Am I ashamed of God?? Help!

[patsyjean89]

I have OCD so i might be freaking out more than i should be. I am Christian and I love my lord and savior! I need him right now more than ever! I am going through some tough times and I am constantly praying! However I am scared i am ashamed of God! Everyone knows I am a Christian, and I am not scared or ashamed to talk about God at all! However for instance like if i think about putting "Reading the Bible" or something of that nature on my facebook status....i get scared of what people will think of me! that is something i am struggling with. I care way too much about what people think of me! Its also probably apart of my OCD! So if im scared to write "reading the bible" or something on my facebook because i am scared of what people will think.....does that mean i am ashamed of God and he will leave me? I am so scared! I love God and I need him so badly right now and I am only happy when i know He is with me! Also when I was in high school I had this bag that said "Jesus" on it and i wore it to school. Even though i wore it to school i was really scared what people were thinking about me, like I'm a loser or something! That scares me into thinking I really am ashamed of God and he has left me! writing this scares me so much because there's a bible verse that says if your ashamed of God, God will be ashamed of you!!! I don't want God to be ashamed of me!!! I need him so badly right now! I'm going through tough times right now and I need to know that He is not ashamed of me because I am scared of what people will think of me! Does it sound like i am ashamed of God? Or do i care way to much about what people think of me? ugh I don't know! writing something like "Reading my bible" on my facebook status makes me very uncomfortable, and that scares me because that makes me think I am ashamed of God! Am i ashamed of God!??? That bible verse that says "If your ashamed of God, He will be ashamed of you" scares me to death, because i need Him!!! I need God to answer and hear my prayers and I am deathly afraid he is not listening to me because I am possibly ashamed of him!! I am freaking out! someone please help me!! again I have OCD so I am obsessing about this and it is scaring the crap out of me! I really hope I am not ashamed of God! I want to live happily in God's grace and His love but I'm scared I can't because I'm scared I am ashamed of him! How can I get his feeling to go away! So am I ashamed of God?? Or do I care way to much about what people think of me?? Is God still with me and listening to my prayers even though I feel this way? I mean like I said before I am NOT ashamed to talk about God to other people and I'm NOT ashamed to say I am a Christian! I dont know...I still believe I am ashamed of God for some reason! What do you guys think? Any advice will help!!! I want to be happy in God's love but I can't with this hanging over my head!

P.S I do take medication for my OCD...but small worries still turn into huge ones!

I am so unhappy right now because I feel that God is not with me because I "might" be ashamed of him! I need God to be happy! so my main concern and question is.....Is God still with me? Will He still answer and listen to my prayers even though I could possibly be ashamed of him?? I am so scared! I just want to bury my head and cry! Am I ashamed of God????

 

[omanid]

You need to stop, breathe, and calm yourself down when you start feeling really anxious like this. Nothing you can do will take you away from God and we all learn His ways eventually; you're not the only one that has felt this way. It's possible to overcome.

God bless.

 

[StoneWater]

Being ashamed of Jesus is talking about the end times, as many of the parables were speaking of so people when they got there could understand.

As for not going around telling people you are praying, reading the bible and such, this is often good because for one it can be tempting to get praise for that, and for another it can be entirely misunderstood.

Unbelievers know nothing of the gospels or they would believe, so invariably they would lump you in with their harsh, slanderous stereotypes.

 

[JustUsInChristSettlesAll]

i have the same problem. mine is more of face to face in person type stuff. i started off slow by posting stuff on facebook, which probably doesnt help you but i just want you to know you are not alone. i too have ocd and worry about these types of things. i have times when i dont want to post something because i think people will be like oh there goes that crazy christian again with his christian nonsense. but i think that is to be expected because jesus said he was hated and we will be hated too but to take comfort in the fact that because we are persecuted with him we will be blessed with him. now, thats hard stuff to hear for someone like me who is terrified of even talking to people. anxiety and ocd can be real hard but i try and focus on the things i CAN do and try my best to do the little things because they are important too. 2 corinthians 2:19 says "my grace is sufficient for you, my strength is made perfect in weakness." so while we are weak, jesus is perfect! we are jars of clay, easily broken and not worth a lot but we carry something really special inside of us. its our job to share that with others, whether it be by our words, our actions, or just simple little things like forgiving somebody who cut you off in traffic, or letting somebody in front of you in line at the store. we show christs love for us by showing our love for others and its not always expressed in words. try focusing on the little things you can do and let god work within you. if we focus on him and what we can do he will supply us with what we need. i cant honestly say i have the courage to witness to somebody in person (and the few times i have tried i have screwed up horribly) but his love for us will far exceed any shortcomings we may have. do what you can and let god take care of the rest. because.....philipians 1:6 he who has begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ! good luck with the ocd this stuff can make a christian crazy

 

[patsyjean89]

Thanks everyone! really great advice!

