Abusing a therapy technique?

[NoddaProbBob]

I'm confused.
I know that people have used rubber bands to try and break the habit of cutting. But like for the last month or so, I've had to refrain from cutting because I've had doctors appointments galor (a whole other story).
Tonight I just fell over the edge. I couldn't take everything. I just had one of those times where I felt really overwhelmed and angry. So I grabbed a kitchen knife and almost lost my cool, but remembered that I have two more appointments this week. So I stopped.
But I was still really overwhelmed so I grabbed a really thin hair tie and started snapping away. But like I was snapping with the intent to get the same result from cutting.
So does this technically mean I'm abusing a theapy technique?
Or is that what I'm supposed to do.
This has just been an awful terrible week, and I just kinda fell over the edge tonight

 

[bubblefish]

[FONT=&quot]In my experience, the rubber band is a starting point or only used as a final resort. It is a way to still release the feelings and endorphins without leaving scars or doing permanent damage. It is not meant to be something to do as an alternative forever though. People need to be putting in other techniques to help them move through the urges and only using this as a last resort, otherwise it can become just as addictive.

It is a starting point though Hun. Maybe next time you could try putting in a few other methods first and see if they help? Things like drawing or even writing on yourself with a marker or putting ice on your arm. It can give you the same shock but without the pain. Slowly try to decrease the amount you need them or move down to things like reading or writing in a journal. It is a process, slowly weaning yourself off things - almost like quitting smoking. It is hard to do it cold turkey, but easier if you gradually decrease the coping techniques.

I really hope this makes sense.. I feel like I am rambling.

Sweetie, you have done so well The fact that you didn't cut and took another alternative is already a huge step. You can get through this

Good luck with the rest of the week. If you ever need to talk, please feel free to contact me as well. Sometimes talking to someone can help as well.
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[NoddaProbBob]

I just don't know if I can do this.
I just seriously want to rip my skin open right now.
I might explode if I don't.

These last three weeks have been just terrible for me. And it feels like things are only getting worse.
Not one thing has gone right and everything continues to just get worse.
Im so frustrated