About to lose my dad :(

[Christian-Catholic]

God bless you, praying. Please feel free to contact me if I can be of any help, I'm a pretty good listener. Hang in there!

Ty so much Rebecca Sue, I just might take u up on the offer, Sorry I didn't answer back sooner, It was a hectic time and so hard to go through dad's accounts and close many of them and then the hardest partw as picking up his death certificate
Ty for your offer Rebecca, don't be surprised if you have a pm sent your way
God bless you my Sister in Christ

 

[Christian-Catholic]

I just found this post. My heart goes out to you and I cry with you. My beloved daddy died March of 2012, not a day goes by that I do not miss him. I know your pain, I know the tears that will not stop, and right now, anything that you see or hear, will remind you of him and you will cry, I know I still do. Daddy's are so special.

My prayers are with you. You can PM me if you wish, I will be happy to talk if it helps.

Im so sorry for your loss Susie, Now I understand the pain , and if you ever need to talk, you have a brother here.
yesterday I was driving on the road and I just starting Crying and screaming out loud "My dad is really gone , he really is gone"
When I was bedridden for 2 years and losing weight fast from a parasitic bacteria everyone gave up on me but my Dad. He nursed me back to health when I thought I wouldn't make it.

I know im supposed to be unselfish and let him be happy in heaven with Christ, but I miss him so much Susie, we did everything together and there wasnt day when I didn't hug him and kiss him on the forehead honk his nose.

I don't know how im going to make it without him. I never had a friend like my dad
I feel so empty without him .

But I know he is with Christ and grandpa now and he is enjoying every moment of heaven. That part makes me smile so much
Susie can I ask you a question? How do you deal with the sadness of him not being there, or not hearing his voice or seeing his smile or laughter?

 

[Susie~Q]

Im so sorry for your loss Susie, Now I understand the pain , and if you ever need to talk, you have a brother here.
yesterday I was driving on the road and I just starting Crying and screaming out loud "My dad is really gone , he really is gone"
When I was bedridden for 2 years and losing weight fast from a parasitic bacteria everyone gave up on me but my Dad. He nursed me back to health when I thought I wouldn't make it.

I know im supposed to be unselfish and let him be happy in heaven with Christ, but I miss him so much Susie, we did everything together and there wasnt day when I didn't hug him and kiss him on the forehead honk his nose.

I don't know how im going to make it without him. I never had a friend like my dad
I feel so empty without him .

But I know he is with Christ and grandpa now and he is enjoying every moment of heaven. That part makes me smile so much
Susie can I ask you a question? How do you deal with the sadness of him not being there, or not hearing his voice or seeing his smile or laughter?

