always feeling empty

[trippe]

I always feel like im empty inside. I have been questioning whether or not i believe in the existence of God and Jesus so long that im just miserable. I used to just question whether i was saved or not. I dont know why all of this is happening. I dont understand if i have asked Jesus into my life over and over for so long why do i always feel so empty. I keep filling my life with things to look forward too or things to get but i know its always temporary enjoyment. I hate all of this. Im terrafied when i think about the existence of God because i dont know if i believe or not. I go to bed terrafied of dying in my sleep and opening my eyes in hell. I wake up depressed because i try to read and pray but i just always feel empty. I am angry and bitter towards my wife because im so miserable. I dont know what to do when my baby is born. I want to be better i want to believe i dont know whats wrong with me. I hate everything about me. I cant even make the simpleist of decisions without feeling like i have made the wrong one or that i have done something wrong or didnt do something at all. I dont want to be alive anymore. Gods the only one who can help me and i dont know if He wants anything to do with me anymore because of all the things i have said and done. Pleas i need prayer...... I need a miracle.

 

[Jayangel81]

I always feel like im empty inside.

A lot of us who are experiencing OCD feels empty. It is quite common.

I have been questioning whether or not i believe in the existence of God and Jesus so long that im just miserable.

Alot of people question the existance of Him because they are suffering. In the truth we are Christians, we are going to suffer, when we become saved it doesnt mean that we will not experiance hardships and tribulations. We actually will also face persecution from the world.

Scriptures say that we must go through many tribulations before we enter the kingdom of God (Acts 14:22)

Many times our faith gets brought through the fire which can be painful, it refines it and takes out all the impurities (1peter 1:6-7, James 1:3)

We need to become Spirit-filled (not the same as the indwelling of the Holy Spirit) and we will truely experiance the true joy of the Lord.

I dont know why all of this is happening

God lets us experiance trials and tribuilations for a reason. for one, it builds Godly character and Faith,endureance,patience, teaches us to rest on Him, to trust Him etc etc etc.

Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

I dont understand if i have asked Jesus into my life over and over for so long why do i always feel so empty. I keep filling my life with things to look forward too or things to get but i know its always temporary enjoyment.​

Well mate, are you filling yourself up with worldly enjoyment and "things to do" or are you filling yourself up with the things of God?

Wordly things will leave you empty, I learned this slowly..and the hard way.

Fill yourself up with Him. Submit yourself to Him and resist the devil. And the devil will flee. Draw closer to Him and He will draw closer to you. Cleanse your hands and purify your heart. Ask the Lord to show you how to walk more closer to Him.

Im terrafied when i think about the existence of God because i dont know if i believe or not. I go to bed terrafied of dying in my sleep and opening my eyes in hell. I wake up depressed because i try to read and pray but i just always feel empty.

Have you confessed your sins to Him with your heart and made Him your Lord and Savior? The devil likes to make us question whether we believe or not.

I am angry and bitter towards my wife because im so miserable.

I know this feeling. mate you need to confess this to Him and repent from it. Anger and bitterness opens us to spiritual oppression. we were warned about this in scripture.

Ephesians 4:26-27 In your anger do not sin: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold.

Anger,bitterness and unforgiveness will cause the roaring lion to come and devour you.

I dont know what to do when my baby is born. I want to be better i want to believe i dont know whats wrong with me. I hate everything about me.

When your baby is born you do the best you can, you raise your child in the ways of the Lord, to submit him/her to Him.

A person can come to the Lord Jesus Christ and be saved and NOT grow. you hating yourself is going to cause you to not grow.

We are told :

Romans 12:2 And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

People are decieved in thinking just because they come to God things will just change "just like that" it takes a daily renewal of our minds. we need to wash ourselves with His living Word.

YOU need to start to learn who you are in Christ, something I have trouble with. It is something we need to know though.

Pick up Victory over the Darkness and Bondage breakers by Neil T Anderson. Will help you know who you are in Christ. Christians can be saved for 30 years and not experiance growth because they do not know who they are in Christ, and walk in their new identity.

I cant even make the simpleist of decisions without feeling like i have made the wrong one or that i have done something wrong or didnt do something at all

I have problems with that too. I got mine when I was forced into a legalistic posistion when I first came to Him, plus I have always made the wrong choices in life so that pattern or stronghold as Paul would call it, is a part of our every day living. You must renew your mind.

