Today was horrible. Bad financial news...that i didn't know how to deal with. Plus a coworker really spoke badly of me yesterday and I spent all last night trying to figure out how to address it. Then I spent most of today holding it in and feeling miserable. Mixed w/ the financial stress I was ready to self harm. I knew I was gonna when I got home. But I really want to stop so I tried to think of another way out...to deal with it straight on instead of holding it in and lashing out at myself with all my mixed emotions. So I confronted the person who hurt me, lovingly, and tried to resolve between both of us. It felt a little better and then I didn't need to harm. I suppose that is something to celebrate. Like a new way of approaching life.