I know exactly how you feel. I cry out of the blue too. He has been dead 2 years now, but at times it feels like yesterday. He never would go to the doctor, but, I suspected something was wrong, he kept loosing weight the last year of his life and got weaker and weaker. He use to love to be outside and work in the garden, that last year, he had to stop, I knew then that things were wrong. When it snowed, I hired a snow plower, he could no longer do it and neither could I. I still can not forgive myself. I was out of town for a few days, well, I kept calling him, I did that every time I was gone, I would call each night, well, that time, I could not reach him, I should have gone home then, but I didn't. I left a couple days later, and when I got home, I noticed the curtains were still shut, I knew that was not like him, I got scared, I asked my friend to go in with me, it was all dark, his bedroom door was shut (this was 2:00 in the afternoon) we opened it and there he was, on the floor with the bookcase on him and TV, I almost fainted, my dear friend helped him and I called 911, the pari-medics said he would not make it to the hospital they took him by ambulance to the ER, he was very dehydrated, they did all kinds of tests on him then admitted him. He was there for two weeks, then they sent him to an assisted living home for rehab, etc. Well, he got weaker still, could not do the physical therapy, would not eat, etc. They sent him back to the hospital for another blood transfusion, he had already had two, and some more tests, he was in a semi-coma when they transported him there, it was then that they told me he probably was not going to make it, I did not want to believe it. They admitted him again, and that was when I learned he had a "myloproliferative disorder" a type of leukemia. Blood transfusions no longer worked. It was a matter of time. He was put in a room for observation, and comfort care. I stayed with him all day everyday, I fed him, have him water, and just "loved" him I kept track of his O2 saturation, I could see it going down, it is supposed to be no lower than 90, his was going into 60, that can cause brain damage. They did an echo-cardiogram on him, he now had congestive heart failure. Well, the last night of his life, the nurse gave him an extra dose of morphine for pain, I told her not too, but she said dad wanted it. Well, he then started to get super drowsy and was talking differently, he kept saying "I love you" I asked who he was talking to, he said me, but, I think it was mom, she had been dead for 7 years and they had been married for over 60 years, he never was the same after she died. Well, the nurse said I could stay that night, I was selfish and went back to my motel room however, I will never forgive myself A few hours after I left, I got the dreaded call that he had quietly passed, a nurse was going into his room to check his vitals, and he was gone. . I was stunned, I knew it would happen, but I was stunned. For days, I walked around in a daze, had it not been for my dear friend, I would have been a basket case. I went home, got all of his things, and donated them to the home where he had stayed. All the nurses said how much they appreciated how I loved him and took care of him, and that they missed him too. Anyway, to answer your question, I cry all the time still, if I see a certain picture, or hear certain music (we both loved the big bands as he was a big band musician, he played lead alto sax), I cry. I have all of his architectural books and plans, I cry when I see them, I wish I was with him. I really am having a hard time coping. I do not know what I would have done without my dear friend, he stuck with me through it all. After he died, I married a guy I met here, on CF, I think I was running away from my problems, I was not thinking clearly, even though it had been 6 months, I should have waited a year. He is a kiwi from New Zealand, and I moved over here, I still miss America, so, I grieve over that as well. I have both of my parents ashes, they were cremated at their request. When I see daddy's books on the bookshelf, I cry. I really do not handle it well, to be honest. I do pray over it lots.

Oh, I am also afraid he is not in heaven. I think he was a Christian, but when mom died, he changed and said he was an atheist, so, now I wonder if I will ever see him again. Man, I miss him. I want my daddy so badly again, and my mother too.

Sorry I can not give you ideas on how to cope, I will say that prayer helps, but that sting is still there, hopefully, one day, it will leave as well.

 

[Christian-Catholic]

Oh my Gosh Susie, I am so so sorry , you went through so much pain, anguish and suffering. I hate cancer of any kind and I promise one day im gonna make some impact against it. I hate that desease with all my heart

I know that numbness Susie, unfortunately I know it all to well
It must have been hard moving from America. My parents are originally Lebanese Christians from Lebanon but I consider myself an American through and through.

Sounds like u and your dad had something very special. He sounds like a very special man
As far as him being an atheist, I truly believe that was more out of anger because of what happened to your mom then a true belief in atheism, and I don't think our loving God would hold that against him and I truly believe that God knows us within our hearts.

I really believe that your dad is with God now.
Im an inclusivist which speaks so much towards God's understanding of our situations and that is why I believe your dad is in heaven . I truly believe that your dad and mom both are with Christ and that one day you will see them both and give them such a big hug that you will probably never let them go

God Knows that what you did said was probably more out of anger over mom then anything else Susie.

If you ever need to talk u have a brother here anytime ok?
Praying helps me but i just wished that my dad wasn't so loving, kind and simple hearted as it would have made it much easier to forget about him.

He was my angel, my brother and my best friend

 

[Susie~Q]

Oh my Gosh Susie, I am so so sorry , you went through so much pain, anguish and suffering. I hate cancer of any kind and I promise one day im gonna make some impact against it. I hate that desease with all my heart

I know that numbness Susie, unfortunately I know it all to well
It must have been hard moving from America. My parents are originally Lebanese Christians from Lebanon but I consider myself an American through and through.

