abuse and the process of healing

[Colleen1]

I'm glad you are better today, friend.

Thanks, that's very sweet. Well, my health is rather poor and it's affecting all aspects of life. So it helps if I keep this in mind. Hard to think, concentrate and deal when so exhausted and ill.

 

[Colleen1]

Someone shared this song with me today and it's been a real blessing. Reminds me I'm a cracked pot and a butterfly that needs to be 'broken' open. I wanted to share it with you all. Been a long crazy day. God bless!
Beth Hart Take it easy on me lyrics - YouTube

 

[cweinstein]

Thanks, that's very sweet. Well, my health is rather poor and it's affecting all aspects of life. So it helps if I keep this in mind. Hard to think, concentrate and deal when so exhausted and ill.

I can definitely understand that. Poor health does affect all aspects of life. Right now I am going through pain, in my shoulders, lower back and right arm, due to very tight muscles, and carpal tunnel - job hazard.
And it does affect every aspect of life, because moving hurts, using a computer hurts, everything hurts. Makes me want to stay in bed and not move, because nobody likes to feel pain. But I know that is the worst thing I can do, and it does not pay bills.
And yes, it is hard to think and work in pain.
I started going to a massage therapist, who specializes in medical massage, and yes it hurts a lot, but I know I have to go through that pain before it can get better.

Hugs to you, Colleen, I completely understand...

 

[Colleen1]

I can definitely understand that. Poor health does affect all aspects of life. Right now I am going through pain, in my shoulders, lower back and right arm, due to very tight muscles, and carpal tunnel - job hazard.
And it does affect every aspect of life, because moving hurts, using a computer hurts, everything hurts. Makes me want to stay in bed and not move, because nobody likes to feel pain. But I know that is the worst thing I can do, and it does not pay bills.
And yes, it is hard to think and work in pain.
I started going to a massage therapist, who specializes in medical massage, and yes it hurts a lot, but I know I have to go through that pain before it can get better.

Hugs to you, Colleen, I completely understand...

Yes, totally! I agree. I posted a reply to you on the other thread about massage etc. and yes it does help if you can get a good massage therapist etc. It's also good to know how much to push your body. This can be tricky. I hope you feel better soon and best wishes with your treatment. ....thanks for the encouragement.

 

[cweinstein]

Yes, totally! I agree. I posted a reply to you on the other thread about massage etc. and yes it does help if you can get a good massage therapist etc. It's also good to know how much to push your body. This can be tricky. I hope you feel better soon and best wishes with your treatment. ....thanks for the encouragement.

After a couple of tries, I have found a good massage therapist. I am going back to her early next week. Her specialty is medical massage, back and shoulder pain, which is what I need.
Yes it can be tricky to know how much to push my body. Right now the exercises hurt a lot, and I have to do them 3 times a day. I've done them twice already today.

 

[Colleen1]

After a couple of tries, I have found a good massage therapist. I am going back to her early next week. Her specialty is medical massage, back and shoulder pain, which is what I need.
Yes it can be tricky to know how much to push my body. Right now the exercises hurt a lot, and I have to do them 3 times a day. I've done them twice already today.

I'm glad you've found some good help. Best wishes to you as you start to heal. I hope it goes well. Take care.

 

[cweinstein]

I'm glad you've found some good help. Best wishes to you as you start to heal. I hope it goes well. Take care.

It is starting to heal, I can tell pain is a little less than yesterday. Still a lot, but a little less.
a couple of days ago I went to my massage therapist for another session. She began work on my lower back. She had to get in there and start to release the muscles. It hurt so bad I was in tears. Yesterday I was not in tears but the colorful metaphors flew freely because it still hurts a lot
When I am at work I have to get up and move every hour. And I can feel when I've been sitting long enough, like right now, I feel achy

 

[Colleen1]

It is starting to heal, I can tell pain is a little less than yesterday. Still a lot, but a little less.
a couple of days ago I went to my massage therapist for another session. She began work on my lower back. She had to get in there and start to release the muscles. It hurt so bad I was in tears. Yesterday I was not in tears but the colorful metaphors flew freely because it still hurts a lot
When I am at work I have to get up and move every hour. And I can feel when I've been sitting long enough, like right now, I feel achy

Ikes! Not very pleasant. Have you been able to go to a physiotherapist on a regular basis? They may be helpful and let you know how much is too much and give tips on techniques etc. I'm just concerned because pushing ourselves too much can do harm and make pain and injury worse. Hmm...not sure massage is suppose to hurt like that. Mind you, my illnesses are different and any little thing can make them worse. Something to think about. Best wishes. You're in my prayers.