How much time do you spend in His Word?

Gods the only one who can help me and i dont know if He wants anything to do with me anymore because of all the things i have said and done.

Yes I know this talk very well, I have gotten trapped into it. This is the roaring lion trying to devour you. It happens all over I am afraid.

It is never too late. People on this very forum have this way of thinking. They are forced into believing that there is no Grace for them, that they have gone "too far"

This is all the roaring lion. The devil is there to steal,kill and destroy.

I dont want to be alive anymore.

Well than you will miss out on the blessings of God, walking hand to hand with Him, He has called you not only to something but into something.

Don't give up. You are very precious to Him.

Pick up those books mate.

Blessings
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[trippe]

it doesnt matter what i read, how much i read, or even how much i pray. The unbelief never goes away it just gets worse and i feel more and more empty and more and more depressed. I read the bible in the morning and at night and pray throughout the day but im so sad. I have confessed my anger and bitterness and i hate it as well as all the other sins but i still committ it and i just dont know anything anymore. I dont know what to do.

 

[kaykay9.0]

I think I'm beginning to sound like a broken record over here, but I suggest you think about getting some medical help. Obviously, this needs to be determined by a doctor or professional counselor, but sounds like you may be dealing with some clinical depression on top of any possible OCD. If you are not already, I would suggest seeking some professional therapy/meds. I know you said that it doesn't matter what you read etc. but I would also suggest reading Letters From a Skeptic by Dr. Gregory Boyd. Praying for you~

 

[Jayangel81]

it doesnt matter what i read, how much i read, or even how much i pray. The unbelief never goes away it just gets worse and i feel more and more empty and more and more depressed. I read the bible in the morning and at night and pray throughout the day but im so sad. I have confessed my anger and bitterness and i hate it as well as all the other sins but i still committ it and i just dont know anything anymore. I dont know what to do.

Faith comes by hearing the word of God, by daily communion and drawing ourselves to Him.

Depression causes me to not feel anything, bitterness even tries to creep in.

Just keep walking with Him.

Ask the Lord to reveal Himself to you and just take that leap of Faith.

We all sin mate. And alot of Christians including myself have bondages and strongholds that need working out by renewing our minds daily.

Keep fighting the good fight of faith.

I think I'm beginning to sound like a broken record over here, but I suggest you think about getting some medical help. Obviously, this needs to be determined by a doctor or professional counselor, but sounds like you may be dealing with some clinical depression on top of any possible OCD.

We need broken records sometimes though

God plays the broken record in my life, always repeating things over and over I am happy that He is still plugged in

 

[annrobert]

I always feel like im empty inside.

I know what you mean trippe,
I felt like like an empty shell for a long time.But I found out as Jesus brought healing to me,it was all my illness,whatever the cause of the illness matters not,it was all my illness.I was never empty.Jesus lives in my heart and Jesus said He would never leave me or forsake.I am sealed by the Holy Spirit til the day of redemption.Same for you.We are told to lift our heads up high for our remption draweth nigh.We can cry out to Jesus, for healing and rest.We can speak to ourselves in songs and spiritual psalms.Why are you so downcast oh my soul ,hope thou in God for I will yet praise Him.


I have been questioning whether or not i believe in the existence of God and Jesus so long that im just miserable.

Illness (religious ocd) has a nasty way of making us wonder if we truly believe.I am not sure if you have it or not.It does indeed make us very miserable when this happens.But your spirit and heart know deep inside you that Jesus is real.It is just your mind that is having trouble due to all the hurt and suffering.

I used to just question whether i was saved or not.

Jesus said he that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out.
Jesus said he that believeth in Me has everlasting life.
Those are Jesus promises to everyone.
Jesus said whososever will may come and drink freely from the water of Life.
Whosoever shall call upon the Name of the Lord shall be saved.

I dont know why all of this is happening.

I understand all the questions about why we seem to suffer emotionally and spiritually.I have asked myself a thousand times why this happened to me.I still ask.Yet I know Jesus has us in His hand and none shall snatch us out and we shall never perish.

I dont understand if i have asked Jesus into my life over and over for so long why do i always feel so empty.