Sounds like u and your dad had something very special. He sounds like a very special man
As far as him being an atheist, I truly believe that was more out of anger because of what happened to your mom then a true belief in atheism, and I don't think our loving God would hold that against him and I truly believe that God knows us within our hearts.

I really believe that your dad is with God now.
Im an inclusivist which speaks so much towards God's understanding of our situations and that is why I believe your dad is in heaven . I truly believe that your dad and mom both are with Christ and that one day you will see them both and give them such a big hug that you will probably never let them go

God Knows that what you did said was probably more out of anger over mom then anything else Susie.

If you ever need to talk u have a brother here anytime ok?
Praying helps me but i just wished that my dad wasn't so loving, kind and simple hearted as it would have made it much easier to forget about him.

He was my angel, my brother and my best friend

Thank you so much for your kind words. I am embarrassed, but I am crying again. I so hope you are right and that he is in heaven, some other folks have told me the same thing, that he was angry and that God understood. The thought of him being in hell forever drives me crazy.

Thanks for saying I can talk to you and you are my brother, I never had any brothers or sisters, my folks had a hard time conceiving me even.

God bless you, thank you for caring.

 

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Thank you so much for your kind words. I am embarrassed, but I am crying again. I so hope you are right and that he is in heaven, some other folks have told me the same thing, that he was angry and that God understood. The thought of him being in hell forever drives me crazy.

Thanks for saying I can talk to you and you are my brother, I never had any brothers or sisters, my folks had a hard time conceiving me even.

God bless you, thank you for caring.

Susie, Don't ever be embarrassed about crying, its your dad and its completely ok if you cried 15 years from now as well. We only have one dad and it seems like yours was a gem from the tears you have shown over him

I just know that our Lord is not just a Lord of perfect love and perfect Justice but one of perfect understanding as well and I know deep inside my heart that our lord and savior understood how hurt and alone your dad must have felt when your mom passed. Call it a gut sense, but I have a feeling that when your dad made it to heaven that Christ was there to give him a great big hug.
My dad was very angry with God when my mom had her massive stroke as well.

One day you will see Susie. You will see your day one day in heaven and your joy will be so hard to hold hug that you will be hugging your dad , Christ and everyone in heaven so much that it will be one huge hugfest.

Mark these words Susie and remember them.

Well u have a brother now. I always prayed for a sister but never got one. Now I have a few sisters and I would be proud to have another one in you.
I have 2 blood brothers that I probably will never be close to but I wish them the best and I had a friend of 25 years that I let go. They all had the opportunity to help my dad but they didn't even lift a finger to do so.

I don't know if ill ever forget that, but im sure my dad and ur dad are both in heaven now. I just know it with all my heart Susie
God bless
Your bro

 

[Susie~Q]

Gosh, your words about my dad in heaven are awesome, the thought of seeing Jesus hugging him makes me feel so good. My dear dads' relatives did not do a thing for him after I told them he was sick and in the hospital, they never really liked him anyway because he was not a "success" in their eyes. They all made big time money, and were country-clubers, but in my opinion dad was the successful one, he had a great marriage, and we were happy. When I called his brother about daddy dying, he acted concerned, but now, he does not even write me to see how I am, his sister is not much better, so, I have no family as far as I am concerned, I have one Aunt on my mom's side, we are sort of close. Oh well, I have God and now a brother

Do you live in America? I lived near Seattle in a little community called Cle Elum. I miss it.

Hugs
Susie

 

[Christian-Catholic]

Gosh, your words about my dad in heaven are awesome, the thought of seeing Jesus hugging him makes me feel so good. My dear dads' relatives did not do a thing for him after I told them he was sick and in the hospital, they never really liked him anyway because he was not a "success" in their eyes. They all made big time money, and were country-clubers, but in my opinion dad was the successful one, he had a great marriage, and we were happy. When I called his brother about daddy dying, he acted concerned, but now, he does not even write me to see how I am, his sister is not much better, so, I have no family as far as I am concerned, I have one Aunt on my mom's side, we are sort of close. Oh well, I have God and now a brother

Do you live in America? I lived near Seattle in a little community called Cle Elum. I miss it.

