Am I a sociopath?

[pantingdeer]

I feel like I don’t love anyone. When growing up my grandparent died and I did not mourn or get sad. When my siblings left home I did not get sad. When my parents tell me they love me I don’t know what to say because I’m not sure if I love them. I don’t have deep-rooted feelings for people inside me. This doesn’t help when I hear about the gospel because even if I think I believe it I don’t know if I can say I love God/Jesus.
I wish I wasn’t like this. Feels like my heart is empty. I can’t honestly say I love anyone, not even me.

 

[GospelS]

No. You are not a sociopath. You are still growing and learning. You will be fine. Just fix your eyes on Jesus and trust Him alone. Don't trust in your feelings or worry about not feeling anything. Don't let your heart be empty. Keep filling it with the word of God and praises and worship. You are in safe hands if you stay close to God. He will take care of it all and one day you will overcome all things.

 

[Lazarus Short]

If you lack, and we all do, God will provide.

 

[Oldmantook]

A true sociopath wouldn't be asking himself that question.

 

[pantingdeer]

A true sociopath wouldn't be asking himself that question.

How is that?

 

[A_Thinker]

I feel like I don’t love anyone. When growing up my grandparent died and I did not mourn or get sad. When my siblings left home I did not get sad. When my parents tell me they love me I don’t know what to say because I’m not sure if I love them. I don’t have deep-rooted feelings for people inside me. This doesn’t help when I hear about the gospel because even if I think I believe it I don’t know if I can say I love God/Jesus.
I wish I wasn’t like this. Feels like my heart is empty. I can’t honestly say I love anyone, not even me.

Love is not a feeling.

Love is a commitment to help/support/be there for other people.

Any feelings may come later ...

 

[Oldmantook]

How is that?

As I understand it, sociopaths have no remorse so the fact you are questioning yourself and seeking insight demonstrates that you are not a sociopath. It appears that you are trying to understand and better yourself which is always a good thing.

 

[pantingdeer]

As I understand it, sociopaths have no remorse so the fact you are questioning yourself and seeking insight demonstrates that you are not a sociopath. It appears that you are trying to understand and better yourself which is always a good thing.

I’m questioning myself because I wonder why I don’t care about anyone or anything.

 

[shineyourlight]

I feel like I don’t love anyone. When growing up my grandparent died and I did not mourn or get sad. When my siblings left home I did not get sad. When my parents tell me they love me I don’t know what to say because I’m not sure if I love them. I don’t have deep-rooted feelings for people inside me. This doesn’t help when I hear about the gospel because even if I think I believe it I don’t know if I can say I love God/Jesus.
I wish I wasn’t like this. Feels like my heart is empty. I can’t honestly say I love anyone, not even me.

None of us are doctors, so no one can diagnose you. But....this could mean many things. One thing for sure, you are not a sociopath. I work with troubled kids....kids who are sociopaths, kids who are classified as psychotic (some are in psychosis right now), some have severe trauma to their lives. I meet different traumas and different disorders on a daily. The things you are describing are not sociopathic.

However, I do think seeing a psychiatrist/psychologist is good. It could be depression, it could be disassociating, it could be among other things.

 

[Oldmantook]

I’m questioning myself because I wonder why I don’t care about anyone or anything.

I understand but your question does not make you a sociopath.

 

[pantingdeer]

Here are my results after 90 questions on a personality disorder test online

 

[pantingdeer]

I understand but your question does not make you a sociopath.

 

[John42]

you're probably surrounded by jerks

 

[pantingdeer]

you're probably surrounded by jerks

I wouldn’t say that

 

[shineyourlight]

I wouldn't trust an online assessment.

That's just my own personal opinion, though!

 

[Junia]

I wouldn't trust an online assessment.

That's just my own personal opinion, though!

I

Nope.wouldn't either.

NPD, HPD and BPD for example.are 3 who h overlap so it strange that you score highly for borderline but low in histrionic, for example....I have BPD and have narcissism and histrionic traits with it

I am more inclined to believe this is depression or dissociation

Please remember that true sociopaths is extremely rare

 

[Junia]

I understand but your question does not make you a sociopath.

I

Neither do i...I don't really.give a you know what about other people.and have difficulty attaching to others. I do have diagnoses of BPD, CPTSD and other issues and to be honest my lack of attachments or commitment for others is linked to that. My therapist thinks so too. Inability to attach to others is based around trauma usually

 

[Junia]

Like I can say I wi l pray for someone but that means I will do it once or maybe again a few weeks after. I cannot commit to praying daily for someone... I just don't have that ability in me...

 

[Junia]

I been told I come across as cold and uncaring (when am not in one of my high emotion states where I get dysregulated) and unavailable to others. I used to try please everyone but i.struggle to do that now. I have gone from people.pleased who is terrified of abandonment to a very cold person ...I take care of me first.

 

[Joyous Song]

I agree, you do not act like a sociopath, but troubled definitely. I have trouble discerning my emotions. Its how I was created, who I am. I have emotions they are just not well developed in me. So if you mean by love that cushy, comfortable oooh I feel so good feeling, I don't have that either.

It took me a long time to learn we all have a love language and not every ones is based on feeling. Mine is based on giving.

So maybe what you really need to to learn more about yourself so you can better accept how you are instead of trying to be something your not.