- Sep 2, 2016
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I have recently realized that I have never truly been trusting Jesus or the Bible wholeheartedly, and it is the reason why I have never seen any significant change in my lifestyle. I used to think "I honestly believe the entire Bible is true and Jesus died for me and covered my sins, so I'm all good. I'm going to Heaven no matter what happens. I want to turn from my sins... well now I feel tempted... gotta resist... Wow the temptation is so strong... I want to sin so badly... I'll just give in and Jesus will forgive me and I'll try harder next time." Then the cycle repeats over and over and I have come to the conclusion that I need to somehow believe more and trust that the Bible is true more.
I've realized that I have never REALLY tried to understand what "trusting in Jesus" and "having faith in Jesus" actually means. Does having faith and trusting in Jesus mean that I make every effort possible to 100% trust and believe that He died for my sins so that God would forgive me anytime I sin, and that Jesus will step in and help me to resist temptation EVERY TIME I am tempted?
I have always wanted to sin and return to my old sinful life, but I know in my heart that I would end up with a reprobate mind and I would lose all desire to repent. I know in my heart that it is wrong to sin, but at the same time I want to sin so badly and just give up on the this christian lifestlye. Do I just pray for Jesus to lessen the desire in my heart to sin so that it will be easier for me to fight off temptation?
One thing that has always scared me is that I have never wanted to follow Jesus because of what He did for me, but only because I don't want to go to Hell and suffer for eternity. I think this is because I have been desensitized to the story of Jesus by growing up in a christian home all my life. Do I just pray for Him to change my heart? Do I pray for Him to give me the pure desire of following Him and becoming more like Him?
I just want to know Jesus... I want to have a relationship with Him and feel Him just like I see other people doing... I always feel like I am praying into the void... no one is listening or answering... I just want a true relationship with Him... I feel like I am alone... so alone... I want to feel His love so badly...
I've realized that I have never REALLY tried to understand what "trusting in Jesus" and "having faith in Jesus" actually means. Does having faith and trusting in Jesus mean that I make every effort possible to 100% trust and believe that He died for my sins so that God would forgive me anytime I sin, and that Jesus will step in and help me to resist temptation EVERY TIME I am tempted?
I have always wanted to sin and return to my old sinful life, but I know in my heart that I would end up with a reprobate mind and I would lose all desire to repent. I know in my heart that it is wrong to sin, but at the same time I want to sin so badly and just give up on the this christian lifestlye. Do I just pray for Jesus to lessen the desire in my heart to sin so that it will be easier for me to fight off temptation?
One thing that has always scared me is that I have never wanted to follow Jesus because of what He did for me, but only because I don't want to go to Hell and suffer for eternity. I think this is because I have been desensitized to the story of Jesus by growing up in a christian home all my life. Do I just pray for Him to change my heart? Do I pray for Him to give me the pure desire of following Him and becoming more like Him?
I just want to know Jesus... I want to have a relationship with Him and feel Him just like I see other people doing... I always feel like I am praying into the void... no one is listening or answering... I just want a true relationship with Him... I feel like I am alone... so alone... I want to feel His love so badly...