Hugs
Susie

Susie, I completely know what you mean. We wanted to take Dad to a clinic in Mexiico that specialized in treating stage 4 cancer patients but we didn't have the money and a few of my socalled friends that had the resources to help make this happen didn't even lift a finger to help. Suffice to say I started cutting my ties with quite a few of those people. Ill never forget that. Some of them would say that we will never know how much love they have for me and my family. My dad was there for them whenever they needed him, no questions asked, but when he was down and we needed help, none of these (what u would call country clubbers ) came to his aid.

I am so sorry about ur dad Susie, but yes I believe that your dad is in heaven because from all the looks of things, he rejected God emotionally because of your mom passing away and emotional rejection of God isn't true rejection of God. From everything you wrote Im very very sure your dad is in heaven with Christ.

Also I understand the elitist attitudes of those country clubbers you were talking about. Believe me, ill take a rich hearted person like your dad as my friend over these country clubbers any day of the week. He has stored his heavenly riches that will never fade or go bad. The country clubbers are all about their earthly riches. Your dad sounded like a great family man, as was my dad. Those kinds of dads are gems you just don't find in large quantities these days so we treasure every moment we have with them and this is precisely why its so hard for us to forget them, because they were a huge part of our hearts.

Im glad you have ur aunt, but you are right, you do now have a brother and I have another sister.

I live in sunny San Diego California, best weather in America

Sorry I didn't respond sooner Sister but ive been battling a rare form of scabies called Norwegian scabies that itches so badly that I cant even sleep a wink at night and my insurance is playing musical chair in ordering a skin biopsy for me.

Ive had it for 7 months now so I have to battle that as well as mourning my dad.

I remember we used to watch the family feud a lot and he liked Steve Harvey , and while he was watching it I used to curl his hair on his head into little antenna's and we used to laugh when he figured this out.

I remember when we used to go out to the grocery store I used to give him a big hug in the store and he used to tell me "not now Bobby, everyone will think we are gay " and after he would say that I would hug him harder and we would laugh

Its the little things that are worth more to us then all the gold on earth that make our dad's such precious gems.

I feel numb without hearing his voice

But we are lucky that we have Christ aren't we

:huge: your bro

 

[Susie~Q]

Oh wow, you live in California? I know where San Diego is, we used to live in Escondido and I was born in Santa Barbara. I wish I could remember Santa Barbara, we moved when I was three. I did go through it once on the Amtrak two years ago, I asked if I could get off for a few minutes to take pictures from the station, they let me. I was crying because I was thinking of dad,that was his favorite town and use to say he hoped heaven looked like it. My dad use to say that San Diego had the best climate in the world, especially if you were sensitive to barometric pressure, he told me it was always stable. We lived in Escondido 46 years ago, man, that is a long time. I was 11 in the 5th grade, he was a real-estate broker there.

We use to like to watch the HGTV channel, our favorite shows were "Property Virgins" "House Hunters" and some other ones. I can get them on the Internet, I almost cry when I see them, they remind me of dad.

I can sure understand why you severed your friendship with those so-called "friends" the dear friend I told you about in an earlier post helped me and my folks more than ANY family ever had or did. He paid all my bills, helped with the house payments, in fact, bought it and let us live there free, he drove my mom and I to all of her appointments when she was ill for those 9 years, after she died, he made sure that all was well with dad and I, never once complained if I wanted to buy dad extra "goodies" to eat, ect. He was an angel, I know he is in heaven. We were best friends, platonic, went together for 18 years, I miss him so much, he was so special. I understand he died alone in his house this past September, a friend of his walked in and saw him "sleeping" peacefully. I wish I had been there. I sort of feel responsible for his death, he loved me and I did not appreciate it, when I moved to New Zealand, he kept saying if I came back to the states, I could have my home back, etc. Well, I had not heard from in awhile, so, I did a Google search on him, I truly almost fainted when I saw he had died. To this day, I grieve over him as well as dad. He had bad diabetes, and high blood pressure, I think he gave up when I left. Anyway, he was the son my mom and dad never had, we use to have him for Thanksgiving, Christmas and other special dinners, he loved that. As I said, if it had not been for him, when daddy died, I would have been lost. He did so much for me and never asked for a thing in return. I am so glad I told him I was sorry for the way I treated before he died, he forgave me, that was the kind of man he was. I could write a book on all he did for me, why oh why, did I leave the states???? Oh well, on with my sharing.

