write specifically for people with an eating disorder, and if you have the time, take a look at my very first post.
The blog is: fearfullyandwonderfullymade.co.uk/
I'm not good with words, but I hope it will bring you some encouragement.
With love,
Rebekah.
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Hi,
I'm anorexic too. I always try to eat as little as possible, the only food I keep inside me is salad...I also binge and purge...
How are you now, KnightsPaintball? Did you get any help?
dfly
I'm anorexic too. I always try to eat as little as possible, the only food I keep inside me is salad...I also binge and purge...
How are you now, KnightsPaintball? Did you get any help?
dfly
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Hi everyone,I'm a recovering anorexic too,my name is Danielle.I first got sick when I was fifteen and was diagnosed at seventeen,I'm nineteen now and a year into recovery. It's a tough road,but you CAN overcome this. The first thing I would tell you to do is just make an appointment with your general doctor and have them do a workup of all of your vitals,and check your blood. reaching out to my grandmother who is a christian is what saved my life. I didn't have a period for three years.(tmi,sorry!) and this is dangerous for your bones.also my liver enzymes were high. it took returning to a healthy weight but my body bounced back pretty well,I feel so much better. it's till a struggle but it is getting easier everyday.the sooner you get help the easier it is to recover. i had to deal with the reasons why I had a problem,which had to do with my living situation and abuse,but i am in a safe place now and recovering.I think it is so important to resolve the reasons why you developed the ed in the first place,don't try and bury them away. i will pray for all of you. please reach out to someone okay? lean on Jesus,he loves you so much. I'm always here if anyone wants to talk about it. i hope you feel better soon,all of you.
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Hi, it's great that you are in recovery! Are you in therapy or are you doing it by yourself? Keep up the good work!
Praying for you too.
Praying for you too.
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Hi dfly. I started out in therapy.I think it is important to first talk to doctors about your physical health and make sure nothing is really wrong(have your heart checked,that kind of thing) and then also go to therapy for sure,to cover every aspect of the ed,and help cope with the reasons why you got sick.My primary care doctor and my therapist and my nutritionist all dealt with me,lol. I'm not in therapy now,although I probably should be to avoid relapse,but I have been stable for a while now. I quit going once I reached a healthy weight and my doctor said I was stable,because it is so expensive. thank you for your prayers!! how are you doing dealing with it? God bless!
I started out in therapy.I think it is important to first talk to doctors about your physical health and make sure nothing is really wrong(have your heart checked,that kind of thing) and then also go to therapy for sure,to cover every aspect of the ed,and help cope with the reasons why you got sick.My primary care doctor and my therapist and my nutritionist all dealt with me,lol. I'm not in therapy now,although I probably should be to avoid relapse,but I have been stable for a while now. I quit going once I reached a healthy weight and my doctor said I was stable,because it is so expensive. thank you for your prayers!! how are you doing dealing with it? God bless!
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Hi,
thank you for your prayers And your answer. Yes I'm in therapy. But it's going to end soon and he can't help me with the ed...But, I'm going to start a new therapy, I already have an apointment. they know about my ed and hopefully I'll get help there. But at the moment I don't want to change my eating behavior. But I know I have to, and I hope with help I can get motivated to do so.
Praying for you.
thank you for your prayers
And your answer. Yes I'm in therapy. But it's going to end soon and he can't help me with the ed...But, I'm going to start a new therapy, I already have an apointment. they know about my ed and hopefully I'll get help there. But at the moment I don't want to change my eating behavior. But I know I have to, and I hope with help I can get motivated to do so. Praying for you.
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I'll keep praying for you. I know how painful it can be. I struggled for four years.for me,it just hit me one day that I wanted to get better and how much I wanted to be healthy again,and live without the ed,and how it controlled my life,I wanted to be there for my family.I pray that this treatment works for you,and that you know how special you are to God,and how much he loves you and wants you to choose to go to treatment and fight this.I know you can overcome it! keep in touch and let me know if it helps,okay?
I struggled for four years.for me,it just hit me one day that I wanted to get better and how much I wanted to be healthy again,and live without the ed,and how it controlled my life,I wanted to be there for my family.I pray that this treatment works for you,and that you know how special you are to God,and how much he loves you and wants you to choose to go to treatment and fight this.I know you can overcome it! keep in touch and let me know if it helps,okay?
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Thanks so much for your prayers! I really need them. In 2 days I have my first therapy session at this new place and i don't know what its gonna be like...hopefully they can help me with the ed...
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Hey
I had my first (new) therapy session. i talked to a doctor and she was really nice. asked me a lot of things about my eating and about the ocd. then a nurse took my blood. the results are good. I'm still struggling a lot. my thoughts are only about food and my weight..afraid to eat something. eating nothing or binge and purge...it sucks. i want to have a normal life again but then again i don't want to lose the ed...yet. it's crazy.
How are you doing SavedByGraceAndLove and cmjames??
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do you also have an ed?
Love
dfly
I had my first (new) therapy session. i talked to a doctor and she was really nice. asked me a lot of things about my eating and about the ocd. then a nurse took my blood. the results are good. I'm still struggling a lot. my thoughts are only about food and my weight..afraid to eat something. eating nothing or binge and purge...it sucks.
i want to have a normal life again but then again i don't want to lose the ed...yet. it's crazy.How are you doing SavedByGraceAndLove and cmjames??
@cmjames
do you also have an ed?
