so i am having a really hard time right now. like...... i am feeling so spiritually attacked in so many aspects of my life. this room that i stay in is terrifying and full of something oppressive. it's awful. i experience happiness but no joy, and it feels so empty. however today i drank a lot of coffee and went to the huntington library and griffith observatory with aaron.
thats me, looking unhappy. i look unhappy in a lot of these pictures.
again with my unhappy face.
me and aaron in the rose gardens. also, note my giant red zit. it is so ugly and awful and is like a visual reminder of the ugly i am feeling in my heart.
sometimes when i need to feel alive, i take off my flip flops and have my feet touch something. to remind myself that i am connected to the earth, which is so carefully tilted on its axis at a perfect distance to and from the sun, with a life-giving atmosphere and billions of people on it.. and i am known by name and loved by the One who created it all. and i trust he will get me through this desolate time.
me and aaron.
the lighting/shadows of this picture are ridiculous and stole my eyeball.
i loved that thing. i sat and stared at it forever, and when i get home i want to get a small one.
pretty much i stared at the fish for like 30 minutes. aaron is a patient friend.
los angeles from the griffith observatory. i saw saturn through a telescope, btw.
me and aaron in the infra ray thing. or whatever.
also. just some randoms.
i tried on a dress that made me feel like a peacock.
laura, me, aleen && stephen went to panera before Bible study one night.
the boys were being idiots. like always.
freaking hannah blew up 98 balloons for jordan and laura's bday party. and they're all in the living room. and keep randomly popping because of how hot it is in here. and this is a sketch apartment complex and i keep thinking its gunshots. so finally i got scissors and let the air out of all of them. but there were 3 in the bathroom and 4 more appeared in the living room. freaking a.
brandon fell asleep during the party.
james was dancing and decided that i needed to be really close to his butt. i did not agree with this, though.
then freaking james dedicated the song "if i ain't got you" to me.. and he and arnold screamed the whole thing. they were sweating and coughing. i have a video somewhere. it was terrible.
one of the days i went to work with aleen i did lots of walking around. this was cute.
no big deal me and laura are just creepy and took pictures of phil wickham playing football with leeland before their concert on tuesday. no big deal.....
me and laura. front row, center. totally worth the $5 per ticket to go VIP.
we met an adorable girl (with an adorable bow!!) named alexis at the concert;; she ended up having parked next to us. we attempted self-portraits. epic fail many times over...
...so we recruited help.
pretty much the only song me and hannah listen to, and a very good reason as to why most people do not ride in the car with us.
this is burbank. since i have affectionately started calling justin bieber "j.biebs" and everyone calls burbank "burbs" i have suggested that he become a rapper and go on tour with justin bieber and they can call it... "the burbs and the biebs world tour" ....right??? right?/???
..enjoy the massive amounts of pictures. and to think, i am even terrible at taking pictures.