Yes, I do have an aunt, but I am not sure now what to think. You see, I had purchased my tickets to go home from October 1st and return the middle of January, Steve, my husband, was going to fly over for Christmas and we were going to fly back together. Well, I was talking to her over a month ago and she tells me not to come, that her nerves could not handle it. I am still stunned, I thought we were so close, we lost over 600.00 because we canceled the flights. I mean, I would not have been any trouble, I would have been a help to here. Her husband died this past February, so she is alone. She thought she had had a heart attack when she told me not to come, but all tests say she is in great shape. The doc said it was anxiety causing the heart attack feelings. She still does not want me to visit, so now, I am not too excited to call like I use to. I have skype and I can call her free using it, but now, I just do not feel the same about her, I am praying on it, I am sure the Lord has His reasons for preventing me from returning home. *sigh* She does not live in the town I use to live, she lives near Olympia, on the west side, not far from Seattle, I lived on the east side of the mountains. Still, it would have been great to have gone back, I could have visited my town, maybe gotten some closer.

I have heard about scabies, I hope the insurance companies stop playing their games, another one of our dear "O'bama" care junk. Excuse me, I do not like him, I am very conservative.

Sounds like you and your dad had fun times together. LOL, about the grocery store. That is neat.

You are so right about them being more precious than gold, I know mine was and so are the memories. I have all the books I bought him, his architectural house plans he designed, and other mementos. I wish I had more pictures of him, he hated his picture being taken, I only have a few of him and mom.

Well, hope you get some sleep, can't run on not enough sleep. Take care my friend.

Hugs
Your sister
Susie

yes, we sure are lucky to have Christ in our life.

 

[Christian-Catholic]

Hey Susie, sorry for talking so long to respond but I took. Yield the the emergency room as my itching unbearable from the scabies , so they took me in and gave me the scabies cream to take. I'll hav wot take it again in 5 days. I'm hoping and praying that it works this time.

I can't blame yoir dad for hoping that heaven is like Santa Barbara because it is a beautiful town . I was there once a long time ago and I remembered how nice it was there but that was a while ago, I think in the 1980's. Sounds like it has some ver deep and fond memories for you as well as your dad. Who knows, maybe God made your dad's dwelling place in heaven just like Santa Barbara . It sure sounds like something oir lord and savior would so

My mom used to love watching the hgtv channels also. My dad and me loved watching the bible challenge show, bonanza and family feud. I'm sure yoir dad is living those shows now in heaven Susie. They say God lets us do what we love most in heaven . I can picture yoir dad doing projects like that , but I also see my dad planting fruit and veggie garden in heaven. I really hope oir dads meet there. I think they will get along very well.

Please do not feel responsible for your friends death . I'm sure he knows within his soul now how much you cared for him and I'm sure he also understood yoir situation back then as well, toms I'm sure God has a very special dwelling place in heaven just for him as he sounds like an angel , and I'm very sure he is in heaven right now watching over you as you read this post.people like him are pit into our lives for a reason and that is to make us better people and to brmg us closer to God. The way that they give so innocently, and naively from their heart is what makes them so dear and special to us. Now if they are this special to us imagine how special they are to Christ. Don't feel bad at all for him Susie as The Lord has special riches and rewards just for him in heaven. I'm 100% sure your friend knows how much u care for and love him. He is probably hugging you right now, and remember he is in a place where every year of his is wiped away and he is probably in ecstatic joy right now.

