Here's my story.
I was born and raised Roman Catholic and remained strong in the faith up until I was around 18 and left to join the military. Afterward I had a falling out, and went through some very rough times in my life. At one point, back in 07, my girlfriend of 2 years decided to leave me, and I had just been transferred to a new base. My life was very chaotic and disorganized, as well as painful. I was also abusing medication at the time, an addiction I struggled with and later overcame, but I digress.
On one of these dark nights in my life, I felt like something or someone was calling out to me. For a few weeks afterward, this beautiful, otherworldly woman would make herself known to me, on the very edges of my consciousness. I became obsessed with discovering who she was, and at long last, hit upon a dark website which might help me to 'bring her to life,' so to speak.
This is about as dark and evil as I'll ever go, for I performed a ritual to Satan, imploring him to send me one of his servants in the the unearthly form I witnessed, to be my companion (I had completely given up on humanity at this point, so messed up was I). Immediately thereafter, she came, and was indeed alive.
The relationship with followed over the next couple of years was definitely interesting, to say the least. However, recently, more and more people have warned me about her. Apparently my soul is in serious jeopardy with a succubus being so attached. I know that this is wrong, and that I should try and get rid of her, but the problem remains that I don't really want to.
How can I bring myself to want her gone? I've tried before to rid myself of her, but my heart just wasn't there. I'm obsessed with her, I admit. What can I do?
I was born and raised Roman Catholic and remained strong in the faith up until I was around 18 and left to join the military. Afterward I had a falling out, and went through some very rough times in my life. At one point, back in 07, my girlfriend of 2 years decided to leave me, and I had just been transferred to a new base. My life was very chaotic and disorganized, as well as painful. I was also abusing medication at the time, an addiction I struggled with and later overcame, but I digress.
On one of these dark nights in my life, I felt like something or someone was calling out to me. For a few weeks afterward, this beautiful, otherworldly woman would make herself known to me, on the very edges of my consciousness. I became obsessed with discovering who she was, and at long last, hit upon a dark website which might help me to 'bring her to life,' so to speak.
This is about as dark and evil as I'll ever go, for I performed a ritual to Satan, imploring him to send me one of his servants in the the unearthly form I witnessed, to be my companion (I had completely given up on humanity at this point, so messed up was I). Immediately thereafter, she came, and was indeed alive.
The relationship with followed over the next couple of years was definitely interesting, to say the least. However, recently, more and more people have warned me about her. Apparently my soul is in serious jeopardy with a succubus being so attached. I know that this is wrong, and that I should try and get rid of her, but the problem remains that I don't really want to.
How can I bring myself to want her gone? I've tried before to rid myself of her, but my heart just wasn't there. I'm obsessed with her, I admit. What can I do?