Love
dfly
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Blessings dfly,
I am glad to hear you went to see a dr and a therapist!
You say you don't want to lose the "ed" but yet your talking about it, aware of it, and at times sick of it i am sure! But its safe! In time, And with God and Prayer whatever it is that is making you focus everything on your weight and food will be brought to light!
God my sister in Christ is NOT this author of confusion and an "ed" is just that,
He does not want you to be afraid to eat, afraid of food, no those are all lies from satan!
It has taken me way to many yrs to come to know this!
And at times i still get attacked but i am now equipted to handled it better!
As long as ikeep my eyes on God i will be ok! Its when i take my eyes off and let the worries of this world let me down that i fall back into my "ed"!
I am here if you ever need to talk!
I am glad to hear you went to see a dr and a therapist!
You say you don't want to lose the "ed" but yet your talking about it, aware of it, and at times sick of it i am sure! But its safe! In time, And with God and Prayer whatever it is that is making you focus everything on your weight and food will be brought to light!
God my sister in Christ is NOT this author of confusion and an "ed" is just that,
He does not want you to be afraid to eat, afraid of food, no those are all lies from satan!
It has taken me way to many yrs to come to know this!
And at times i still get attacked but i am now equipted to handled it better!
As long as ikeep my eyes on God i will be ok! Its when i take my eyes off and let the worries of this world let me down that i fall back into my "ed"!
I am here if you ever need to talk!
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I'm really glad the results are good from your blood test! that's such a good thing,that means there will be less damage which is a great relief! the thing about the ed for me that I struggled with the most was kind of what you are describing I think. when I first got treatment I was terrified and desperately relieved at the same time. I was in denial that I had a problem,but in the back of my mind I knew that I was hurting my body and I was afraid,I felt out of control a lot of the time and just terrified.the ed supplied a false sense of security and control for me and made me feel calmer for awhile,like I had control of something,but then I quickly realized it wasn't me that was really in control,it was this horrible illness.there was like a million feelings going on inside of me when i went to recovery,I think I can imagine how you might be feeling,I remember it well. when she first gave me the diagnosis of anorexia I actually had the worst panic attack I've ever had in my entire life,and I never have had those before,or since then really.I didn't know how I would handle life without having my false "control." even though i knew by that time that it was false,and it was just hurting me instead of helping,and that I needed to deal with my life and the situations that had got me sick in the first place so that I wouldn't "need" my ed anymore,because even though it was hurting me I knew I had gotten sick for a reason and needed to cope with why before I would be able to heal.I was shaking and couldn't breathe,I almost passed out. i know how strong the hold it has on us can be because I wanted to run out of that office and I regretted in that moment getting help. I was really underweight at the time too,and it's so strange,but since I reached a healthy weight,I don't struggle now anywhere near as much as I did when I was really sick. I think it does have to do with brain chemicals maybe? it seems totally backwards but the thinner I got,the more I fell into the control of the disorder and by getting healthy,I freed myself from it. Now instead of being unhealthy,I want to be strong and healthy and feel good instead of sick all the time.I still struggle with my identity in a way-I put so much of who I was into the anorexia it was like it became my identity,it was the most important thing to me,and like you say,all I thought about. I still struggle with that sometimes,but now I am enjoying life more,just the simple things. I'm paying attention to the little things that are beautiful,like every day moments with family. and I'm doing things that interest me,(taking a french class,for example) to help me remember who I am outside this ed. you have to lean on God okay? I'm praying for you. Go to church,pore your heart out to jesus and ask him for help because he understands the pain you are going through and if you lean on Him he will be your rock. I'm always here if you want to talk too okay? I believe in you. love you sisters!-Danielle
praying for everyone and sending lots of love to all of you!
when she first gave me the diagnosis of anorexia I actually had the worst panic attack I've ever had in my entire life,and I never have had those before,or since then really.I didn't know how I would handle life without having my false "control." even though i knew by that time that it was false,and it was just hurting me instead of helping,and that I needed to deal with my life and the situations that had got me sick in the first place so that I wouldn't "need" my ed anymore,because even though it was hurting me I knew I had gotten sick for a reason and needed to cope with why before I would be able to heal.I was shaking and couldn't breathe,I almost passed out. i know how strong the hold it has on us can be because I wanted to run out of that office and I regretted in that moment getting help. I was really underweight at the time too,and it's so strange,but since I reached a healthy weight,I don't struggle now anywhere near as much as I did when I was really sick. I think it does have to do with brain chemicals maybe? it seems totally backwards but the thinner I got,the more I fell into the control of the disorder and by getting healthy,I freed myself from it. Now instead of being unhealthy,I want to be strong and healthy and feel good instead of sick all the time.I still struggle with my identity in a way-I put so much of who I was into the anorexia it was like it became my identity,it was the most important thing to me,and like you say,all I thought about. I still struggle with that sometimes,but now I am enjoying life more,just the simple things. I'm paying attention to the little things that are beautiful,like every day moments with family. and I'm doing things that interest me,(taking a french class,for example) to help me remember who I am outside this ed. you have to lean on God okay? I'm praying for you. Go to church,pore your heart out to jesus and ask him for help because he understands the pain you are going through and if you lean on Him he will be your rock. I'm always here if you want to talk too okay? I believe in you. love you sisters!-Daniellepraying for everyone and sending lots of love to all of you!
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just always remember you are not alone okay? you can overcome this,and you are worth it!keep us posted okay?
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