Hmm its weird the way your aunt responded to yoir phone call Susie. Do you just think she is not being herself because of the death of her husband? I wonder why she would respond this way . I hope things will change over time. I know how bad you wanna come back to the states , but God always has a reason why he does what he does. I wished I would have trusted him kre when I was younger.

Yea the scabies was very bad. I hope I can get cured from it as it is just making it impossible to have a. Oral day pattern as I can't sleep at all at night because of it.

Believe me I'm no fan of Obama as I'm a social conservative and I know that Obama supports pro choice as well as that Biden character. I just hope the repiblican scan mister someone in 2016 that can actually do more then become a wimp during the election debates like Romney did.

Yea me and dad had the best times together . I miss him so much Susie
He was so simple and pure of heart. He came from a small mountain village .
A week before he died he he still had his wedding in on his finger and he told the doctors that he wanted to be moved to the nursing home right next to mom.

They were married for 50 years and when he was with us he never left her side.
I never saw love like that between a husband and a wife .
Gosh now I'm crying so much. All I wish I could do right now is to hug him and squeeze him and never let him go.
I can't wait for the day I see him again in heaven as this time I will really get to hug him for eternity


I'm sure that you will never let go of the books u and dad shared together,and I'mvery sure he is a beng if light and love now looking down on you and hugging you . One day we will both see our loved ones and what a glorious day that will be.

I hope the scabies cream works , I'll have to do it again in 4 days . I pray God will take this itching away from me so I can visit dad in the cemetary. I just wanna tell him for the millionth time that I love him and that his favorite show and favorite person judge Judy is still going strong
God bless you Susie and please don't be a stranger
Your brother in Christ

 

[Susie~Q]

Oh wow, Bob, you are really suffering aren't you? How miserable for you. I will pray that they get better and the cream works.

Unfortunately, I do not remember Santa Barbara at all, as I said, I only saw it for a few minutes when the Amtrak train stopped there, I quickly hopped off and took a few pictures from the station, my dream is to one day be able to see it. I hope that for daddy, heaven is like Santa Barbara.

My dad LOVED being outside too. Our yard back home was a "showcase" he was always working in the flower beds, doing artistic little things in the yard, such as making little ponds or nature streams, it was his life, that was why, the last year and a half of his life, when he stopped going outside, I knew he was getting sicker, gosh, it hurt to see that. After he died, I tried to keep it looking nice, but, when I left, I could see it was getting ahead of me. I cried because I could not keep it like he did.

Please do not feel responsible for your friends death . I'm sure he knows within his soul now how much you cared for him and I'm sure he also understood your situation back then as well, Jim I'm sure God has a very special dwelling place in heaven just for him as he sounds like an angel , and I'm very sure he is in heaven right now watching over you as you read this post .People like him are pit into our lives for a reason and that is to make us better people and to bring us closer to God. The way that they give so innocently, and naively from their heart is what makes them so dear and special to us. Now if they are this special to us imagine how special they are to Christ. Don't feel bad at all for him Susie as The Lord has special riches and rewards just for him in heaven. I'm 100% sure your friend knows how much u care for and love him. He is probably hugging you right now, and remember he is in a place where every year of his is wiped away and he is probably in ecstatic joy right now.

You are so right about Jim, he was so innocent and child-like in his faith and in the way he helped me and others. He WAS an angel, no doubt about it, I miss him so much.

I am still upset and confused as to why Nancy does not want me to visit. When I first told her, she seemed so happy, then, she had what she thought was a heart attack, but the test said "no" it was anxiety. Now, she says her nerves can not handle it. Gosh, I mean, we were so close, I understand her so well, I would have been such a help. Now, I may never get back, it is making me sick, I hate New Zealand!!!!! I so needed to get back to be able to see decent doctors, have the food I like, and to get my life sort of back together and get closure. I am a mess now.

