well here goes I need advice on what to do in this situation the place im at is not the same place anymore.
about 3 months ago a girl i know gave me a pot brownie and it made me freak out im not exactly sure what it is i did but i kinda went nuts and blacked out i woke up in the police station when i walked out there was a bright white light and warmth and then i looked back down and i walked home from there its about 7 miles. i ended up being like kinda messed up or possessed or something and crazy stuff happened at my moms house they took me to a mental ward and then a behavior clinic they finally let me out and gave me some hardcore anti-psychotics one is callled haloperidal it was making me like a zombie i was drooling without knowing it i was walking stiffed up and so they weened me off the stuff im back to normal but things on this earth are not the same.
there is garbage everywhere and signs have fell over and no one has picked them up. the television said it snowed in frisco i got a hold of my friend who lived there and he said it didnt snow in frisco. also my family doesnt seem the same and ive been being looked at strangely by people. also my family has these sharp fingernails some of them are broke off.
the on off on light switches has switched around to off on theres mailboxes in places where there are no homes at.
i think im in some sort of limbo or purgatory or the outskirts of something else im really tired and dont know what to do i need advice....
nothing can change the fact that light switches are upside down now. the weather pattern is wack. theres a cat that i havent seen in months that came back we predicted that the cat was dead. they cooked the turkey this thanksgiving upside down. theres garbage and ciggarette butts everywhere i go. its never this dirty theres just piles of garbage slung all over the streets. there are signs that used to not be where they are. theres weird [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] going on at the place im staying things are getting moved around and stuff. the other day i found a cow skull in the yard. there is no cows anywhere near me. also i picked up a peice of a apple peel on the ground in the living room and we had no green apples. i also heard satans laughter a few times and theres something to do with dogs and brands of clothing people wear like i can tell what people are good or bad i have no idea i feel like im going to have to be vegetarian or vegan stay away from meat because im being tempted to eat meat. my mom is wearing this necklace she found that has egyptian on it and then a skull and a lock. there are a bunch of cars parked at places that are abandoned. i hate this no one should have to go through with this. no one talks to me anymore this girl gave me something and it completely defiled me im so [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ed off i was changing my life around and getting healthier and stronger and now out of nowhere im in a worse position than i was before. theres something to do with candles everyone has candles. and every place ive been to is trashed not clean cars drive in circles sometimes...
ive smelled blood and death the first few days i got out of the mental ward. for some reason i feel like this is all in my head that im in some sort of coma or im sitting in a mental ward staring at a wall.
at this point i kinda dont care anymore, however I think theres been something going on thats been going on for a while even prior to the girl giving me a pot brownie however now that I recognize my sins and the person i was im trying to change but i dont know if it matters or not because its like i know why im changing and what not. im really tired i want to go back to the way things were when i didnt know whatever it is now that i know. whatevers going on its not right and i am not back in the place where i was. i honestly think that im am dead and in some dimension universe planet whatever. im thinking about calling hospitals and asking if my body is lying in a coma somewhere so i can try to get back in it.
ive got these black bags showing up under my eyes. i dont sweat anymore. nothing is the same. ever since i took lsd... and ive experienced a ton of de ja vu last summer making me think ive done all of this already before.
i feel like this is all a joke now and everyone is in on it. like the people i once knew and loved are not the people anymore there demons taking form of them.
all i know is no one should ever have to go through with this.
fact is i dont think its schizo the things are real. family members wearing snake skin printed outfits. people showing up at my moms that ive never met before. i keep getting messages about dogs,rattlesnakes,snakes,zombies.
ive also had horrible nightmares. the fact is i dont know if changing my ways will result in redemption all i can do is have faith in jesus christ that he will save me ive been trying to make up for the horrible person that i realize that i was.
first by removing my plugs in my ears now i have holes in my ears. ive also started to dress less revealing i used to wear skinny jeans and tight fitting clothing because i idolized rockstars and was a slave to modern fashion.
ive bell rung for salvation army and im trying to change my diet although i still eat junk food. i think at one point i was possessed.
not really liking the state im in i feel like the demonic forces are trying to drive me nuts into killing myself but i am to strong for that. ive been reading the bible my head really is back to normal its my surroundings and things that have changed... there are movies on tv that make absolutely no sense.
this all happened after taking 2.5 hits of lsd on a paper blotter and i had a vision of my death and being in the morgue and being in my grave then the past 2 years seems like i have been going through some sort of test and i was changing my ways slowly but i was still locked into the same filth you know masturbating to porn having impure thoughts lusting after women jealousy,pure laziness, carelessness of others. honestly im going through a reflection of who i was and im trying to change my ways.
i basically lied to a psychologist telling them i was stressed out and didnt like being around people and i even acted kind of [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] so i could get SSDI because i didnt want to work or go to school.
even though thats not entirely untrue about the stress and anxiety i get when i worked a job at wal mart. i did get kind of suicidal because i wasnt happy working that job and i dont like being bossed around.
i was getting in shape before they put me in the mental ward. i blame myself for my brothers mental state.
i think satan wants me to think that i had sold my soul but i never did i had already given my soul to jesus christ when i was younger. but now knowing what i know its constantly going through my head... i dont know if my family is my family anymore. i have no rage i have no desire to do anything crazy the first few days i did. the world is not the same since i got out thats what is bothering me.
time seems like it is going faster.
im having horrible demonic nightmares.
and i have these black circles under my eyes.
so im thinking i never got baptized. i also think maybe i should get a exorcism what do you all think please give me a hand.