 

[patsyjean89]

My worst fear is that God has left me! I know its most likely apart of my OCD! but i cant pray without feeling He is not there for me anymore! it hurts to feel this way!

 

[omanid]

Get mad --Don't let the Devil mess with you!

http://bible.cc/matthew/4-10.htm

 

[L0ved]

Remember God's promise In Hebrews 13 v 5 "I will never leave you nor forsake you". He is not going to leave you, especially if you are scared. He is there for you and understands all your fears and anxieties. He tells us "do not worry about your life". Matt 6v25.

God knows every part of your being, He created you. You are special to Him and He wants you to know this.

Hand over your worries to Him - "Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you".

Hope this helps.

Take care

 

[StoneWater]

My worst fear is that God has left me! I know its most likely apart of my OCD! but i cant pray without feeling He is not there for me anymore! it hurts to feel this way!

God is everywhere and is love and never leaves anyone.

 

[patsyjean89]

So even if I am scared to talk to people about God because I am worried about what they will think of me (which i am working on)......He still wont leave me??

 

[omanid]

So even if I am scared to talk to people about God because I am worried about what they will think of me (which i am working on)......He still wont leave me??

Moses was scared to talk to people. You'll either learn to or He'll help you another way (like Moses).

Trying is all we can do --God gives us the means.

 

[patsyjean89]

So even if I am scared to talk to people about God because I am worried about what they will think of me (which i am working on)......He still wont leave me??

 

[CounselorForChrist]

No he won't leave you. On some occasions I wil do what you do, sadly I think its common because christians today seem to be quick to attack another christian on their flaws.

 

[patsyjean89]

Thank you!

 

[L0ved]

Sorry I can't reply to,your message as I haven't made enough posts. Look at Romans 8v1 There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus. You are in Him. He will not condemn you. Also re being scared. In Timothy it says I have not given you a spirit of fear, but of power, love and self control. So use the power that He has given you. I hope this helps.

Take care

 

[ChrisHolland619]

I am very open and blunt about my faith to others, and I think that's how it should be. There's no reason to be ashamed of Christ.

I use facebook as a medium for evangelism and letting others hear the word. Have I lost friends because of it? Sure I have, but I'm not here to make people like me, I'm hear to spread the gospel of Jesus Christ.

Have some eternal perspective, not current perspective. Realize that we are only here for a short time. Our job is to spread His word so others will come to Him. Being an influence and an example will help others do that.

Are you ashamed of your calling?

 

[ALoveDivine]

I have the same problem and Ive been struggling with it since I first came to Christ. The only thing I can suggest is that you pray, pray, and pray some more. I for one do not have the strength to boldly proclaim the gospel to my closest friends and family without fear. I may not be strong enough, but HE IS!

Lean on Christ, give your life to him, and he will work through you. Over time I have become less and less afraid of rejection and harassment because of my faith. I still struggle with the issue but the more I lay my anxieties before God and seek his strength and his grace the less I tend to care about what others think. Don't try to overcome this on your own, you will fail. Come to God with your concerns and he will lift you up! Let go and let God!

 

[BFine]

What matters is how you are living out your
Christian faith before others in your life?

Whether you have OCD, fear, can't talk good/stutter, or
you pour sweat when speaking to others...

Your ministry and mine is to share the good news of the gospel
with those who aren't saved.
You share it by how you live it out in your life--in your actions or in
your speech.

Facebook is an online community that too many people are far to
wrapped up in.
Most of the people or "friends" on there are just posting well-meaning
platitudes -- if real tragedy struck and you asked your
online "friends" to help you, do you think they would?

Real life event that happened to us--
My husband lost his left leg 2 yrs. ago... none of my Facebook "friends"
have helped us.
They sure can post some lovely words though...I don't care what they
think when I post comments about church or reading the Bible. I already
know their "you can count on me" comments don't mean a single thing.