They were married for 50 years and when he was with us he never left her side.
I never saw love like that between a husband and a wife .
Gosh now I'm crying so much. All I wish I could do right now is to hug him and squeeze him and never let him go.
I can't wait for the day I see him again in heaven as this time I will really get to hug him for eternity

That is so sweet, my dear parents were married close to 61 years, daddy was never the same after mom died, I tried and tried to help and to make him happy, but his "life" was gone. The were child hood sweethearts, she was 14 when they met, he was 16. I can't wait to see them again either and Jim too, man, it will be awesome.

Yes, I cherish those books, they are "him".

God bless you too, Bob
Your sister in Christ.

 

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Yea Susie, its been a struggle. Sorry about not responding sooner . about 8 hours after I got back from the dermatologist, I had some of my worst itching. I was almost tempted to admit myself back to ER but I held back. Don't know how much more my body can take of this
Ty for the prayers Susie. pray that God sends me the graces to last through this


As for your dad, im sure his dwelling place will be like Santa Barbara because when we get to heaven God will give all that we ask for as long as it is good, and I don't see anything bad about the nature and beauty of santa Barbara , but it will be a Santa Barbara more vivid , more alive then he ever experienced before . He is probably doing gardening as im typing this post.

"""I knew he was getting sicker, gosh, it hurt to see that. After he died, I tried to keep it looking nice, but, when I left, I could see it was getting ahead of me. I cried because I could not keep it like he did."""

Please don't be hard on yourself Susie, your dad understood that you tried the best that you could , and its your intentions that truly count in the end


""You are so right about Jim, he was so innocent and child-like in his faith and in the way he helped me and others. He WAS an angel, no doubt about it, I miss him so much""

Aww, sounds like Jim was your guardian angel and im sure he is probably looking over you right now
He sounds like the kind of friend you make for life and that's why im sure he is probably praying for you and staying close by to you spiritually
Im so sorry about his passing

Jim sounds exactly like my dad. He would give the shirt off his back to help others and never asked for anything in return from anyone, and that is why im still steaming at how these people could just watch him as he started withering away.

For the life of me I also have a hard time understanding your aunts behavior, as you 2 could have had a great time together . Have you told your hubby about how much you miss the States? Is there any possibility that he could find a similar job here as well? Is he open to a move back at all?

""That is so sweet, my dear parents were married close to 61 years, daddy was never the same after mom died, I tried and tried to help and to make him happy, but his "life" was gone. The were child hood sweethearts, she was 14 when they met, he was 16. I can't wait to see them again either and Jim too, man, it will be awesome.

Yes, I cherish those books, they are "him"."""

Aww, true high school sweet hearts are so hard to find, to have lasted this long in marriage shows that they were true soul mates. I can understand how your dad was not the same person after ur mom died , My dad was the same way after my mom's stroke, especially since my older brother hurt him even more by blaming him for her stroke. He didn't understand that mom didn't want to take her meds and nothing dad could do would make my mom change her mind, she was a very head strong person, and ill never forget anyone that made my dad feel bad for my Mom's stroke. My ears fume up whenever I think about it.

Look Susie, there is no doubt that you gave ur best to make dad happy, please don't shoulder any guilt over this because I also went through it with my dad. We can never be substitutes for the loss of their soulmates, but im sure your dad is looking down at you now and smiling because im sure he loves you very much because he can now see more then ever how much you love him Susie, and your right when we see them again in heaven it will be a glorious and joyous feast for us
God bless you Susie and sorry I didn't respond sooner
CC

 

[Susie~Q]

How have you been doing lately? Have not seen you around the "funhouse" or anywhere else. Hope you are OK.

I have some good news. I get to go home. My aunt called me last week, apologized and said I can come any time. I will be going back on October 23, will be staying at least 3 months, I can hardly wait. I got a terrific price on the airline tickets, both ways. This is truly an answer to my prayers.

 

[KnowHisJoy77]

I am so very sorry for your loss Christian Catholic. But I am grateful praising God for his reconciliation with the Lord. ♥
My Dad was my favorite human being too. He went to be with Lord Jesus on 08/04/14.
May God comfort all our hearts mourning and grieving our loved ones.
God bless you.

 

[Rebecca Sue]

Praying for you, please let us know how you are doing!