Afraid of losing my son

[Jeshu]

think im gonna finally get on medication.

Medications might help order your mind and lift the depression somewhat.

You are going through a hell of a time. My heart cries for you and i know God's does as well. Please consider making God's love your truth. Take Him by the hand and let Him lead you through life's valleys.

With God we still face the hard times but somehow Jesus makes something good come out of it all in the end. Its is for us to learn to patiently endure and keep our heart open for God to plant the good seed in.

Please take your inner agony to the Lord. He might not always do as we like but He sure does give us good things in return when we learn to trust Him.

 

[Macchiato]

The blood and cancer center called twice on a Sunday so I know its not good--I tried to call back but got the answering machine. Monday I'm sure will confirm what I already know. My dad isn't making things better he keeps insulting me--It's like he's doing the best he can to break my soul. I just feel alone in this. I pray and get nothing--I feel I've always had this dark night of the soul silence crap since I've been saved and now due to the severity of my situation it intensifies.

I feel if they call back with the news I think--it'll kill me. I just can't do it. I'm surprised my 2nd child (currently pregnant) Is still here bc I've been so stressed but I think this news will do me in for sure.

 

[Jeshu]

The best is to give all your stress to Jesus and take on all His promises to protect yourself with His love. It is going to be the hardest time in your life so faith in Jesus is essential to get you through in one piece.

i pray His peace will rule your heart.