I think illness, physical and mental and emotional and spiritual can make us feel empty.But that does not mean we are empty.
It just means we need to come to Jesus and cast out burdens on Him because He cares for us.
Jesus says come to Me all ye that labour and are heavy laden and Ii shall give you rest.Take my yoke upon you and learn of Me for I am meek and lowly in heart and ye shall find rest for your soul.



I keep filling my life with things to look forward too or things to get but i know its always temporary enjoyment. I hate all of this.

Temporary things never satify us.People tend to need more and more and never get satisfied.They get more and more desperate ,But only Jesus changes us and heals us and makes all things new including our broken hearts.Only Jesus has the Words of eternal life.Only Jesus can give us joy which also gives us our strength to love and serve Him.Jesus is the Prince of Peace and the peace He gives the world cannot take away.Jesus is the Wonderful Counsellor.We can trust Jesus.

Im terrafied when i think about the existence of God because i dont know if i believe or not.

You believe it in your spirit and heart or you would not be here.Do not trust your carnal mind.But rather bring every thought into subjection to the obedience of christ.

I go to bed terrafied of dying in my sleep and opening my eyes in hell.

If you have asked Jesus to forgive you your sins and save you,and if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead you shall be saved.Jesus is the Mighty God and everlasting FAther.Jesus said he that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out.
Jesus said he that believeth in Me has everlasting life and shall not be condemned.


I wake up depressed because i try to read and pray but i just always feel empty.

We all need Jesus,we need to seek His face and pray and read the bible in good times and in bad times.Jesus heals us and strengthens us and gives us rest.Jesus teaches us.The Holy Spirit comforts us and leads us and guides us and convicts us of sin and teaches us about Jesus and helps us pray.We need to pray and read the bible to renew our minds, by the washing of the Word.Even when we feel empty.

I am angry and bitter towards my wife because im so miserable.

When we feel angry and bitter we can tell Jesus all about it and ask Him to forgive us and help us overcome it as we surrender to Him.We can trust Jesus with every single thing in our life.He is our provider.

I dont know what to do when my baby is born.

We are free to even brings things like this to Jesus and ask Him for guidance and strength and wisdom and help.Helping care for the baby and hold the baby can be a good start.I am sure you will be a great husband and father.


I want to be better i want to believe i dont know whats wrong with me. I hate everything about me.

I can sure empathize with htese type feelings and longings and questions.
Jesus came to heal the broken hearted and set at liberty them who are bruised and set the captive free.He understands our weaknesses and is touched by our infirmities.

I cant even make the simpleist of decisions without feeling like i have made the wrong one or that i have done something wrong or didnt do something at all. I dont want to be alive anymore.

I have felt that way and so have many others.We can do nothing without Jesus.Jesus is our strength and He will give you strength.Many people in the old testament also felt that way,some of them being Elijah,Jonah,and job.You can frankly be open to Jesus about these feelings and ask for help.Be strong and hang on.We can ask Jesus for wisdom and He will give it to us liberally and will not chastise us for asking,He will just give it to us liberally.When we pray we must never give up ,but kkep on praying and reading the bible.Jesus makes all things new.

Gods the only one who can help me and i dont know if He wants anything to do with me anymore because of all the things i have said and done. Pleas i need prayer...... I need a miracle.

Jesus said a broken reed He will not crush and a smoking flax He will not snuff out.Jesus came to heal the broken hearted.
Jesus said He that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out.
He that is forgiven much loveth much.
Jesus has power to forgive sin.
He died to wash us clean
Jesus says come now and let us reason together though your sins be as scarlet they shall be as white as snow.
Jesus said He that believeth in Me has everlasting life.
Jesus said with God all things are possible
Jesus is not counting our sins against us,
When we come under grace rather than law,we are given freedom .
We can trust in Jesus who forgives sins and washes us as white as snow in His own blood,who died for us and rose again.When we understand these things and how much Jesus loves and carres for us and how longsuffering and patient and kind He is ,we have joy and the joy of the Lord is our strength.When we know Jesus forgives us and will not cast us out we know His love we are free to love Him back in safety and this love casts out fear.Nothing is impossible for God.


Also if you think you may be depressed or have ocd,you may consider consulting a doctor for treatment.

I hope this encourages you some.Be blessed.

