So, I guess it's been awhile since I've been on this site. I only just started coming back last week when for the first time in a long time, I felt myself slipping back towards SI and that I was out of control. I'm okay and I didn't act on the urge despite how tempting it might have been. I guess I just feel really alone right now. I feel like my support system that helped me get through the majority of the battle last year is gone. I mean, my mentor and her husband moved away and I can't talk to her all that much anymore. I just don't feel like there is anyone left to talk about. I can feel/hear the old lies creeping into my head. The "You're not good enoughs" and "No one wants you heres." It might sound stupid, but I think I've even started isolating myself. All I want is for someone to reach out and show that they care, but no one is doing that. I just feel so alone...