about 3 months ago a girl i know gave me a pot brownie and it made me freak out im not exactly sure what it is i did but i kinda went nuts and blacked out i woke up in the police station when i walked out there was a bright white light and warmth and then i looked back down and i walked home from there its about 7 miles. i ended up being like kinda messed up or possessed or something and crazy stuff happened at my moms house they took me to a mental ward and then a behavior clinic they finally let me out and gave me some hardcore anti-psychotics one is callled haloperidal it was making me like a zombie i was drooling without knowing it i was walking stiffed up and so they weened me off the stuff im back to normal but things on this earth are not the same.
there is garbage everywhere and signs have fell over and no one has picked them up. the television said it snowed in frisco i got a hold of my friend who lived there and he said it didnt snow in frisco. also my family doesnt seem the same and ive been being looked at strangely by people. also my family has these sharp fingernails some of them are broke off.
the on off on light switches has switched around to off on theres mailboxes in places where there are no homes at.
i think im in some sort of limbo or purgatory or the outskirts of something else im really tired and dont know what to do i need advice....
nothing can change the fact that light switches are upside down now. the weather pattern is wack. theres a cat that i havent seen in months that came back we predicted that the cat was dead. they cooked the turkey this thanksgiving upside down. theres garbage and ciggarette butts everywhere i go. its never this dirty theres just piles of garbage slung all over the streets. there are signs that used to not be where they are. theres weird [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] going on at the place im staying things are getting moved around and stuff. the other day i found a cow skull in the yard. there is no cows anywhere near me. also i picked up a peice of a apple peel on the ground in the living room and we had no green apples. i also heard satans laughter a few times and theres something to do with dogs and brands of clothing people wear like i can tell what people are good or bad i have no idea i feel like im going to have to be vegetarian or vegan stay away from meat because im being tempted to eat meat. my mom is wearing this necklace she found that has egyptian on it and then a skull and a lock. there are a bunch of cars parked at places that are abandoned. i hate this no one should have to go through with this. no one talks to me anymore this girl gave me something and it completely defiled me im so [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ed off i was changing my life around and getting healthier and stronger and now out of nowhere im in a worse position than i was before. theres something to do with candles everyone has candles. and every place ive been to is trashed not clean cars drive in circles sometimes...
ive smelled blood and death the first few days i got out of the mental ward. for some reason i feel like this is all in my head that im in some sort of coma or im sitting in a mental ward staring at a wall.
at this point i kinda dont care anymore, however I think theres been something going on thats been going on for a while even prior to the girl giving me a pot brownie however now that I recognize my sins and the person i was im trying to change but i dont know if it matters or not because its like i know why im changing and what not. im really tired i want to go back to the way things were when i didnt know whatever it is now that i know. whatevers going on its not right and i am not back in the place where i was. i honestly think that im am dead and in some dimension universe planet whatever. im thinking about calling hospitals and asking if my body is lying in a coma somewhere so i can try to get back in it.
ive got these black bags showing up under my eyes. i dont sweat anymore. nothing is the same. ever since i took lsd... and ive experienced a ton of de ja vu last summer making me think ive done all of this already before.
i feel like this is all a joke now and everyone is in on it. like the people i once knew and loved are not the people anymore there demons taking form of them.
all i know is no one should ever have to go through with this.
fact is i dont think its schizo the things are real. family members wearing snake skin printed outfits. people showing up at my moms that ive never met before. i keep getting messages about dogs,rattlesnakes,snakes,zombies.
ive also had horrible nightmares. the fact is i dont know if changing my ways will result in redemption all i can do is have faith in jesus christ that he will save me ive been trying to make up for the horrible person that i realize that i was.
first by removing my plugs in my ears now i have holes in my ears. ive also started to dress less revealing i used to wear skinny jeans and tight fitting clothing because i idolized rockstars and was a slave to modern fashion.
ive bell rung for salvation army and im trying to change my diet although i still eat junk food. i think at one point i was possessed.
not really liking the state im in i feel like the demonic forces are trying to drive me nuts into killing myself but i am to strong for that. ive been reading the bible my head really is back to normal its my surroundings and things that have changed... there are movies on tv that make absolutely no sense.
this all happened after taking 2.5 hits of lsd on a paper blotter and i had a vision of my death and being in the morgue and being in my grave then the past 2 years seems like i have been going through some sort of test and i was changing my ways slowly but i was still locked into the same filth you know masturbating to porn having impure thoughts lusting after women jealousy,pure laziness, carelessness of others. honestly im going through a reflection of who i was and im trying to change my ways.
i basically lied to a psychologist telling them i was stressed out and didnt like being around people and i even acted kind of [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] so i could get SSDI because i didnt want to work or go to school.
even though thats not entirely untrue about the stress and anxiety i get when i worked a job at wal mart. i did get kind of suicidal because i wasnt happy working that job and i dont like being bossed around.
i was getting in shape before they put me in the mental ward. i blame myself for my brothers mental state.
i think satan wants me to think that i had sold my soul but i never did i had already given my soul to jesus christ when i was younger. but now knowing what i know its constantly going through my head... i dont know if my family is my family anymore. i have no rage i have no desire to do anything crazy the first few days i did. the world is not the same since i got out thats what is bothering me.
time seems like it is going faster.
im having horrible demonic nightmares.
and i have these black circles under my eyes.
so im thinking i never got baptized. i also think maybe i should get a exorcism what do you all think please give me a hand.