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[black-sheep]

um this is hard for me to write but it has too be done
for the past 2 years i have been going through depression and have had panic attaks and they r becoming more frequent
well ive been think about death alot and sometimes wish i was dead my frends r sik of me being all down.. i am too. iv tryed to get help but its hard.
also ive started to hear this voice who doubts when i pray and makes me think negative... and when im alone it feels like there is someone behind me even thogh noone is there i am scared that i will do something i will regret and im scared that i might go to hell for what i have done... i feel the presence of the devil.. its scary... i luv God and trust and have faith in him BUT I WANT THIS ALL TO STOP i wanna be happy again

 

[Vegeta7286]

um this is hard for me to write but it has too be done
for the past 2 years i have been going through depression and have had panic attaks and they r becoming more frequent
well ive been think about death alot and sometimes wish i was dead my frends r sik of me being all down.. i am too. iv tryed to get help but its hard.
also ive started to hear this voice who doubts when i pray and makes me think negative... and when im alone it feels like there is someone behind me even thogh noone is there i am scared that i will do something i will regret and im scared that i might go to hell for what i have done... i feel the presence of the devil.. its scary... i luv God and trust and have faith in him BUT I WANT THIS ALL TO STOP i wanna be happy again

I feel the same way at the moment...All I can tell you is to stick with it, don't give up. Your not alone...we can get though this. Please try to talk to a family member or a close friend about what your going though...it's helped me a lot.

 

[Rosa Mystica]

um this is hard for me to write but it has too be done
for the past 2 years i have been going through depression and have had panic attaks and they r becoming more frequent
well ive been think about death alot and sometimes wish i was dead my frends r sik of me being all down.. i am too. iv tryed to get help but its hard.
also ive started to hear this voice who doubts when i pray and makes me think negative... and when im alone it feels like there is someone behind me even thogh noone is there i am scared that i will do something i will regret and im scared that i might go to hell for what i have done... i feel the presence of the devil.. its scary... i luv God and trust and have faith in him BUT I WANT THIS ALL TO STOP i wanna be happy again

I've been there.

Anxiety and depression are terrible aren't they?

Please get help for these conditions. If you do, you will almost undoubtedly get the joy back in your life again (in time, of course).

God Bless,
Rosa

 

[TheMainException]

Oh dear sister of mine...I love you. I can immensly relate. I too have gone through (and still am going through) depression and anxiety. I have wished for the hand of death to take me and choke the life out of me many sleepless nights. It will never completely stop, but you WILL be able to have joy in life again. Hang in there...life isn't all about the pain. I hope that you will want to talk to me more...you can PM me if you want to speak and chat more of what is going on in your life. Keep trying to get help. Talk to your parents. Don't let them make you sound foolish for this....it is a real disease and it can be fatal (suicide)...think about it this way...if that person behind you when you pray is evil, cast him away with the power of Jesus' name...if the person behind you doesn't go away...do not fear, he is your dear father above who loves you...or maybe just an angel to guard you as you pray. Oh, my dear little sister...love to you! I lov eyou so much. I pray that you might be able to see God's face and the joy and love and compassion and grace that he has waiting for you. Hold on...you can get through this. He will never leave you or forsake you.

 

[black-sheep]

thank you all whom replyd... i am trying so hard and thank you 4 giving me the advice and guidence i guess i need...




black-sheep

 

[black-sheep]

also i would appreciate more advice if it comes...

 

[j_e_s_s_i_e]

i know about the anxiety attacks and depression. i have gotten over so much of it though all of a sudden. i just truly found god. and feel so much better for things like there is a reason im here. don't give in2 temptaion that is wut the devil wants you to do. you won't go to hell if u ask for forgivness for wutever you have done, god loves you and so do i. you can get trhough this, the lord has faith in you and so do i.