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oolong
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Hello folks, I'm something of an atheist--or that's how I describe myself to everyone with whom I discuss religion with. I was never an intrusive atheist--going to Christian forums to ruffle feathers and such, but it was my materialistic worldview which lead me to this position. During the past few months, I had contemplated myself becoming a Christian, but because I was going through some troubles at that point, I decided it was not the time to give myself to Christ, as I want nothing of the whole "prison conversion" accusation or self-doubt. I want to genuinely give myself to Christ.
I still describe myself as an atheist, even though I have come to believe in a higher power. Why I choose the Christian God as opposed to others is not clear to me. I wouldn't personally like to think that it is because of my growing up and living in the nominally Christian West, but that's what my lingering atheist side tells me. I also describe myself as an atheist because I'm afraid of the whole "aww, he converted to Christianity, ain't that cute" bit, especially from family.
Is it a sin (beyond 'bearing false witness') to call oneself an atheist while one's heart lies with God? If I have answered my own question, I apologize. It's a confusing matter.
I also fear that I may be attracted to Christianity because of my traditionalist leanings, and not because of Christ's sacrifice, which again scares me somewhat, because it obviously means that Christ is not my top priority. (I guess this explains why I'm more so attracted to Roman Catholicism and Orthodoxy rather than American-style Protestantism.)
I'll throw in a last question for good measure: are there any books or theological works which deal with the existence of the Christian God in depth, giving multiple points of view, and so forth? Websites would be even better, but I have often found they are less about explanation and more about getting people to Christ ASAP, which I suppose is a noble idea.
I still describe myself as an atheist, even though I have come to believe in a higher power. Why I choose the Christian God as opposed to others is not clear to me. I wouldn't personally like to think that it is because of my growing up and living in the nominally Christian West, but that's what my lingering atheist side tells me. I also describe myself as an atheist because I'm afraid of the whole "aww, he converted to Christianity, ain't that cute" bit, especially from family.
Is it a sin (beyond 'bearing false witness') to call oneself an atheist while one's heart lies with God? If I have answered my own question, I apologize. It's a confusing matter.
I also fear that I may be attracted to Christianity because of my traditionalist leanings, and not because of Christ's sacrifice, which again scares me somewhat, because it obviously means that Christ is not my top priority. (I guess this explains why I'm more so attracted to Roman Catholicism and Orthodoxy rather than American-style Protestantism.)
I'll throw in a last question for good measure: are there any books or theological works which deal with the existence of the Christian God in depth, giving multiple points of view, and so forth? Websites would be even better, but I have often found they are less about explanation and more about getting people to Christ ASAP, which I suppose is a noble idea.
ABBA'S FOOL,