 

[cweinstein]

Ikes! Not very pleasant. Have you been able to go to a physiotherapist on a regular basis? They may be helpful and let you know how much is too much and give tips on techniques etc. I'm just concerned because pushing ourselves too much can do harm and make pain and injury worse. Hmm...not sure massage is suppose to hurt like that. Mind you, my illnesses are different and any little thing can make them worse. Something to think about. Best wishes. You're in my prayers.

Thanks, Colleen. I go for another session this afternoon. It is a little better, but still very sore, the muscles are beginning to release, but we still have a ways to go.
I am also drinking a lot of water, especially after a session, and getting up several times while at work, like every hour

 

[Colleen1]

Thanks, Colleen. I go for another session this afternoon. It is a little better, but still very sore, the muscles are beginning to release, but we still have a ways to go.
I am also drinking a lot of water, especially after a session, and getting up several times while at work, like every hour

Oh, I'm glad you're taking care of yourself. Yes, I bring a bottle of water along with me whenever I go to massage and I go straight home. I'm suppose to take it easy afterward. I think it's good we can listen to our bodies and take care of ourselves. It's easy for me to get impatient when I'm trying to heal or achieve things especially since it seems those of us with Chronic Fatigue etc. function at a snail's pace....as the world speeds on and tasks pile up. Ah well, it could be worse and things do come together. Slowly but surely. Just takes more time.

 

[Colleen1]

I pray you all have a very blessed Easter!
What a wonderful gift God gave us!


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[Colleen1]

God Bless You!
You're in my prayers.
Glorious Day Casting Crowns Worship Video with lyrics - YouTube
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[cweinstein]

Oh, I'm glad you're taking care of yourself. Yes, I bring a bottle of water along with me whenever I go to massage and I go straight home. I'm suppose to take it easy afterward. I think it's good we can listen to our bodies and take care of ourselves. It's easy for me to get impatient when I'm trying to heal or achieve things especially since it seems those of us with Chronic Fatigue etc. function at a snail's pace....as the world speeds on and tasks pile up. Ah well, it could be worse and things do come together. Slowly but surely. Just takes more time.

Yes it takes time. And pain is exhausting, or is it just me?

 

[Colleen1]

Yes it takes time. And pain is exhausting, or is it just me?

No, it's not just you. It certainly can take its toll. I hope you're hanging in there. Take care.

 

[cweinstein]

No, it's not just you. It certainly can take its toll. I hope you're hanging in there. Take care.

Thanks, Colleen. I am in a lot of pain right now. I am just getting off work, and I have a couple of things to do before going to bed so I can work tonight. But even lying in bed hurts

 

[Colleen1]

Thanks, Colleen. I am in a lot of pain right now. I am just getting off work, and I have a couple of things to do before going to bed so I can work tonight. But even lying in bed hurts

Yes, it becomes rather difficult to get rest and it make coping all the more difficult. The two problems, pain and lack of sleep, feed off of one another and affect our emotions. This can be tough. Take care; you're valuable.

 

[Colleen1]

Today I was spending time with God singing and felt moved and inspired to carry on in love without withdrawing from the world. This was a blessing because afterward I saw a fair few people who were party to ripping my life apart. It was very hard to feel pain and remain constant. Listening to the song on my ipod and focusing on the words was like having constant reassurance from God. I'm grateful I felt the presence of God during this time. He is a good Father.
Susan Boyle - Make me a Channel of Your Peace - YouTube
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[cweinstein]

Yes, it becomes rather difficult to get rest and it make coping all the more difficult. The two problems, pain and lack of sleep, feed off of one another and affect our emotions. This can be tough. Take care; you're valuable.

Yes I am experiencing that, pain and lack of sleep feeding off one another and affecting my emotions. I am going to see my therapist again later this morning, after I get off work. Then hopefully I can get some sleep.

 

[Colleen1]

Yes I am experiencing that, pain and lack of sleep feeding off one another and affecting my emotions. I am going to see my therapist again later this morning, after I get off work. Then hopefully I can get some sleep.

Oh that's great! I wish you well. Take care.

 

[cweinstein]

Oh that's great! I wish you well. Take care.

I had my session with my therapist Wed morning. Shoulders are doing a lot better, still feel the knots but they are smaller. My arm, carpal tunnel, is doing a bit better, still very tight muscles but they are beginning to improve. I have to wear the brace when I'm driving or when something requires gripping with my right hand, and I am wearing it right now because it hurts, which makes typing interesting, especially while I'm working.
Lower back is a bit better, but still in great pain.
I did get some sleep this afternoon, and now I'm working.