Recently I have been researching symptoms of being a Sociopath and the results have disturbed me to say the least.
They lack the ability to truly empathize with people, only able to do it cognitively. I am always hearing of these terrible news stories of people getting mass-murdered and I don't feel anything one way or another. I know how I should feel, and I may say "That's terrible", but I don't really mean it.
Additionally, Sociopaths are capable of love, compassion, and remorse, however it is very selfish. I also feel I have this as when I do feel compassion and empathy towards people, it's because they are going through circumstances similar to what I have experienced. Additionally, though I do love my family and friends, I feel as though it is due to selfish reasons, like when they get hurt I feel bad because it makes me suffer as well.
Finally, they really only feel remorse because of punishment. This deeply scares me because many people believe that you have to be genuinely sorry for your sins in order to be a Christian, and I feel as though it is literally impossible for me to feel this kind of Godly Sorrow (I have prayed for it for years now).
Now I'm starting to feel hopeless. I mean how could a Sociopath like me ever be a Christian? I have been trying a praying so hard for so long now that I'm starting to believe that I am one of those reprobate God has given up on and that there is no hope for change.
They lack the ability to truly empathize with people, only able to do it cognitively. I am always hearing of these terrible news stories of people getting mass-murdered and I don't feel anything one way or another. I know how I should feel, and I may say "That's terrible", but I don't really mean it.
Additionally, Sociopaths are capable of love, compassion, and remorse, however it is very selfish. I also feel I have this as when I do feel compassion and empathy towards people, it's because they are going through circumstances similar to what I have experienced. Additionally, though I do love my family and friends, I feel as though it is due to selfish reasons, like when they get hurt I feel bad because it makes me suffer as well.
Finally, they really only feel remorse because of punishment. This deeply scares me because many people believe that you have to be genuinely sorry for your sins in order to be a Christian, and I feel as though it is literally impossible for me to feel this kind of Godly Sorrow (I have prayed for it for years now).
Now I'm starting to feel hopeless. I mean how could a Sociopath like me ever be a Christian? I have been trying a praying so hard for so long now that I'm starting to believe that I am one of those reprobate God has given up on and that there is no hope for change.