an great experience

[Thewarmwind]

Hi

I'm new here, and just wanted to share something with you...

Something difficult has been going on in my life for quite some time now, and I have been just turning my head away from the pain, and it has been building up inside me. I lost will to do anything, to go on, nothing seemed to matter anymore. I was such a nihilist, and was quite angry at everything. I never really lost faight in god existence and his way, I just lost faight in myself, and my part in gods plan.

Then yesterday, all the pain that has been building up inside me has sort of surfaced, and I got some kind of nervous brakedown.
I was crying and crying, and I even though about ending my life.

Then I said. God, please help me with this, I can't take it anymore, I'm so hollow, I'm dying, I'll do anything, just reach out and pull me out of this hell. And then I prayed and prayed, in desperation.
I prayed for life, I said I wanted to live, not die, and not like that, not by my own hand. I prayed for healing, for light, to feel just a little bit of the devine love, I was so thirsty for.

And then I went out to take a long walk that lasted hours.
And I still prayed...
And then there was a storm outside, thunder, and ice started falling, and I got myself in a really wet situation, I was driping water, my jeans were soaked in water. And I sort of laughed at myself, how wet I was, and how this is just my luck, though I didn't mind the rain and ice so much, I like it.
And that sort of cheared me up a bit, and when the storm was over,
I found myself on a big field, and I turned behind and I saw a HUGE rainbow all over the sky, It was beautifull.

And I though. After every storm there is a rainbow and sunshine. And maybe just maybe god will give me strenght to go on. And I did find strenght, I though, I'm going to fight now, fight for that rainbow to come. I'm going to be open and search for the light.
And the pain went away. My prayers have been answered, in such a pretty way.
Of course I've god a lot of healing to do now, but what I have now is a purpuse, a strenght, a bright star to follow through life.
I was lost in the mist, and as it is in the mist, a dim light seems to be comming from everywhere, and you can't see the source, and I was lost. But now I see a light, that I have promised to follow, and god has given me strenght to do that.

Now I don't know wheather god gives signs to people or is it just in movies, but I consider that storm and rainbow a personal sign, one way or another.

I just know that, without belief in god and Jesus, I would have just droped and died, because I was dying inside, and nothing of this world could ever have conforted me or given me strenght.

I just wanted to share this, any similar experiences?

 

[Onlythingavailable]

That is wonderful, thanks for sharing. Praised be God and His miraculous ways.

Your experience is almost a little like Noah and his ark. The world was drenched, like you was, and then after that came the rainbow with the promise of a new future.

God loves you very much.

 

[bfly]

Hi

I'm new here, and just wanted to share something with you...

Something difficult has been going on in my life for quite some time now, and I have been just turning my head away from the pain, and it has been building up inside me. I lost will to do anything, to go on, nothing seemed to matter anymore. I was such a nihilist, and was quite angry at everything. I never really lost faight in god existence and his way, I just lost faight in myself, and my part in gods plan.

Then yesterday, all the pain that has been building up inside me has sort of surfaced, and I got some kind of nervous brakedown.
I was crying and crying, and I even though about ending my life.

Then I said. God, please help me with this, I can't take it anymore, I'm so hollow, I'm dying, I'll do anything, just reach out and pull me out of this hell. And then I prayed and prayed, in desperation.
I prayed for life, I said I wanted to live, not die, and not like that, not by my own hand. I prayed for healing, for light, to feel just a little bit of the devine love, I was so thirsty for.

And then I went out to take a long walk that lasted hours.
And I still prayed...
And then there was a storm outside, thunder, and ice started falling, and I got myself in a really wet situation, I was driping water, my jeans were soaked in water. And I sort of laughed at myself, how wet I was, and how this is just my luck, though I didn't mind the rain and ice so much, I like it.
And that sort of cheared me up a bit, and when the storm was over,
I found myself on a big field, and I turned behind and I saw a HUGE rainbow all over the sky, It was beautifull.

And I though. After every storm there is a rainbow and sunshine. And maybe just maybe god will give me strenght to go on. And I did find strenght, I though, I'm going to fight now, fight for that rainbow to come. I'm going to be open and search for the light.
And the pain went away. My prayers have been answered, in such a pretty way.
Of course I've god a lot of healing to do now, but what I have now is a purpuse, a strenght, a bright star to follow through life.
I was lost in the mist, and as it is in the mist, a dim light seems to be comming from everywhere, and you can't see the source, and I was lost. But now I see a light, that I have promised to follow, and god has given me strenght to do that.

Now I don't know wheather god gives signs to people or is it just in movies, but I consider that storm and rainbow a personal sign, one way or another.

I just know that, without belief in god and Jesus, I would have just droped and died, because I was dying inside, and nothing of this world could ever have conforted me or given me strenght.

I just wanted to share this, any similar experiences?

Praise God, He hears our desperate calls, He answers in ways that only someone that knows Him would know that was your answer.

God is so Good. I am so proud you have seen the rainbow, it is truly a wonderful light from God.

