I am struggling too, it is so very hard. I have gotten to the point where I feel like satan takes over my body when I drink. I think I have multiple personality disorder, because I do things that I would NEVER do sober! I can only say I will pray for you and just incase you don't know this you might need help. Go to AA or something, there you can talk about it with people who know what you are going through. Other Christians who don't suffer may not be very sympathetic. Also, get someone to pray with you who knows you. Admitting to those close to you (who do not know) will make you more accountable for your actions. Maybe you already have, I didn't read any replies, I just read the request I quoted. It helps though, but do be careful, as I said, not everyone will understand. OH, and if you are an alcoholic, YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO DRINK SOCIALLY, I am not yelling, I am strongly emphacising that point, once your body crosses that line, one drink will turn into as many as you drink on your worst night. eventually, if not now, trust me! We will beat this, God can do anything! God bless you
B