 

[keryakos]

Jesus said a broken reed He will not crush and a smoking flax He will not snuff out.Jesus came to heal the broken hearted.
Jesus said He that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out.
He that is forgiven much loveth much.
Jesus has power to forgive sin.
He died to wash us clean
Jesus says come now and let us reason together though your sins be as scarlet they shall be as white as snow.
Jesus said He that believeth in Me has everlasting life.
Jesus said with God all things are possible
Jesus is not counting our sins against us,
When we come under grace rather than law,we are given freedom .
We can trust in Jesus who forgives sins and washes us as white as snow in His own blood,who died for us and rose again.When we understand these things and how much Jesus loves and carres for us and how longsuffering and patient and kind He is ,we have joy and the joy of the Lord is our strength.When we know Jesus forgives us and will not cast us out we know His love we are free to love Him back in safety and this love casts out fear.Nothing is impossible for God.


Also if you think you may be depressed or have ocd,you may consider consulting a doctor for treatment.

I hope this encourages you some.Be blessed.


I can only say i agree with what everyone has said the only thing i can add is an AMEN.

that and ill be praying you tripp please do the same for me

 

[trippe]

I was diagnosed with ocd some time ago. I dont know if i believe in my heart or if i have confessed with my mouth. I dont even understand or know how to do the simplist of things. I dont know how to believe in my heart, accept, trust, recieve or have faith. I dont know why. I doubt everything and i dont want to be like this anymore. I feel like its all my fault and there is something more that i could be doing or something that i havent done. I have talked to pastors, missonaries, phsycologists, phsyciatrists, friends, family, taken medication, memorized scripture, prayed, read the bible twice a day but none of it means anything unless im saved. If i dont know how to do the things that ive mentioned then i feel like ive never done them. That just like if you ask someone to fly a plane then they have to know how to accomplish it before they can actually do it. I just dont know. My heart is constantly skipping beats and all of this is starting to take a physical toll on me. Im so messed up mentally, emotionally and spiritually that its too late for me. That i can never be better and be saved or know that i am saved.

 

[annrobert]

You pray and read the bible because you believe in Jesus.

but none of it means anything unless im saved

This shows you want to be saved.
This shows you want Jesus more than anything.
This shows you know Jesus means more than anything.
This proves you believe in Jesus.

Jesus said He that believeth in Me has everlasting life.

Do not be scared to talk to Jesus openly about all the things you mentioned here.
Jesus is the wonderful counsellor.

Come to Jesus with all your fear and confusion.
Jesus said He that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out.
So just come to Jesus with all your problems fears and doubt.
He will not cast you out.

Do not let ocd tell you that you cannot come as you are ,that you have to fix certain things about yourself first.
come to Jesus just as you are.
Jesus said He that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out.

cast all your care on Jesus because He cares for you.

Jesus says come to Me all ye that labour and are heavy laden and I will give you rest.

 

[trippe]

Everytime i try to think of all the proof as to the existence of God my mind wont let me. I dont think that i believe deep down in my heart, partly because i dont even know what that means but i know that i want to. Or maybe i dont. I just dont know. Everytime i pray i just feel like im repeating words. People have said that i cant trust my feelings but if that is the case how in the world would i ever know wether the Holy Spirit is convicting me or not. All i know is i cant handle this unbelief anymore. I have prayed and said that if God was out there that He would reveal Himself to me and give me the ability to believe and be saved if im not already. I just dont know anymore and i cant seem to find any help or hope in anything anymore. Im afraid its never going to end and im only getting worse. I dont know what else to do.

 

[annrobert]

Trippe,
I am sorry that you are suffering like this and I know how awful this kind of suffering is.Hang on and never give up,okay,because Jesus is holding you in His hand and will not let you go.

The way you are talking here is true proof that you believe.
This ability to believe comes from the Holy Spirit.
We need to pray regardless of how we feel and pray consistently and never give up.
We cannot trust out carnal mind ,especially when we have ocd it makes it way worse.
We believe in our heart and spirit no matter what our carnal mind or ocd says.
when our mind or ocd says we do not believe we have to ignore it and know that we do believe.Which is much easier said than done for sure.
Jesus has revealed Himself to you which is why it is so important to you that you believe and are saved.
You could not want Jesus or salvation or even understand your need for Jesus and salvation without the Holy Spirit leading you and convicting you.

I hope you feel better soon.

Are you seeing a pastor or a counsellor for this?