You cling to that and don't let man or satan make you think otherwise.

Tho you may walk through the shawdow of death, God will be with you. He will walk beside you or carry you, He will never leave you. When you find yourself alone, just remember God has not moved. You have. You belong to Him and He will nto let you go. You may wander around , but Praise God, You are His and He will bring you back.

May you day be filled with the glory of the Sonshine and let it fill your temple.

Hello and Welcome

We are so proud to have you join our family.
May your time here be spent well and you find all your answers.
Please come often and invite all your friends.
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Love, Joy, Peace, Kindness, Patience, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and Self-Control.
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be with your spirit.

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[Bunn]

God is ever so amazing. I am really happy for you!
I too was in the darkness... being followed around by a big black cloud for years and years of my life. But within just days God helped me turn my life around and gave me a whole new hope and something to look forward to.

God bless you... Now you must stay strong in your faith. Things will try to bring you back down. But just know that God is with you and He will make things alright. Sometimes it may not seem like it... but He knows when the time is best for you. And He will pull through for you in those situations.

Keep on prayin', he's hearing you!

 

[Thewarmwind]

Yea, today, the day after, I felt so good. I haven't felt so strong in a long time, but not that kind of egoistic strenght feeling, but a feeling of strength that is not your own, but is chanelled through you through faith. It's gods strength.
I have really been healed in these two days. I'm really happy now, and hopefull.
Of course, the challange is to resist temptations in the future. It is so easy to just let go and fall, too easy, that's what it's so dangerous.

I've also sort of figured out the way "the beast" works. It works through your own insecurity and confusion. It never strikes directly at you, never revealing itself, it always tricks you. The evil is almost never obvious as we would like it to be, it always presents itself as being something logical and good.

I've been tempted today, with some depressive thoughts, but I've resisted them, and right now I feel like a new person.

Whenever I start feeling weak again, I remember two story of David and Goliath, and how seemingly impossible tasks can be acomplished through faith. And really I knew this before, because once I have been accomplishing great things in my life through faith, and have learned that lesson well.
But what made me fall again is one other lesson I haven't quite lerned then, and that was "Lord giveth, Lord taketh". Now I've learned to stop being a "mercenary", stop exchanging faith for good things that come in my life, because faith is not something you trade, it should be always there, not ever expecting to be rewarded.
You can't just bail out of the relationship with god if things start getting worse.

Thanks everyone for their posts. This seems like a great forum, lots of compassion and love, less judgement.

 

[UnitynLove]

My friend let me tell you I was in your situations. Feeling like I couldn't go on another day, feeling hopeless, feeling like giving up. But my God is faithful. I've had this situation that has been troubling my soul for 9 months. But today, May 12 I was delivered from that situation!!! Glory to God. God has shown me that he is faithful and has shown me that I am stronger than I think I am. I praise him. So I just want to encourage you that no matter the situation, know that Jesus is always there to help you, your not going through your situation alone his is bearing the burden with you. When the enemy come against you start praising God, or singing a praise and God will handle you situation for you. I am so joyful right now to see God's power at work. Trust in him thats what he has taught me, to trust in him. Give up trying to handle it yourself and give it all to God!! Rejoice in the lord always and again I say, rejoice!!!

 

[Thewarmwind]

My friend let me tell you I was in your situations. Feeling like I couldn't go on another day, feeling hopeless, feeling like giving up. But my God is faithful. I've had this situation that has been troubling my soul for 9 months. But today, May 12 I was delivered from that situation!!! Glory to God. God has shown me that he is faithful and has shown me that I am stronger than I think I am. I praise him. So I just want to encourage you that no matter the situation, know that Jesus is always there to help you, your not going through your situation alone his is bearing the burden with you. When the enemy come against you start praising God, or singing a praise and God will handle you situation for you. I am so joyful right now to see God's power at work. Trust in him thats what he has taught me, to trust in him. Give up trying to handle it yourself and give it all to God!! Rejoice in the lord always and again I say, rejoice!!!

You make a valid point about "handling yourself"

I remember, at the begining of these trials, I said to god: I don't want to burden you, just help me survive, give me bread, and I will handle this issue, this emotional issue myself, because it's easier to handle that than to handle existential problems.
Well I was wrong, one can not have wounded soul , and still be able to survive in this world. So of course I started loosing concentration, motivation, and I started failing on every field.
Then I realised that as much as I thought it to be possible, I COULD NOT handle pain by myself, I simply HAD to turn to god, but when I tried to do that, I realised by this time I had turned quite away from him.
But like I said, I was reborn two days ago, like a new person, I feel gods presence now in every little thing I do.

 

[RomanPrincess]

that's a very nice story..halieuaha!God is good..i believe it is a way God was speaking to you and telling you not to worry and don't give up. God knows the plans he has for you and they are for good.Keep focusing on him.
When ever you begin to feel weak again...remember your rainy walk and the rainbow and how God has worked in your life in the past.Your faith will grow stronger n stronger.